"Heavy"

See heavy in the skies tonight
See heavy in the world outside
See heavy in the people's eyes

Can you lift my head
When the sun outside refuse to shine
Can you raise this dead
When the heavy thoughts weigh down my mind

Clouds heavy, it comes raining down
Pit-patter, it's a heavy sound
Breathes life unto a heavy ground

Can you lift my head
When the sun outside refuse to shine
Can you raise this dead
When the heavy thoughts weigh down my mind

Clouds forming behind heavy eyes
Grow heavy as the old world dies
Rains down and brings the dead to life

Can you lift my head
When the heavy thoughts weigh down my mind
Can you raise this dead
As the hands hang heavy by my side

"You Don't Give Love A Chance To Grow"

You don't give love a chance to grow
You're so quick to uproot the flower
To have it for yourself
It's pretty but it never stays
It shrivels and fades away

You could have a garden
You could have a garden
But you don't want to put the time in
You could have a garden
You could have a garden
But you don't want to put the time in

Love needs both sun and rain
But you only give it sunny days
Won't be long before the warmth outside
Is its detriment to life

Leaves turn in anticipation
Petals gaze up at the sky
Don't tear it from its foundation
To be the apple of your eye
It'll wither and die

You could have a garden
You could have a garden
But you don't want to put the time in
You could have a garden
You could have a garden
But you don't want to put the time in

"A Filling Fire"

When the world has shaken me
Singing, why have you forsaken me?
When I've gotten out my blasphemies
Tell me what do you expect of me

Cause I've heard all the words you say
And I've tried to put them on display
When I've fallen short in every way
Tell me what do you expect of me

When I come to Your feet
Saying take all of me
And I mean it truthfully
But the days feel so heavy

When the world has blinded me
Oh so woefully reminded me
Of the person that I used to be
Tell me what do you expect of me

Do I deny all that I comprehend
Try to compromise and make amends
I've striving to be genuine
Tell me can you bring it to an end

When I come to Your feet
Saying take all of me
And I mean it truthfully
But the days feel so heavy
Trying to live righteously
Stepping back to let You lead
Wondering why, not joyfully
It starts to feel so empty

But You are a fire, a filling fire
That I need so desperately
Be my eyes, by my sight, so I can see the end of me
So I can leap from my breach
To the safety of Your reach
I'm so in need, so sow in me
The everlasting

"In Complete"

I am incomplete
I am in complete love with you
For all your promises are new
Every morning
Help me to see them
Clear as day

I am incomplete
I am in complete love with you
Though I am blinded by the night
And the doubts of this present time
I'll be waiting for the light
To cover me

I fell in the street
Cold hands and gravel meet in need of you
Another call of desperation
To the ground
Even lost in the frustration
You're with me now

I am incomplete
I am in complete need of you
I'm reminded in the stillness
And in the waking of forgiveness
And I won't survive without Your life
Your Words are guiding me
I am the bride of Jesus Christ
I've found missing piece
Complete, complete, complete me
Complete, complete, complete me
Complete, complete, complete me
Complete, complete, completely

"Good Soil"

Some fell upon the path
Some fell among the rocks
Some fell among the thorns

Some eaten by the birds
Some dried up by the sun
Some choked out by the thorns

But you who stay upon the good soil
You who rooted deep
In the promise you received
You who rest upon the good soil
You who hear and see
Will bear a fruitful tree

Some fell upon the path
Some fell among the rocks
Some fell among the thorns

Some eaten by the birds
Some dried up by the sun
Some swept up in the storm

But you who stay upon the good soil
You who rooted deep
In the promise you received
You who rest upon the good soil
You who hear and see
Will bear a fruitful tree

Not all who cry out
Singing "Lord, Lord"
Will enter into the kingdom
Not everyone who cites
His Word, Word
Will truly know its freedom

"Do You Ever Wonder Why You're So Alone?"

A message that you sent
With no recipient
A bottle that you tossed
Into the lapping sea

If someone came along
To read it and respond
And found a blank page
Would you keep on waiting?

When you know, know
That something's gotta show
But it keeps on passing over
You never seem to see, see
That what you really need
You just keep passing over

A whisper in your heart
That shines itself out of the dark
A glimmer that you show
Just for a moment

When someone gets a glimpse
And tries to read your lips
Don't pull away
The timing's golden

When you know, know
That something's gotta show
But it keeps on passing over
You never seem to see, see
That what you really need
You just keep passing over

Do you ever wonder why
You're so alone
Could it be you're
Tensing up like stone
So nobody can reach your heart

When you know, know
That something's gotta show
But it keeps on passing over
You're where you need to be
You only have to see
You let it pass you over
Don't let it pass you over

"Dial-Up"

We've
Got a bad
Connection
So like a Youtube video
I'll pause and wait for you
To catch up
To me
I'll close the other tabs
If that's what it takes
To keep this thing running

Now we're up to speed
But oh, don't lower
The quality
Don't compromise clarity
Keep it at 1080p
So we can see things clearly

All these 1's and 0's
Numbers I could dial up
So we could stop
Speaking in binary
Tests and trials of
Long suffering
But it seems we're always buffering
Oh, it seems we're always buffering

We're
Both
Straddling the line
We're either on or off
The connection's
Never good enough
So we give each other signals
And frequent bars
Hoping that a satellite can save us

"Retreat (Internalize Part II)"

Lash out like a wounded animal
I'd have to be insane to act this way
Death stare like some kind of criminal
I hate that I'm this way

Retreat, retreat
My head keeps tempo like a beat
That I can follow when the world is cruel to me
Or when I can't control the way I'm acting
I can retreat, retreat
To a place that's warm and happy
And hope that I'll be safe from me
Or the way my thoughts run rampantly

Clam up like a social imbecile
Hug myself and point my feet
Flash back like a crippled general
Remembering the fights that long deceased

Retreat, retreat
My head keeps tempo like a beat
That I can follow when the world is cruel to me
Or when I can't control the way I'm acting
I can retreat, retreat
To a place that's warm and happy
And hope that I'll be safe from me
Or the way my thoughts run rampantly
And trample me
And all that's in their path
All that I can do is pull back

Genuine and vulnerable
All that I could ask
All that I could ask of me
Still seems indiscernible
It's such a task for me

So I retreat, retreat
To a place that's warm and happy
And hope that I'll be safe from me
And prevent a couple casualties

"Internalize"

Here I sit
And people pass my way and glance
And by some chance I'm not okay with it
It's a mystery to me
Why I lash out in my own silent way
To say I'm not okay with it

When all I want is to make
People happy, but not in a shallow way
If I could say what I want to say
I'd tell you everything's okay

That it's okay to feel insecure
It's a symptom of our circumstance
Adrift on a rock that lost its chance
But given a second glance
That you're okay the way you are
Even with the sum of scars
I love you and don't want you to feel far
You're broken, but we all are
You're broken, but we all are

