"Do You Ever Wonder Why You're So Alone?"

A message that you sent
With no recipient
A bottle that you tossed
Into the lapping sea

If someone came along
To read it and respond
And found a blank page
Would you keep on waiting?

When you know, know
That something's gotta show
But it keeps on passing over
You never seem to see, see
That what you really need
You just keep passing over

A whisper in your heart
That shines itself out of the dark
A glimmer that you show
Just for a moment

When someone gets a glimpse
And tries to read your lips
Don't pull away
The timing's golden

When you know, know
That something's gotta show
But it keeps on passing over
You never seem to see, see
That what you really need
You just keep passing over

Do you ever wonder why
You're so alone
Could it be you're
Tensing up like stone
So nobody can reach your heart

When you know, know
That something's gotta show
But it keeps on passing over
You're where you need to be
You only have to see
You let it pass you over
Don't let it pass you over

"Dial-Up"

We've
Got a bad
Connection
So like a Youtube video
I'll pause and wait for you
To catch up
To me
I'll close the other tabs
If that's what it takes
To keep this thing running

Now we're up to speed
But oh, don't lower
The quality
Don't compromise clarity
Keep it at 1080p
So we can see things clearly

All these 1's and 0's
Numbers I could dial up
So we could stop
Speaking in binary
Tests and trials of
Long suffering
But it seems we're always buffering
Oh, it seems we're always buffering

We're
Both
Straddling the line
We're either on or off
The connection's
Never good enough
So we give each other signals
And frequent bars
Hoping that a satellite can save us

"Retreat (Internalize Part II)"

Lash out like a wounded animal
I'd have to be insane to act this way
Death stare like some kind of criminal
I hate that I'm this way

Retreat, retreat
My head keeps tempo like a beat
That I can follow when the world is cruel to me
Or when I can't control the way I'm acting
I can retreat, retreat
To a place that's warm and happy
And hope that I'll be safe from me
Or the way my thoughts run rampantly

Clam up like a social imbecile
Hug myself and point my feet
Flash back like a crippled general
Remembering the fights that long deceased

Retreat, retreat
My head keeps tempo like a beat
That I can follow when the world is cruel to me
Or when I can't control the way I'm acting
I can retreat, retreat
To a place that's warm and happy
And hope that I'll be safe from me
Or the way my thoughts run rampantly
And trample me
And all that's in their path
All that I can do is pull back

Genuine and vulnerable
All that I could ask
All that I could ask of me
Still seems indiscernible
It's such a task for me

So I retreat, retreat
To a place that's warm and happy
And hope that I'll be safe from me
And prevent a couple casualties

"Internalize"

Here I sit
And people pass my way and glance
And by some chance I'm not okay with it
It's a mystery to me
Why I lash out in my own silent way
To say I'm not okay with it

When all I want is to make
People happy, but not in a shallow way
If I could say what I want to say
I'd tell you everything's okay

That it's okay to feel insecure
It's a symptom of our circumstance
Adrift on a rock that lost its chance
But given a second glance
That you're okay the way you are
Even with the sum of scars
I love you and don't want you to feel far
You're broken, but we all are
You're broken, but we all are

Here I sit
Look up and try to meet your eyes
But instead pull back and internalize
Cause if I can't make you feel the way I do
It's easier if I just hold onto

So I think, real deep
Try to make sense of it
Try to make peace with it
The feeling that it won't connect
But it'll never be okay

That it's okay to feel insecure
It's a symptom of our circumstance
Adrift on a rock that lost its chance
But given a second glance
That you're okay the way you are
Even with the sum of scars
I love you and don't want you to feel far
You're broken, and we all are
You're broken, and we all are

So I'm learning
To put it out
And let it go
And hope that maybe it comes back to me
But I'm not holding too intently

"Primary Colors"

I don't want to follow the fashion
Or the course the river flows
Does it mean anything to you, to you
Or is it just easier to do

Cause we're counter-culture, counterfeit
Encounter vultures and play dead
We turn away just to return to it
The pile of bile we used to sit

And life isn't a party
Life isn't a rave
Life isn't a glow stick show
It's a battle every day
And I wanna rejoice
I wanna see every shade
Instead of a few select colors
With few select others

We're laughably cool
We're topical fools
Strategically schooled
To be safe and pretend
Socially segmented
Boxed up and represented
Solidly cemented
In every passing trend

Alive
I want to be alive
Not in what's comfortable or cool
Alive
What we've wanted all this time
But we keep following the same rules

