"Make Me Real"

I want to be poetic
I want something simple
To sound complex
So I can go in and dissect
And make it easy
So I can wrap my mind around it
Then box it up and call it mystery

But the truth isn't simplistic
And I can keep beating my head
Trying to see it there
I could search for it in prayer
But will you find me?
And if you do, what happens then?
Will I go through all this again?
Divide me

Make me real
Make me feel
If I exist inside your universe
Then show me how I fit there first
Make me real
Make me feel
I'm tired of all the things I've tried
And I need to know that I'm alive

It all starts with a sin
And then follows with a question
Proceeded with doubt
How does it work out
That I feel safer here
Than when I'm trying to follow you
When my vision isn't clear

I'm looking back on everything I've known
Trying to see ahead but at the same time not let go
But when I look to you I just feel so alone
Is that why this place feels like it's my home?

I want to be real
I want to be sincere
I want this to be an honest effort
And not instinctive out of fear
I want to know the truth
And let it be real
Not just a somber reawakening
That my heart can barely feel
Just make me real

What you're offering sounds good to me
But still isn't taking shape
Should I stop trying so hard to see
And let your hands mold the clay

But what will be made of me then?
I don't want to embrace the emptiness
But I can't sit here and pretend
That I believe whole-heartedly
When there's a missing part of me
That still feels insecure
I just need to be made sure

I'm tired of hypocrisy
So I'm giving up my righteousness
And letting you define me

This is not rebellion
This is the question why
So my ears are open wide
Waiting for your reply

"Jesus"

Jesus is my wealth
Essential to my health
He helps me come alive
By slowly dying to myself

Jesus is my breath
My first and final steps
The aching of my heart
In every beat that I have left

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Jesus is my life
Because without him I would surely die
Jesus is my thirst
Because this world will always leave me dry
Jesus is my hope
Because I'm lost without him by my side
Even though I'm stumbling in circles in the night
Jesus is my light

Jesus is my friend
Something I still don't comprehend
To be looked upon in favor
When I've been to the deep end

And Jesus is my prize
When these challenges arise
I will look past every obstacle
Unto the finish line

[chorus]
Jesus is my life
Because without him I would surely die
Jesus is my thirst
Because this world will always leave me dry
Jesus is my hope
Because I'm lost without him by my side
Even though I'm stumbling in circles in the night
Jesus is my light

Your light is blinding, but it's guiding me home
And Your hope has swallowed up all of my doubts
And Your love is reaching, it's reaching out
I give you my heart

"More Than Just Bodies"

The lights are out
But there's somebody home
And from the floor to the ceiling
There's a dark and empty feeling
Of being alone

The heart and mind
Are disconnected at times
But they both will fade away

[chorus]
We are more than just bodies
We've got a soul to hold us down
We all want to soar beyond
The break of dawn
But it's still tied to this ground

The fire's out
Was it ever aflame?
Or did the pain that you're facing
Weigh you down by encasing
The embers in your veins

There's a burning inside
Look, the world is open wide
So what good is it to stay?

[chorus]
We are more than just bodies
We've got a soul to hold us down
We all want to soar beyond
The break of dawn
But it's still tied to this ground

We are trapped in fragile cases, crumbling
The time, it eats away
Our every effort toward
Something bigger than this place

[chorus]

"Feels Like Home"

I wish I could be the things you want
All of the things I've never been
And rise above this cluttered mess
Of the world I'm living in

There has to be a bigger problem
That I've glanced over again
I know in time you'll show me
But I'm dying to know when

Your love is reaching down
Ignites my heart when it hits the ground
And I come alive

These decisions leave me wasted
My bones are crying out for more
Feels like I've used all second chances
And I'm still no closer than before

Your love is reaching down
Ignites my heart when it hits the ground
And I come alive
Open my eyes

[chorus]
These hands are reaching out
For anything at all
To fill a space that I once called my own
I'd like to think I'm satisfied
But can't deny this thirst inside
A longing for a place that feels like home

Your love, Your love
It feels like home
Wraps around me like a hug
Assures me that I'm not alone
Your love, Your love
It quenches something deep in me
Makes me feel like it's enough
To set the old desires free

"Where"

The only hope I have
Feels so far away from me
My doubts have doubled size
And now they're all-consuming

I'm troubled with these thoughts
Of the past and what I see
And I'm wondering why in my darkest times
You never appeared to me

Where are you
Where did you go
I'm being tossed to and fro
I rise and fall like an ocean wall
Being led where the wind blows

You've already done more
Than I could ever think to ask
But right now I need to see a spark
To get me through this darkness

And I've told myself before
That things are on the up and up
But I'm getting to a point where
Better isn't good enough

I want more than this
I want to know where it all fits
Am I alive,
Am I asleep?
Am I getting out
Or in too deep?
Help me

I'm fighting to hold my ground
But it feels like shifting sand
All I thought I knew before
I just don't understand
I don't understand

So where do I start
Where do I go
When will I reap all the things that I have sown?
I sit in fear waiting just to hear
When I'm finally left alone

"Should I"

You've seen the flaw in the armor
And now I'm hoping you won't rip it open
This new vulnerability
Feels like a single word could leave me broken

Does a broken heart ever fully mend
Can it ever love the same way again
Should I just pick up the pieces
And get out with what I have left

I'm trying to give you all I can
But you don't seem to understand

I am dying to be heard
Should I run, should I run away
There's nobody beside me
Is there anyone behind me
At all

And I don't know if it's too much I'm asking
But I can't deny this pain I'm masking

Brothers and sisters of the light
Could you bear with my plea tonight

I feel so alone
And I hope
The feeling doesn't grow
Because I know
That I can't stand here on my own

Should I run, should I run away
When it feels like there's no reason to stay

"Hunger Pains"

I want every song to sound like this one
One that fits in to your rhythm
I want every day to end like this
With breath inside these lungs and fists
Escaping through the cracks of joy
That you built in this little boy
Long ago, from time to time
Every day he's ever been alive

There's a soul inside this jar of mud
Sometimes it feels you've given up
But even with my faulty sight
Fire still burns in the dead of night
The brightest of all hope shines out
Even in the midst of my darkest doubts
And I can't change a single line
That's been drawn in all of space and time

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You give me just a taste of hope
Enough to make me want the rest
I can't hold all you can give
But I can do my best
You leave me with a hunger still
One that never disappears
I can try to ignore the hunger pains
But they always find me here

Keep erasing all I know
Fill the gaps within my soul
Reinvent the things I feel
Until your heartbeat's true and real
Pulsing over sounds and waves
And all the things this body craves
It's only when my heart's a mess
That I feel I truly know what love is

And I can hear you
[chorus]
You give me just a taste of hope
Enough to make me want the rest
I can't hold all you can give
But I can do my best
You leave me with a hunger still
One that never disappears
I can try to ignore the hunger pains
But they always find me here

On the brink of all I am
It's when I find that maybe I'm just a simple man
With one essential need
To be loved and to love somebody
Yeah, to love somebody