Here I sit
Look up and try to meet your eyes
But instead pull back and internalize
Cause if I can't make you feel the way I do
It's easier if I just hold onto

So I think, real deep
Try to make sense of it
Try to make peace with it
The feeling that it won't connect
But it'll never be okay

That it's okay to feel insecure
It's a symptom of our circumstance
Adrift on a rock that lost its chance
But given a second glance
That you're okay the way you are
Even with the sum of scars
I love you and don't want you to feel far
You're broken, and we all are
You're broken, and we all are

So I'm learning
To put it out
And let it go
And hope that maybe it comes back to me
But I'm not holding too intently

"Primary Colors"

I don't want to follow the fashion
Or the course the river flows
Does it mean anything to you, to you
Or is it just easier to do

Cause we're counter-culture, counterfeit
Encounter vultures and play dead
We turn away just to return to it
The pile of bile we used to sit

And life isn't a party
Life isn't a rave
Life isn't a glow stick show
It's a battle every day
And I wanna rejoice
I wanna see every shade
Instead of a few select colors
With few select others

We're laughably cool
We're topical fools
Strategically schooled
To be safe and pretend
Socially segmented
Boxed up and represented
Solidly cemented
In every passing trend

Alive
I want to be alive
Not in what's comfortable or cool
Alive
What we've wanted all this time
But we keep following the same rules

And life isn't a party
Life isn't a rave
Life isn't a glow stick show
It's a battle every day
And I wanna rejoice
I wanna see every shade
Instead of a few select colors
With few select others

"Waking World"

I keep dreaming about you
Tales my brain has spun that could never be
Rethinking the foreground
And what it's trying to say to me

When you're out in the waking world
Flesh and bone, you're a fortress girl
What are you keeping behind those walls
That keep you standing tall

When you're out in the waking world
Color and tone, you're a canvas girl
And you're painting all my dreams, oh
From the waking world

Invading my inner sanctum
Intruding on a safer haven
That I have under lock and key
Who let you past the gate
Who let you past the gate, baby

When you're out in the waking world
Flesh and bone, you're a fortress girl
What are you keeping behind those walls
So high you'll never hear my call

"Incapable"

I don't know what I'm expecting
I don't know what you expect from me
I've been living in a far off place
Instead of reality

I don't know where I've been looking
Or where you'd try to look for me
Overturning all these empty boxes
To find reality

Love
Can it really be known
Can it really be shown
Am I incapable of
Anything but
Sinking like a stone
Here in the present, this halfway home

I've had a picture in my mind for ages
A cozy fire, a happy family
While rain is pelting the ground outside
Oh, can I find it in reality?

Yeah love is patient, and love is kind
But still at times we make it messy
A place of shelter, or a raging storm
A place we call reality

Love
Can it really be known
Can it really be shown
Am I incapable of
Anything but
Sinking like a stone
Here in the present, this halfway home

"Board Games"

How can you love me
When you judge me
And you don't even know me

How can you save me
When you're just trying to change me
Just let me try my own way

There might be a speck of dust in your eye
And a plank in my own
A list of logic we could deny
Just for the sake to say we know

How can you stand there
With next to no care
And still have partial blame to share

With no account for
The recent eyesore
It's been a constant downpour

There might be a speck of dust in your eye
And a plank in my own
A list of logic we could deny
Just for the sake to say we know

And there might be a missing handle
But we could still open the door
Light the fire to this candle
Or sink down to the ocean floor

But until you make your decision
Don't say you love me
Don't say you love me

"Cold Statues"

Dead silhouettes
Standing still against
A monochrome sunset
Infinite shapes
Inanimate frames
Immovable objects

And it haunts me
The beauty
That a cold, dead shell
Could shine purely
In the pearly
Misty white shroud
All that a figure could leave
That I can't figure out

Frozen rivulets
Settle gently upon
A sea of vast regrets
Irrational figments
Impassible loss
Tangible monuments

And it haunts me
The beauty
That a cold, dead shell
Could shine purely
In the pearly
Misty white shroud
All that a figure could leave
That I can't figure out

"End Of Days"

If I fake it
I'll never make it
Standing naked
At the end of days

And if I quit
Then I'm the culprit
To take the credit
At the end of days

Honesty
Is where the healing starts

I'm alone now
I've got no home now
But I know you'll come down
At the end of days

My heart is open
Albeit broken
I won't be misspoken
At the end of days

Honesty
Is where the healing starts
And nobody's perfect
And everyone's broken

Honesty
Is where the healing starts

"Flesh And Blood"

Flesh and blood
Don't mean love
There's nothing I can do

Flesh and blood
Can't seem to overcome
No, not the same as you

When all that you see is
The remainder of all the pieces
Of everything you've been without
And you're still holding
To everything that you could do without

Flesh and blood
How deep it runs
Just like a rivulet

Flesh and blood
Building a house in mud
Convinced the structure's set

When all that you keep
Is a picture framed in skin deep
With all the corners sanded down
You call a memory
A scrap of paper faded out

Flesh and blood
Flesh and blood
Flesh and blood

Flesh and bone
Don't build a home
And family
Is up to me
Alive and alone
Are patterns sewn
So guide the string
Of your destiny

"Vigilante"

God broke the rules for me
God broke the rules for me

Step outside the lines
We've been so confident
So bold, so blind
We're just overzealous, zealous
Legalistic hypocrites

But God broke the rules for me
God broke the rules for me

Hold your head up high
Not due to things deserved
Or mountains climbed
We're so overzealous, zealous
Legalistic hypocrites

When God broke the rules for me
God broke the rules for me

When he came down
To the lowest common ground
When he sank down
As a king without his crown
What he wrote down
We could never carry out
He tore down
The wall somehow

God broke the rules for me
God broke the rules for me

"At The Close"

Life is a light
Growing dimmer over time
Until we close our eyes

And all these moments
We're trying to hold onto
Like evanescent fireflies

When we all end the same
We go the way we came
Right back into the unknown
And we call it home

And we insist
We all want to die
Like a hero, like a saint

But seldom think
Of the strokes that take us there
The pictures we all paint

When we all end the same
We go the way we came
Right back into the unknown
And we call it home

So where are you gonna fall
When it all ends
When you end it all
So where are you gonna fall
When it all ends
When you end it all
And there's not another slate
To wipe clean

When we all end the same
We go the way we came
Right back into the unknown
And we call it home

"Every Day, Everyone"

I see the beams from miles away
Another life that's taking place
Events, resentments and mistakes
Mistook for commonplace
And I see it every day

And I'm waiting for the light to come
For someone to acknowledge what I've done
Doesn't everyone?
Doesn't everyone?
So confused what I'll become
Holding tight till I go numb
Isn't everyone?
Isn't everyone?

So close, and yet so far away
Another lesson on display
That I have more than just a say
I can choose it every day
I can choose it every day

And I'm waiting for the light to come
For someone to acknowledge what I've done
Doesn't everyone?
Doesn't everyone?
So confused what I'll become
Holding tight till I go numb
Isn't everyone?
Isn't everyone?

