"This Is The Last"

Wouldn't be surprised if you hated me
Cause I hate myself
For how much is wrong it's funny how
I keep saying it means nothing now

And I'll try to numb the pain
I'll try to feel the same
Force myself to feel different
Just to go on living

This is the last song that I'll write for you
This is the last time, that you'll be on my mind
This is the last chance, for me to get out
With my heart, only half alive

Never thought I'd feel this way
But I guess I do
A blind and hapless anger
Turns people who were never friends to strangers

And I'll try to look your way
To say I tried to face
The fact I don't feel different
That this doesn't feel like living

This is the last song that I'll write for you
This is the last time, that you'll be on my mind
This is the last chance, for me to get out
With my heart, only half alive

And oh, it goes back again
Every single time
Not a thing changes
No I can't even change my mind
So I follow along that dotted line
That the past has predesigned
And I tell myself again
That same familiar lie

That this is the last song that I'll write for you
That this is the last time that you'll be on my mind
And I'll try to look your way
But I still can't seem to face
The fact I don't feel different
That this doesn't feel like living

The fact that I'm no different
And we all need to be forgiven