And life isn't a party
Life isn't a rave
Life isn't a glow stick show
It's a battle every day
And I wanna rejoice
I wanna see every shade
Instead of a few select colors
With few select others

"Waking World"

I keep dreaming about you
Tales my brain has spun that could never be
Rethinking the foreground
And what it's trying to say to me

When you're out in the waking world
Flesh and bone, you're a fortress girl
What are you keeping behind those walls
That keep you standing tall

When you're out in the waking world
Color and tone, you're a canvas girl
And you're painting all my dreams, oh
From the waking world

Invading my inner sanctum
Intruding on a safer haven
That I have under lock and key
Who let you past the gate
Who let you past the gate, baby

When you're out in the waking world
Flesh and bone, you're a fortress girl
What are you keeping behind those walls
So high you'll never hear my call

"Incapable"

I don't know what I'm expecting
I don't know what you expect from me
I've been living in a far off place
Instead of reality

I don't know where I've been looking
Or where you'd try to look for me
Overturning all these empty boxes
To find reality

Love
Can it really be known
Can it really be shown
Am I incapable of
Anything but
Sinking like a stone
Here in the present, this halfway home

I've had a picture in my mind for ages
A cozy fire, a happy family
While rain is pelting the ground outside
Oh, can I find it in reality?

Yeah love is patient, and love is kind
But still at times we make it messy
A place of shelter, or a raging storm
A place we call reality

Love
Can it really be known
Can it really be shown
Am I incapable of
Anything but
Sinking like a stone
Here in the present, this halfway home

"Board Games"

How can you love me
When you judge me
And you don't even know me

How can you save me
When you're just trying to change me
Just let me try my own way

There might be a speck of dust in your eye
And a plank in my own
A list of logic we could deny
Just for the sake to say we know

How can you stand there
With next to no care
And still have partial blame to share

With no account for
The recent eyesore
It's been a constant downpour

There might be a speck of dust in your eye
And a plank in my own
A list of logic we could deny
Just for the sake to say we know

And there might be a missing handle
But we could still open the door
Light the fire to this candle
Or sink down to the ocean floor

But until you make your decision
Don't say you love me
Don't say you love me

"Cold Statues"

Dead silhouettes
Standing still against
A monochrome sunset
Infinite shapes
Inanimate frames
Immovable objects

And it haunts me
The beauty
That a cold, dead shell
Could shine purely
In the pearly
Misty white shroud
All that a figure could leave
That I can't figure out

Frozen rivulets
Settle gently upon
A sea of vast regrets
Irrational figments
Impassible loss
Tangible monuments

And it haunts me
The beauty
That a cold, dead shell
Could shine purely
In the pearly
Misty white shroud
All that a figure could leave
That I can't figure out

"End Of Days"

If I fake it
I'll never make it
Standing naked
At the end of days

And if I quit
Then I'm the culprit
To take the credit
At the end of days

Honesty
Is where the healing starts

I'm alone now
I've got no home now
But I know you'll come down
At the end of days

My heart is open
Albeit broken
I won't be misspoken
At the end of days

Honesty
Is where the healing starts
And nobody's perfect
And everyone's broken

Honesty
Is where the healing starts

"Flesh And Blood"

Flesh and blood
Don't mean love
There's nothing I can do

Flesh and blood
Can't seem to overcome
No, not the same as you

When all that you see is
The remainder of all the pieces
Of everything you've been without
And you're still holding
To everything that you could do without

Flesh and blood
How deep it runs
Just like a rivulet

Flesh and blood
Building a house in mud
Convinced the structure's set

When all that you keep
Is a picture framed in skin deep
With all the corners sanded down
You call a memory
A scrap of paper faded out

Flesh and blood
Flesh and blood
Flesh and blood

Flesh and bone
Don't build a home
And family
Is up to me
Alive and alone
Are patterns sewn
So guide the string
Of your destiny

"Vigilante"

God broke the rules for me
God broke the rules for me

Step outside the lines
We've been so confident
So bold, so blind
We're just overzealous, zealous
Legalistic hypocrites

But God broke the rules for me
God broke the rules for me

Hold your head up high
Not due to things deserved
Or mountains climbed
We're so overzealous, zealous
Legalistic hypocrites

When God broke the rules for me
God broke the rules for me

When he came down
To the lowest common ground
When he sank down
As a king without his crown
What he wrote down
We could never carry out
He tore down
The wall somehow

God broke the rules for me
God broke the rules for me