Oh, I've got every excuse in the book
But I can't take one look
In the mirror and expose the problem
And I've got every reason to be
A bitter tragedy
But doesn't everyone?
Doesn't everyone?

"The Starting Line"

Airplane, flies by
Bright lights in the night sky
Flash red, flash white
Passing by my line of sight

Awake, tonight
Out here, no time
There's no streetlights
Only the faintest glow of life

Why does everything that make me feel alive
Keep me from really living
All the things that keep me up at night
Keeping me from sleeping
It's such a strange duality
That every breath is killing me
That everything I take I'm giving

Hiding, my eyes
Escape to my mind
I can't rewind
Go back, change time

But I can live
Like today's the starting line

Why does everything that make me feel alive
Keep me from really living
All the things that keep me up at night
Keeping me from sleeping
It's such a strange duality
That every breath is killing me
That everything I take I'm giving

"The Deepest"

A love I'd never known before
And haven't known since
That met me down the road
When I was at a distance

When I was at my darkest
You loved me the deepest
When I was at my darkest
You loved me the deepest

A love, unconditional
That hasn't been since
It met me down the road
When I met it with resistance

When all was at its darkest
You loved me the deepest
When all was at its darkest
You loved me the deepest

Now love only comes
With the least of persistence
When I take up a mask
When I'm dealing in opposites

And I've tried
Tried till it hurts
Tried giving it up
It only gets worse

I've asked for a hand
I've rejected the same
I've given the finger
Pointed the blame

Because I'm sick and tired
Of the prayers that lasted years
Of the actions carried out
When they didn't reach your ears

Yeah I'm sick and tired
Of trying to purchase love
Charming and haggling
When it still won't come

So what am I gonna say
On that day
When no one believes me
Will you take my case?
When my account only sounds
Like a list of complaints
When no one believes me
Will you take my case?

All of the world is telling me
That love is earned
If you want it, have to give it
All of the world is selling me
Love is earned
But I don't believe it, cause I've seen it

When I was at my darkest
You loved me the deepest
When I was at my darkest
You loved me the deepest

"You Be The Guide"

I can't deny
The journeys of my eyes
Where they have wandered
Along with my mind

I can't deny
That it always feels
Like a battle I'm losing
Like it's only uphill

Where will I draw the line this time
Will I walk it religiously or really decide
Oh, grace like a wave wash over these eyes
You be the guide

I can't deny
The kind words I've spoken
In exchange for a smile
That I've kept as a token

I can't deny
The empty, the shallow
The ruse of respect
It's leaving me hollow

But you fill me up
Somehow

Where will I draw the line this time
Will I walk it religiously or really decide
Oh, grace like a wave wash over these eyes
You be the guide
You be the guide
Wash over these eyes
You be the guide
I can't deny
I can't deny
You
You be the guide

"The Dawn Is Waiting"

It's no mistake
That you feel this way
Do you remember every
Step that paved the way?

You closed off your heart
And surrendered to dark
Now you're wondering
Where is the light?

Open your eyes and see it
It's waiting outside, it's all around
You're waiting, waiting to see it
Open your eyes, it's all around

Heavy, the days
How they weigh
When you're piling it on
The guilt and the shame

If it didn't burn
Then you'd never learn
But if you don't let it heal
It's all that you'll feel

Put the past where it belongs
Put the past where it belongs
And see the dawn
It's waiting

Open your eyes and see it
It's waiting outside, it's all around
You're waiting, waiting to see it
Open your eyes, it's all around

"Traffic"

Press your lips to mine
Or hold a finger to them
You can build a bridge or block the way
When all is moving forward
And all we are is stuck
There's something in the way

Why don't you say it
Make it real
And let it live
In the distance if just for a while
And recollect the miles
I won't let it
Let it steal
The hours from my day as I wait
In the traffic we create

Dashed and solid lines
Mark the pavement we pass
Are they guiding or dividing the way
For so many reasons
I want to cross them all
And try to find our own way

Why don't you say it
Make it real
And let it live
In the distance if just for a while
And recollect the miles
I won't let it
Let it steal
The hours from my day as I wait
In the traffic we create

The traffic's fine
If you are by my side
The traffic's fine
When you are by my side

"Doldrums"

There were warning signs
Two warring sides
Each with banners held high

With locked-on eyes
And fists at sides
Their lips concealing lies

The history is certain
The lines already drawn
We're only here a little
We're already gone

A peal of thunder
And it split the sky in two
And I wonder, who are you

The weight is pressing under
As the atmosphere is too
And I wonder, where are you
Where are you

The history is certain
The lines already drawn
We're only here a little
We're already gone

I can't
I can't keep living life
On both sides
I can't
I can't keep living lies
When it's black and white
It's black and white

"Demolition Man"

When nothing from your lips but negativity
A tunnel to your heart is where it's taking me
From the outside, the outside it is plain to see
I don't need to take that journey

Nothing to offer
To profit, to build up, to honor
Your words always send to the ground
You're tearing down

When loving looks like dust in all the air you breathe
Filth that hangs, but never adding anything
Sticks to me, sticks to me and it's clinging
Like a moth drawn to the light you're masquerading

Nothing to offer
To profit, to build up, to honor
Your words always send to the ground
You're tearing down

I don't care how nice it sounds
If it drowns love out
I don't care how nice it sounds
If it drowns love out
We all drown it out

Nothing to offer
To profit, to build up, to honor
Your words always send to the ground
You're tearing me down

"Synchronize"

Stop
Don't
Tell me that you hear me
That you're seeing clearly
Stop
You
Haven't seen the places
Walked the path of faces

That I
That I
Have had to climb

There's
No
Way to make you see it
You'd just have to believe it
I
Can't
Carry this alone now
Wait for you to show how

Can you enlighten
Can you enlighten me
You are dividing
You are dividing me
A little over time

Tell
Me
How to recognize it
Until we're synchronizing
The same
Voice
Commanding the crowd
Carry it now

Can you enlighten
Can you enlighten them
You are dividing
You are dividing them
I can see the lines
A little over time

"Why Can't I Fall Asleep?"

