"On My Own"

I know, that what I'm doing is wrong
And yet I keep on striving for it
Pushing aside all sense
And running even harder for it

Cause I want the satisfaction
Of knowing what I'm worth
When I know it's really nothing I deserve

[chorus]
I can keep asking for help
But when will I really want it
Begging and pleading on my knees
Maybe then I'll really need it
Cause I know I need to change
But I lack the sense to do it
On my own

Is this an endless cycle
Or are these just rivulets
I'll spin around a while
And then forget

Am I breaking free or hanging
On the very edge of it
Clinging onto reoccurences

[chorus]
I can keep asking for help
But when will I really want it
Begging and pleading on my knees
Maybe then I'll need it
Cause I know I need to change
But I lack the sense to do it
On my own, on my own

Repeated defeats
And I am yet clearing
These wide open chasms
Pieces and fractions
Of me, are still waiting
To be, whole again
To be whole again

But I can't be whole
On my own
I've tried every way
On my own
I begging to be better
But I just want to be put together
In the end