"Same March"

You were the only thing
That meant anything to me
I would have given it all
And if I recall
I almost did
Pulled back the line
Just in time
To keep us both from lying broken

And I know it's foolish
Trying to hold what could have been
When our futures
Might as well be pre-decided
You found love
And I gave up
Cause nothing was ever good enough
Ever since I left

You were the only one
I trusted with my heart
I would have spilled my guts
For years because
You really cared
But in that sense
Of ignorance
We loved because we both were scared

And I know it's foolish
Trying to hold what could have been
When all those moments
Only slip through our hands
You found hope
I still don't know
If I can ever find that road
Again

"Bokeh"

Never good enough, it seems
Another missed connection
I struggle to make
You create with ease
And all the things I want, so far
From me
But never seemed to bother you
No they were always in your reach

So if I spend my time regretting
All the things that I am not
I'll never find out who I am
And if everyone is just a piece
A smaller part of a grander scheme
Some of us just blend into the background

Nothing that I try, redeems
So hard to see what to do
When you're just a spark
And others gleam
If I could just reflect some light
Oh please
With a little self reflection
Something more than incomplete

So if I spend my time regretting
All the things that I am not
I'll never find out who I am
And if everyone is just a piece
A smaller part of a grander scheme
Some of us just blend into the background

When all I have seems commonplace
And they defame what I deem great
No it isn't a mistake
To feel that weight
Because the pieces that we are
As numerous as stars
From far away, from far away

Easy to forget
The light
Like a distant fire
Burning in the night
But as a multitude we gleam
As a little part in a bigger scene
In the vastness of the sky
We're all bound
To blend into the background

"Anniversary"

I gave myself away
A year ago today
So much has happened since
But I'm reminded all the same

A night a lot like this
I reached the precipice
And drifted further than
I ever could have guessed

Is there anything
Is there anything left
Of me
Is there anything
That I didn't give for free
Of me

The seasons start to blur
Start forgetting what they were
The beginning or the end
The problems seem to reoccur

And the origin, the start
Is always seated at my heart
That make the days go end to end
Break this monotony apart

Is there anything
Is there anything left
Of me
Is there anything
That I didn't give for free

There's a piece of my soul out there
Running around, God knows where
And all along I told myself
This is what I wanted, I swear
At the cost of the cross I bear

Is there anything
Is there anything left
Of me
Is there anything
That I didn't give away for free
Of me
Of me

"Still Human"

Fall in line with grace and feel alive
Learning how to take the pain in stride
And we ask death, 'oh where is your sting?'
And it replies, in the wake of our suffering
With watchful eyes

I don't want to compromise
But the strength in me resigns
I don't want to believe the lies
So why, so why

After all is said and done
The guilt and regret that comes
I'm reminded that forgiveness freely runs
We're still human

Broken down these walls in all this time
Some things I never thought would see the light
And your grace speaks in spite of our doubt
Every time, even when we shut your voice out
With watchful eyes

You're keeping us safe
Even through our mistakes
Make no mistake
You're alive, alive

After all is said and done
The guilt and regret that comes
I'm reminded that I'm not the only one
Through my shadows of doubt
See the light of the sun
I see that nothing could undo your love
And there's nothing I could fight that you've not won
I'm still human

After all is said and done
My transgressions in their sum
I'm reminded that forgiveness freely runs
We're still human
We're still human
We're still human

"Moments"

The past is perfect
The present's a shame
My perception in the moment
Will surely fade

And all these moments added up
Moments that were never good enough
Now make me wish I was back there
Make me wish I hadn't given up

The past is perfect
The present's a shame
My future is another fear
That I can't shake

And all these questions in my head
Insecurities I've fed
Have made me wonder where I am
And where this hesitance began

And I can't live, I can't live like this
How did I make it through before
Was it just one moment at a time
Tiny rocks I gathered in each stride
Or something more

I'm lost for words
As I've always been
With the gleaming moments
Only running thin

I want to be remembered
For the things I did
But right now, those actions
Undecided

And I can't live, I can't live like this
So get my feet up on the floor
And take it one moment at a time
Even if it means to go in blind
To something more

To something more
To something more
Than I am or ever been before
To something more
To something more
There's a place that I belong
On a distant shore

And I can't live, I can't live like this
I wanna see the other side
So I'll take it one moment at a time
Till they all run out the day I die
To know that I'm alive

"Disingenuous"

Disingenuous
I'd rather be timid
Living in your silhouette
Than be
Disingenuous
Hard to read
When you speak in emptiness

A dull sound and it didn't resound
Ricocheted off of my ears and back to the ground
Cause it's clear when it's kind, with the heart behind
But I've been given wisdom to have half a mind
Not to listen to curse words
That come out a fount of praises
You spout such lovely things
But I know just why you say this

Disingenuous
I'd rather be timid
Living in your silhouette
Than be
Disingenuous
Easy to see
When I feel the emptiness

Life will change but you relive the same
Forgetting all the seasons that today became
Cause you've broken down walls, but now they won't fall
A stone cold heart in need of a wrecking ball
To bring you to your knees
Where you'll find what you need
That you don't want to see
So you won't always be

Disingenuous
You'd rather fight tides
Trying to carry you in
And be
Disingenuous
Than try to face
Any of this

The sun isn't always gonna shine
There's gonna be storms and quakes, my love
Gotta dig real deep sometime
To find, what you're really made of

"Dreams"

Oh, what happened to the light
Did we shut our eyes
To wake in a shadowy world
Where all of our fears unfurl

And what happened to the hope
We used to have and hold
Did we move too fast
Or was it never meant to last

Our dreams never die
Just more distant in time
Our dreams never die
Just one more fight in the waking life

Oh, give everything I have
If I could just go back
But even then it won't solve much
If in the present, out of touch

No common sense, no foresight
The eternity in wrong and right
That I sabotage myself to lose
In the reality I choose

Our dreams never die
Just more distant in time
Our dreams never die
Just one more fight in the waking life

So we could run ahead
Or settle here
This dusty room
In outdated fears
Or face the unknown
Outside our home
The chaos of our comfort zone
Pulling strings
Pulling strings
Restraining our dreams
Our dreams

Our dreams never die
Just more distant in time
Our dreams never die
Just one more fight in the waking life
I don't want to settle here tonight