I close my eyes in vain
My blood is rushing
Like a river
I know you feel the same
Cheeks are blushing
You, the giver

Give me peace of mind

This arid insomnia
My dry eyes are searching for more
This barren insignia
Dead to me like the bones in the morgue

I really want to hear you
My ears are gilded
Rusted over
I want to be near you
Can you rebuild it
You, the rower

Lead me to the shore

This arid insomnia
My dry eyes are searching for more
This barren insignia
Dead to me like the bones in the morgue

And this is not the way I came
This is not the way I came

This arid insomnia
My dry eyes are searching for more
This barren insignia
Dead to me like the bones in the morgue
Dead to me like the words that I've stored

"Hot Air Balloon"

If it was for justice I would be dead
A world full of fire contained in my head
Burning parts of me alive
I always wanted to see survive
Booked a flight and took to the sky instead

But love, sweet love
It holds me down
Keeps my feet
From leaving ground
Love, sweet love
That holds me now
It keeps me

If I was your savior where would you land
Perhaps in the cracks dividing my hands
And there's the part I try to play
But even mountains get swept away
Reduced to dust trying to understand

But love, sweet love
It holds me down
Keeps my feet
From leaving ground
Love, sweet love
That holds me now
It keeps me
Sound

Yeah love, sweet love
It holds me down
Keeps my feet
From leaving ground
When I'm caught up
In a sea of clouds
It keeps me
It keeps me singing

"Wildfire"

All it takes is one voice
To change the world
A whisper in the crowd
Just waiting to be heard

All it takes is an idea
To set the course
And with love at the helm
It's a driving force

Going against the grain
Are you tired
Are you tired of being the same

This is my heart and desire
I want to see love erupt like a wildfire
I'm tired of all this hate
Fate that we've decided
I want to see love ignite it

All it takes is a decision
To right what's wrong
And knowing there are other options
Beside the present one

Going against the grain
Are you tired
Are you tired of feeling the same

This is my heart and desire
I want to see love erupt like a wildfire
I'm tired of all this hate
Fate that we've decided
I want to see love ignite it

This is your heart
This is your heart
This is your heart
This is yours

"If You Feel"

I want to fall asleep
To the sound of your voice
I want to wake up
To that beautiful noise
Like an alarm you're ringing in my head
Like an alarm you're ringing in my head

I want to sing to you
A song of grace
I want to see tears streaming
Down your face
Like a waterfall down to the ground
Like a waterfall down to the ground

If you feel, if you feel at all
Could you feel for me
Could you feel it all
If you feel, if you feel at all
Could you feel for me
Could you feel it all

I want to stand upon
A mountain top
Sing my life and lungs
Until they stop
Like an alarm I'm singing from the heart
Like an alarm I'm singing from the heart

If you feel, if you feel at all
Could you feel for me
Could you feel it all
If you feel, if you feel at all
Could you feel for me
Could you feel it all
Baby

I want to know, I want to go deeper
I want to run as the hill grows steeper
I want to drink from the fountain of youth
In your eyes, darling, your eyes

If you feel, if you feel at all
Could you feel for me
Could you feel it all
If you could fall, if you could fall
Could you fall to me
Could you fall

"Candles"

A flicker in the flame
And we're burning out again
Why would you turn away
To go back where you came

I believe that we
Could burn eternally

We are candles
We are candles in the night
We are candles
We could blow out, but instead
You give us light

Turning on our sides
To fall from greater heights
I don't want to fight
If your love won't ignite

I believe that we
Could burn eternally

We are candles
We are candles in the night
We are candles
We could blow out, but instead
You give us life

We are candles
We are candles
We are candles

"Shrapnel"

There are still pieces
Inside me
That divide me

There is still an intruder
In the lining
The numbers are climbing

Oh, this shrapnel in my heart
That's still tearing me apart
Can you remove it all
Will it ever all dissolve

There's always a little
Left behind, see
To remind me

Is there any hope that I can
Break free
Is there healing

Oh, this shrapnel in my heart
That's still tearing me a apart
Can you remove it all
Will it ever all dissolve

This thorn in my side
This gap in my soul
Remove what is broken
Return what is whole

Oh, this shrapnel in my heart
That's still tearing me apart
It feels endless, feels useless
Tell me when the healing starts
When the healing starts

"Alone"

Bread alone
Can't satisfy
This aching groan inside
Inside, inside

Breath alone
Can't give me life
It's ticking down my time
My time, in time

When you part the sea of clouds
Your heavenly light shine through
Fall all around me now
I need you
I need you

Left alone
To face the cold
Last were seen at night
We hide, we hide

And breath alone
Don't mean alive
You've gotta fight
To make it right

When you part the sea of clouds
Your heavenly light shine through
Fall all around me now
I need you
When your heart envelops mine
Forgetting all that I once knew
Fall all around me now
I need you
I need you

"Oblivious"

In your wake
A trail of broken hearts
But you're living the high life
No time to second guess
Cause you're on a one way
Straight track to the start
Of everything you learned in life
No more and no less

You won't confess
When you've done wrong
You're singing songs and dancing in the streets
Oblivious
Unaware
You don't care if you're others' defeat
And I won't lie
I won't comply
I've done it one too many times
And all you left
Was this emptiness

Well-composed
And well off
Wherever you drift
Something good enough
You'll latch onto
You'll fight to prove
Do anything just to feel it's truth
But just for you
Just for you
Just for you

You won't confess
When you've done wrong
You're singing songs and dancing in the streets
Oblivious
Unaware
You don't care if you're others' defeat
And I won't lie
I won't comply
I've done it one too many times
And all you left
Was this emptiness

The path you take is glamour, glitz and gold
The path you took without ever being told
You followed your heart, but in part you bought and sold
The path you left behind is tenfold

You won't confess
When you've done wrong
You're singing songs and dancing in the streets
Oblivious
Unaware
You don't care if you're others' defeat
You don't care cause you don't see

"Drawn"

How do I separate
These two things in my head
You said that they're separate
But I just don't see it yet

When I am drawn
To one
Not sure if it's over another
Replacing each other
I don't want
To choose
If it means losing the other
I'm losing my cover

And it's been so long
Since I've felt this strongly about anything
I try to carry on
Like I don't really care about anything
Feeling alive or feeling deprived
Why does it always feel that way
And is it ever gonna change

Why do you have to be
So far, so far away
Even when I'm next to you
You're at arm's length

And I'm drawn
To you
But I have to draw back
Just to leave it in tact
I don't want
To lose
I don't want to lose you

And it's been so long
Since I've felt this strongly about anything
I try to carry on
Like I don't really care about anything
Feeling alive or feeling deprived
Why does it always feel that way
And is it ever gonna change

"Course Correction"

A few degrees and I'm lost at sea
None of the world I knew in front of me
Who knew the place a single choice can lead

We're all a bit diseased
We all fall short of glory
But knowing is whole different story

Course correction
Learning perfection
Every day
Stark revisions
Of our decisions
To make a change

We treat life like it's a game
Like we're not scarred and marred and stained
Because it's easier than feeling pain

The roads aren't always clear as day
Sometimes the only way
Is to go back the way that you came

Course correction
Learning perfection
Every day
Stark revisions
Of our decisions
To make a change
Make a change, make a change
Before you drift too far away

"Vertical Lines"

Vertical lines on the horizon
Show me where, where to go
I'm so lost in the crossfire
Of these lights and shadows
Blinded by the things I know

The sky's alive, with watching eyes
See the patterns, read the signs
I want to know why I'm alive
I want to know why I'm alive

Vertical lines etched into stone
How long have we been on this road
Carving days into the pavement
On our own
With nothing concrete to show

