"Seeing My Own"

What the hell is faith
I ask myself
Is it a beeline straight to a wall
Without any second guesses at all

Cause my divine appointments
And brief enjoyments
Always felt so compromised
Everything I follow always leaves me blind

So I lie here like a stone
In a cold and empty field
I always felt I was alone
I always felt there's nothing real
Give me something to hold onto
Give me anything at all
Cause I'm tired of being rejected
The cornerstone of a broken wall

I feel so insecure
Am I the only one
I try to put on a face but it fades
And all my confidence gives way

The second that I question
The second that I think
The moment that I stop to breath
It all comes rushing back to me

And I can't live like I know
When I don't, no I just don't
Not gonna put on a show
No I won't, no I won't

So I lie here like a stone
In a cold and empty field
I always felt I was alone
I always felt there's nothing real
Give me something to hold onto
Give me anything at all
Cause I'm tired of being misdirected
Every time I hear a call

And all their hypocrisy
And all this dead in me
Yeah, nothing can sustain
No it all just makes me bleed
And all I see that's right
Always shrouded in deceit
Yeah, nothing can sustain
Tell me, what'll sustain me?

So I lie here all alone
Clutching fists and letting go
Grasping for the air, but I know
I know, I know
So I pick myself back up
And continue down the road
Oh tell me, just how long it goes
Tell me how long will this go?