"Deeper"

I dug this hole myself
And I'm not getting out
By digging further down
When all the worries on the surface
Were too hard to face
I made a place somewhere underground

And as I feared the light
I now fear the sight of me
Dirt covers more than the outside of me
And it hurts to pretend
Like it hurts to descend
As I'm wishing this coal could just turn to diamonds

[chorus]
Deeper, deeper
I thought that I could find my way
Deeper, deeper
But I only move farther away

I'm reminded of the pain
By the steady soil rain
Falling on my head
I tried to bury the hatchet
But all turned tragic
So I buried myself instead

And it's easier
Than living on the exterior

[chorus]
Deeper, deeper
I thought I could find my way
Deeper, deeper
A new low every day
And the ones who really care
Unaware, of how they can reach me
While another pile of sand
From my fellow man seeks to beat me down
Now my own hands keep me down

A foothold
A foothold for my soul
One that doesn't give way
And leave me to fall below

[chorus]
Deeper, deeper
I've been looking so long for a meaning
Deeper, deeper
Have I missed the layers in between
As I'm barreling down, tuning out all the sound
Still searching for a hope that I've already found