The sky's alive, with watching eyes
See the patterns, read the signs
I want to know why I'm alive
I want to know why I'm alive
And I'm captive to these lines

The sky
Towering above me
And I'm only moving horizontally

The sky's alive, with watching eyes
See the patterns, read the signs
I want to know why I'm alive
I want to know why I'm alive
Erase the lines, erase the lines

"Second Time"

Every message
Deleted
I didn't even stop to
Read them
Cause I'm tired
Of your hatred
It isn't true
Just because you say it

So I think that you should
Examine
The words coming out
And what is intended
Cause I fought and
I pretended
Making those negotiations
Oh, just to let it

Go, oh, oh
I tried to make you let it
Go, oh, oh
But you're never gonna let it

You flew off
The handle
And this time doesn't hold
A candle
To the first time
You said it wasn't right
But you're doing the same
And it's still a fight

So how long before this time's the last time
Oh, let it

Go, oh, oh
I tried to make you let it
Go, oh, oh
But you're never gonna let it go

Every option
Exhausted
If there was any hope left
You lost it
You can't burn a bridge and then
Cross it
With tears like a faucet

That you turn on
And you turn off
Like a faucet
You turn it on and off, oh

"Garden For My Soul"

Am I a black mark in your mind
Lying dormant all this time
A stain you can't erase
Cause when I'm gone you're always fine
But when I'm there you tell me I'm
A ray of light you can't replace
Blank stares on every face

Roses in bloom, and I'll be there soon
The world you promised me
A garden for my soul, a place their hate has no control
Please, just promise me

Why did you make me this way
Like I'm always meant to stay
A foot away from any thing
When I'm so desperate to be close
A mile gap I'll never close
A numbing song I choose to sing

Roses in bloom, and I'll be there soon
The world you promised me
A garden for my soul, a place where hate has no control
Please, just promise me

Far away, from all of this
The escape I can't resist
All the pain clenched in these fists
Will fade away

Like roses in bloom, and I'll be there soon
The world you're promising
A garden for my soul, where everything will be made whole
Please, please

"Lullaby"

Welcome to the world
It's a turning, tumultuous place
And you may not know it now
But you're a child of grace

So you cry, cry, to the sky
Not sure what you're crying for
Is it an empty shelf inside
Not knowing, wanting more

As you're wrestling with sleep
Not wanting to become undone
Close your eyes, darling
The next you see will be the sun
Will be the sun

The night is closing in
I know, it's hard to rest
Surrounded by the darkness
The solitude in loneliness

But you're not alone
And you may not know it yet
But you're not alone
Never, never

As you're wrestling with sleep
Not wanting to become undone
Close your eyes, darling
The next you see will be the sun
Will be the sun

Close your eyes
Close your eyes, darling
You're more precious than you know
Close your eyes
Close your eyes, darling
The sun will rise before you know

"Sanctuary"

My eyes are burning
From the pain that I don't feel
Is there anything worth fighting for
Is there anything that's real?

Cause in this life that you've designed
I stick out like a sore thumb
I regrettably embrace
The way that I've become

So show me love
All the places that it's found
Don't come to me
No matter how much I sing out
So if you're with me
If there's reason to this doubt
Then give me sanctuary
God I need it now

I would do anything
To find a place called home
And I see now that I reach out
For temporary thrones

To place myself and my desires
In a place they don't belong
You want to strip it all away from me
To show me that it's wrong

Cause I need your love
All the places that it's found
Don't come to me
No matter how much I sing out
So if you're with me
If there's reason to this doubt
Then give me sanctuary
God I need it now

I'm reaching out for acceptance
I tell myself it's justified
If everyone's desperate for love
Why not accept it where you find
But it's not real
I've taken hold of counterfeit
I've bought and sold my soul away
Will you help me reclaim it?

Cause I need love
You're the one place that it's found
Don't run to me
I'm on my way now
I'm on my way now
On my way now

"Surface Tension"

The push and pull of depth and soul
And surface tension never mentioned
We're both trying, but we're both dying
To be heard in our own words

Meet me, meet me in the middle
Every bit counts, yeah if only a little
I can't stand to stand on the outside any longer

Said I'm discontented and I meant it
Cause all my efforts and endeavors
Are abruptly interrupted
By the roadblock of this small talk

Shouldn't be so hard to open up
We've known each other long enough

Meet me, meet me in the middle
Every bit counts, yeah if only a little
I can't stand to stand on the outside any longer
So could you meet me, meet me in the middle
Even if, if you only care a little
Draw close in the things we know or throw it all away

So if I'm gonna survive
If I'm gonna be alive
Do I settle for less
And give up every stride
For meaning and purpose
Beneath the surface
Of this watered-down life
I swear I'm trying, but nothing ever comes
I swear I'm trying, but nothing ever comes alive

"A Saving Grace"

Blame everyone else and for good reason
Because I used to be myself in a different season
You put me down for everything that I believe in
The same things you say that you believe in

So why
Why the change of pace
You used to be so
Forgiving of mistakes
So why
Why the change of face
When your love could be
A saving grace

Motivate yourself with a bloody blade
It's easy to be king when every soldier is slayed
You'll do what you have to, whatever it takes
A stab in the back is all it ever takes

Why'd you have to change
I have no one, to carry this weight

So why
Why the change of pace
You used to be so
Forgiving of mistakes
So why
Why the change of face
When your love could be
A saving grace
You'd be a saving grace
From the waves
That have carried all your brothers and sisters away
All it takes, all it takes
Is your time spent, instead of saving face
Instead of saving face

You'd be a saving grace
A saving grace
You'd be a saving grace
A saving grace

"Dark Shore"

I'm walking on a dark shore
I'm all right, I don't need to see the light
I feel just fine
Beneath the stars in their distant shine

Echoed voices are calling me
It doesn't have to be heaven, they're angels
They're angels to me

And I'm lost in this moment
Like it's happened before
Maybe that's why so many chase nostalgia
I'll chase the same sensation
Walking down this dark shore

I'm walking down a long beach
That circles back around to my cold feet
With twin paths behind them
The same path that they're going

Don't call me, don't call me
I'm already falling asleep in my desperate dream
You could carry news of a second coming
Just don't wake me

And I'm lost in this moment
Like it's happened before
Maybe that's why so many chase nostalgia
I'll chase the same sensation
With no choice or hesitation
Walking down this dark shore
Walking down my dark shore

"Moving Walkways"

Full scale
Invasion as they fell
The lights grew like a vine
Striking all in their decline
I should have known well
Enough to shield myself
But I relinquished that privilege
When I sold you for a spell

How you gonna go on
When all you have to go on
Is a path spread out in front of you a little at a time
And when you gonna go off
With all you had to go off
You don't want to wait forever, if you only had a sign

Overhead the fire streams
Tread softly for you're crushing all my hopes and dreams
And if the world is really made of more important things
Then tell me what you've found in all your wandering

The planes are shifting as they're sifting through time
With each decision as it's written making different lines

How you gonna go on
When all you have to go on
Is a path spread out in front of you a little at a time
And when you gonna go off
With all you had to go off
You don't want to wait forever, if you only had a sign

On the dotted line, you'll be just fine, you'll be just fine
The chains I unbind, will tie you to another that you can't unwind

How you gonna go on
How you gonna go on
How you gonna go on
Without a path that's clearly drawn

"Sweet Caroline"

I'm sorry
I can't be
The one you want
I'm hoping
You're the only
Chance I've got

Waiting
At the end of
The street for you
Is it ever really change for me
Or does it just change hue

Maybe later on you'll find what you were looking for
Maybe when I'm gone you'll finally hear what you ignored

Waiting
At the ending
To see your face
At the crossing
Where I'm lost in
Your lonely gaze

Is it ever gonna change for me
Will it ever be the way that you see

Maybe later on you'll find what you were looking for
Maybe when I'm gone you'll finally hear what you ignored
I've been waiting all this time

You never really give me the time

Maybe later on you'll find what you were looking for
Maybe when I'm gone you'll finally hear what you ignored
Maybe when I'm gone you'll see
Maybe when I'm gone you'll see

"Nightvision"

There's only so much I can do
So I'll leave the rest up to you
When I can't touch what's in front of me
Believing in what I can reach

And I'm losing the fight to my mind
What I'm seeing, it's leaving me blind
And choosing to keep hope imprisoned
In the furnace of my burning bosom

Why don't you tell me what you were afraid of
All of the effort and none of the pay off
Are you on vacation, awaiting a day off
There's nothing like living like the sun is never gonna come

I'm tired of defending the truth
When it's nothing I could ever prove
I call out in the night for a temporal light
To come down and tell me I'm right

But if faith is a choice when you're down on your knees
An unending choice not to take what you see
Then I've sold my soul for much less
Just fighting for luminescence

Why don't you tell me what you were afraid of
All of the effort and none of the pay off
Are you on vacation, awaiting a day off
There's nothing like living like the sun is never gonna come

Adjust my eyes
Adjust my eyes
Hope is just cinders, burning inside

Why don't you tell me what you were afraid of
All of the effort and none of the pay off
Are you on vacation, awaiting a day off
There's nothing like living like the sun, the sun, the sun
Is never gonna

"Eye Of The Storm"

I woke up last night to find
That yesterday was miles and miles away
I woke up last night, a restless mind
Reminded that I'll find a way

Let your light break through
And maybe I'll find you
My soul is crying out for the truth
Not just any words will do

I woke up last night to finally see
That all of the walls I built were suffocating me
A defensive shell that might as well be
A coffin on its way to the cemetery

Let your light break through
And maybe I'll find you
My soul is crying out for the truth
Not just anything will do

I need a minute
Oh, another minute
To be just fine
I won't admit it
But I feel like giving
Up on life
They say that strength is waiting
On the other side
But it's in the struggle
That I find

Let your light break through
And maybe I'll find you
My soul is crying out for the truth
Not just anything will do

"De"

Oh, it can't be denied
I need to decide
If what you described
Is as I defined

It can't be more clear
The deep end is here
And I deliberated
Deprived for all these years

Of love
Of love
Of love
Of love

Oh, the train's been derailed
Detained all the passengers
Destroyed the evidence
And all of the details

And oh, demons aside
There's vagrants that hide
Inside of all of us
Departing just to find

That love
That love
That love
That love

We'd give it up to find

Love
Love
Love
Love

Deny what you don't recognize
Define it till it's rectified
Describe it to me free of lies
And maybe I'll decide

"The Feeling"

Leading me on
Like a leaf on the wind
I watch myself align
Ascend and descend
And fall
To the ground
There's too much pressure on me now
What will lift me high
Is it gonna be
Real hope
Or the feelings that are holding me

Sometimes I wish I didn't have to feel it all
Sometimes I wish I didn't have to feel at all

If this is all that was keeping your faith together
It's no wonder that it severed
It's no wonder that is severed

From the branch
The vine keeping me alive
I watch myself resist
Just one more time
And fall
To the ground
There's too much pressure on me now
I take it all in
And never let it out

Sometimes I wish I didn't have to feel it all
Sometimes I wish I didn't have to feel at all

If this is all that was keeping your faith together
It's no wonder that it severed
It's no wonder that it severed
Can you hold to what will last forever
I promise that it's better
I promise that it's better

If this is all that was keeping your faith together
It's no wonder that it severed
It's no wonder that it severed
Can you hold to what will last forever
I promise that it's better
I promise that it's better

"I Want To Be All Right"

A long road and it never dies
Every day a chance to sink or fly
I pray the sea from all these drops will shine
With all the tears and choices maybe bringing life

To this dying world that's never the same
Too many roads to take, too many people to blame
Instead of clinging to the thing you know will never change
I wish for meaning, a hand to point the way

I
I want to be all right
I
I want to be all right

A lot of words for me to filter through
Digging in the depths for any glimpse of truth
And I keep hearing what is for me might not be for you
But I've seen the things my hands can do

So if there's hope entrusted to a fool like me
A world class screw up, then there has to be
A chance for anyone who's even willing to see
That there's life outside all of our histories

I
I want to be all right
I
I want to be all right
But that's not life
That's not life
So give me heaven tonight

I want to see that light
I want to be all right
But every choice of wrong and right
Defines how bright
So give me heaven tonight
So give me heaven tonight

"Leaving"

It wasn't anything particularly hurtful
The last words that you said
Just a repetition of what came to be expected

Just like the days I spend here
Neither heaven nor hell, just in between
So the way you've always treated me

So I'm leaving
I'm leaving

I remember I wanted to be just like you
But now it's all more clear to me
I took a part of you on, so now I'm killing it in me

By leaving
By leaving

Gotta grow up sometime
And life has no rewind
I can't make you love me any more
Though I've spent all this time
Giving you the chance to change your mind
It's all made up, and I'm no longer yours

I think every day about the son I want to have
Love for someone I've never met
And why you never thought of me like that
I see the love that other people have
And wonder why mine never stayed in tact
So intent on the impression that

I'm leaving
I'm leaving
I'm leaving

"Wait For Me"

You know my heart
I don't want to burn bridges down
Trying to build them wherever I can
But life isn't as simple as it was back then

When every question is a curse
And trying to help it makes it worse
And no feeling or emotion can reverse

I didn't gain the world, but somehow lost my soul
Did I trade away the only hope I know
There was a nothing in the wind
And I caught it in my hands
Singing "wait for me" wherever I go

Another bullet point
And it hits harder than before
Finds me on both highs and lows
And no amount of hiding can stop it making holes

Will that wind pass through
And carry me like a tune
I'm just tired of being used

I didn't gain the world, but somehow lost my soul
Did I trade away the only hope I know
There was a nothing in the wind
And I caught it in my hands
Singing "change for me" wherever I go
Where will I go

"I Don't Know If I Believe It"

The typical ways we fall into
They come and go just as we're breathing
There's a lot of talk and show
I don't know if I believe it

That someone like me could be
Whatever I want to
That someone like you could prove
I'm worth holding on to
Don't leave me
Don't leave me

So many things I dream but never leave my head
So many words to be heard but choose to stay unsaid
So many lines to unwind but they draw me in instead
Like I'm waiting, like I'm waiting

All the illusions of grandeur
The steady trails I fail to take
Could lead to something more secure
If I can ever cross that gate

If someone like you could be
The hand I hold onto
If someone like me could prove
How badly I want to
Don't leave me
Don't leave me

So many things I dream but never leave my head
So many words to be heard but choose to stay unsaid
So many lines to unwind but they draw me in instead
Like I'm waiting, like I'm waiting
I'm only staying

As far as I can from being anything
As close as I can to pretending
Because I don't know if I believe it

That someone like me could be
Whatever I want to
That someone like you could prove
I'm worth holding onto
That someone like you could see
What no one else sees through

"If Not Me, Somebody"

You're looking all around
Looking for love, can it be found?
And end up settling for less
The searching never rests, it only weighs you down
Not quite like the fairytale

You tell me that you want me
Tell me why my love's all you'll ever need
But I get the feeling
That you're just trying to fill another seat
If not me, somebody

Why the overkill
Voyage for a void that can't be filled
And it's always such a shame
If I don't play your game then someone will

When we're so lonely, lonely, lonely
We're singing if only, only, only
I could find the one

You tell me that you want me
Tell me why my love's all you'll ever need
But I get the feeling
That you're just trying to fill another seat
To make the emptiness postponed
When it's only going to leave you more alone
Choosing different paths to the same old road
So I know
If not me, somebody

It's always weeks that pass, a passing glance, a single dance
The feeling doesn't last, you're holding someone else's hands
Who knew you changed your mind that fast, forgot the not-so distant past
Or was it ever even me you were trying to grasp

You tell me that you want me
Tell me why my love's all you'll ever need
But I get the feeling
That you're just trying to fill another seat
To make the emptiness postponed
When it's only going to leave you more alone
Choosing different paths to the same old road
So I know
If not me, somebody

"You Don't Need Me Anymore"

You were caught in a storm
My voice was like claps of thunder
I tried to mend the sails you tore
A hand so you won't sink under

There was a flash of lightning
Broke the sound and led you home
A glimpse of what's always guiding
I reflected the light that shone

You found your way back to the shore
You don't need me anymore
You finally found what you're looking for
You don't need me anymore
You don't need me anymore

I slipped on a rock and fell
Into a shallow pool
With a thirst that it could not quell
In a swirling sea of fools

You were there like a voice of reason
You were there like a song of doubt
You were there for every season
But the tides change, even now

You found your way back to the shore
You don't need me anymore
You finally found what you're looking for
You don't need me anymore
You don't need me anymore

We push and pull
We rise and fall
I remember it all
I'll remember it all
But sometimes the waves we make
Don't move a thing at all

You found your way back to the shore
You don't need me anymore
You finally found what you're looking for
You don't need me anymore
You don't need me

"Little Did You Know"

I fell under the weight of your words
I didn't let it show
Kept piling up and up
Little did you know
Little did you know

I fell under the spell of my own curse
I couldn't let it go
Kept piling on and on
Little did you know
Little did you know
Little did you know

Wearing me down to a skeleton
An empty shell bent on hell again
When there's bones in my closet
That I'd rather not expose

But it's war for transparency
A battle for ignored propensity
That'll eat alive
What's kept inside, and grow

I clawed my way to the top much worse
Tried to scale it all my own
Dragging me down and down
Little did you know
Little did you know
Little did you know

Wearing me down to a skeleton
An empty shell bent on hell again
When there's bones in my closet
That I'd rather not expose

But it's a war for the best of me
With forward movement and apathy
With darkness all around me
And a far off light that glows

"The Latest Trend"

I've heard the same phrase about a million times
And everyone thinking they're so clever that it came to mind
But you stole from the same source, and of course
You claim it as your own

And everybody starts to sound like parakeets
Boasting by means of someone's more substantial feats
But plagiarized, so as to hypnotize
People into thinking it's your own

Yeah, and I know that everything is borrowed
Not everything we think is true
But I'd rather sample than just steal a chorus
And regurgitate it back to you

Think for yourself, think for yourself
Before long you start to look like everybody else
In the crowd, not yourself
Before long you start to look, start to look

Around at what's new, what's hip, what's it
But it's all been rehashed, you make it counterfeit
So why stoop so low, to try to show
The world just what you're worth

There's got to be something more than all of this
Outside the box, the language of convenience
And all the phrases that we throw around
No clue just what the words are worth

Yeah, and I know that everything is borrowed
Not everything we think is true
We came into this story in the middle
And what's next, we're all pointing to

So think for yourself, think for yourself
Before long you start to look like everybody else
In the crowd, not yourself
Before long you start to look, start to look

For the next thing
Like you're searching
Wandering aimlessly

In a way, being told
What to think
And I think it's really getting old
Yeah I think we're getting way too old
Not to think for ourselves

So think for yourself, think for yourself
You're the only one who thinks like you, and nobody else
So just behave, behave like yourself
Offer up an opinion even when it's not convenient
If it's your own but not spoken like a token, nothing's broken
But just to say it to mean it, and believe it has meaning
And stop streaming ideas that other people are feeding

Just to sound intellectual
And get a thousand likes on facebook

"Because I Believe (We) Left Eden"

I used to live my life straight out of pages
Written down by holy ghosts and sages
But some of it, I admit, lost in translation
Like love speaks loudest when you don't even say it

I left you in the dust, my friend
Without a single word, I hid
I guess my only regret, is maybe that
I never loved you the way that you needed

All those words filled up my mind
My head so heavy that my eyes went blind
If choice is really all the reason for this fight
Why did I let someone else decide

I used to be a kid so full of passion
But now it seems like that ambition's rationed
Not knowing where to invest, I detest it
My actions paint how much I'm double-minded

I left you in the dust, my friend
Without a single word, I hid
I guess my only regret, is maybe that
I was never the friend that you sorely needed

All those words filled up my mind
My head so heavy that my eyes went blind
Tunnel vision for the things I wanted in my life
When it was standing there the whole time

This life, is a broken mess and bleeding
But there's hope, for those that want to see it
I decide, always mindful of that teaching
Because I believe we left Eden

Those men, they lived
And wrote it down
It sits in front of me now
Their words
First hand accounts
I think I'll go and make mine now

"Drive Tonight"

I look to the sun, away it goes
I look to the sun, the way it glows
All hope and desire, such fire, I squint
To see that glint of hope again

I wanna drive tonight
Till it's me and the city lights
When there's nothing more inside
I want to escape my life
Running away for the hundredth time
Until I find my peace of mind

I reach for the stars, they come alive
I reach for the stars, with open eyes
I wonder is there a chance, to dance, like them
Or am I only falling

I wanna drive tonight
Till it's me and the city lights
When there's nothing more inside
I want to escape my life
Running away for the hundredth time
Until I find my peace of mind

Out there, I just might find
Out there, I just might find

I wanna drive tonight
Till it's me and the city lights
When there's nothing left to hide
I'm gonna chase that light
Running towards it for the hundredth time
Until I find that peace of mind

"Puzzled"

If the picture is humanity
And we are all the pieces
Why do we try to fit unevenly
Give ground to our diseases
And if this is life
Why does everything around us die
As we try to fit with it
To clothe ourselves as counterfeit
When it won't bring life

Something doesn't sit
Something doesn't fit
And we're getting into fist fights just to prove it
If something doesn't change
We're gonna spend our days
Clinging to bitterness just to reap more of it

If a picture of divinity
It'll never be complete
None of us can claim humility
When we're still practicing conceit
We refuse to meet in the middle
Afraid to taint our point of view
If your eyes are on the truth
Believe it'll ring through

Something doesn't sit
Something doesn't fit
And we're getting into fist fights just to prove it
If something doesn't change
We're gonna spend our days
Clinging to bitterness just to reap more of it
Until we become it

"No More Wars"

No more wars
No more pain
To bring us together
To make us feel same
No more enemies
No more attacks
No more stabbing brothers
In the back

I want to live
In a world so far
From where we are
I want to live
In a world so far
From where we are

No more decisions
No more mistakes
To haunt my nights
And worry my days
No more visions
Of untold fear
I want to see the future
Clear

I want to live
In a world so far
From where we are
I want to live
In a world so far
From where we are
Where we are

No more gray skies
No more dull eyes
Irises ignited by desire
To see a different fire
I want to live
I want to live there

"Echo Chamber"

I found my voice
In a hidden place
Within the walls
That I was raised

Don't speak unless you are spoken to
Don't breathe a word, even holy tunes
Have a time and place
And it's all for the world to see

So sing it back, sing it back
Sing it back to me
Sing it back, sing it back
Sing it back to me

I found my place
In a hidden voice
A song on the wind
Amid all the noise

It said listen and wisdom be added to
Every action enacted in your attitude
Except grace
Grace interrupts

So sing it back, sing it back
Sing it back to me
Sing it back, sing it back
Sing it back to me

And I will follow the sound
Of your voice
The only song I've ever known
And I will run to it
I will run

So sing it back, sing it back
Sing it back to me (And I will follow the sound)
Sing it back, sing it back
Sing it back to me (And I will follow the sound)

"No Love No Light"

You are not the clothes you wear
You're not a head of hair
You're more than just the way they stare
If beauty is defined
It can't be drawn out by lines
It's hidden deep inside

So much time spent
Trying to look the part
So much time went
By the standards they impart
Don't let it shape you
Don't let them mistake you
You can only lose that game
If you play

Why would you ever second guess
Yourself if only to impress
Some other peoples' emptiness
Don't give them the time of day
If it's wasting yours away
You can love and not be led astray

So much time spent
Trying to look the part
So much time went
By the standards they impart
Don't let it shape you
Don't let them mistake you
You can only lose that game
If you play

You can't disguise me
You can't divide me
I don't care if I don't fit into your plan
Where I refuse to settle
I will stand

So much time spent
Some much time went
Left unchecked
And at a loss of self-respect
You gave yourself down to the bone
And no love was shown
And no light was shone

"Authority"

Am I just a piece
Am I just a pawn
One of your feats
Just ground to be won
Down on my knees
So close to the dust
Treated as dirt
Still willing to trust

There's a garden
Full of bullet holes
In the crossfire of
Two greater goals
Like God and the devil
I'm caught in the middle
Of someone else's war
For authority

So you've got a side
And I've got my own
Willing to fight
For a temporary throne
You may have a right
But remain to be close
If nobody knows that you care
How can they care you know
And I won't

There's a garden
Full of bullet holes
In the crossfire of
Two greater goals
Like God and the devil
I'm caught in the middle
Of someone else's war
For authority

There's a garden
Full of bullet holes
In the crossfire of
Two greater goals
Like God and the devil
I'm caught in the middle
Of someone else's war
For authority

For control of me

"Sun & Moon"

Your blinding rays are peering through the shades
Open up my eyes and make it fade away
Yesterday
Say you're waiting at the end of day
Just like the moon you're moving all the waves in me
Make me see
I can breathe

And oh, oh oh oh
Oh my Lord
I can't explain
So much emotion
I can barely say

Like a vine you're reaching up my spine
Into my mind erasing all the time I spent
Hesitant
Walking down that shore I've never known
Each grain of sand expanding to a home again
So let me in
And I'll begin

Ah oh, oh oh oh
Oh my Lord
I can't explain
So much emotion
I can barely say
I can barely say

Wait, love
I've been waiting here
Wait, love
I've been waiting here

Say you're waiting at the end of day
Just like the moon you're moving all the waves in me

"Clear In Time"

Long ago
As a child
There was a woman
And she smiled
Down at you
That was truth
That was all you needed

Now you're here
On your own
Where's that shelter
Where's your home
Did it change
Like the days
Growing more defeated

And I know you'll find
That silver lining
Somewhere in the darkened skies
This is far from the end
My friend, keep shining
It'll all be clear in time

Set the course
Curb your fears
Growing dimmer
Over years
Be a light
In the night
That's where it's needed

Now the world
Takes its turn
Be a fire
Let it burn
Be the start
When your heart
Is just barely beating

And I know you'll find
That silver lining
Somewhere in the darkened skies
This is far from the end
My friend, keep shining
It'll all be clear in time

And time is an illusion
Only now breathes our confusion
But looking back in the past
Did it ever really last
A wave of comfort in its stead

And I know you'll find
That silver lining
It's always been your place
Where that light outshines
Any doubts in the present time
Wipe the tears from off your face

"Brighten Part II"

I've gone to church all my life
Learned right and wrong and black and white
But this area of gray called grace
Keeps standing up to take its place
Debunking all I've seen, all this time

But I can't find anywhere that seems to fit
For years I've thought that this is finally it
And maybe I'm the problem here
And maybe I'm not seeing clear
But something about the system doesn't sit

I sing
I'm not looking for perfection
I'm looking for intention
Do you know the Father
Do you want to share his grace
And make this world a brighter place

Seems we've made a mockery of love
Mixed politics and made it push and shove
An overcomplicated game
Of casting stones and passing blame
As my Father keeps on watching from above

And he sings
I'm not looking for perfection
I'm looking for intention
Do you know the Father
Do you want to share his grace
And make this world a brighter place

Come with me son
Come with me daughter
This is far from the end and you should know
That I am alive here
Open the window
Don't be afraid to let this brightness show

...

Where is God in the churches?
I'll find him on my own
Where is God in the churches?
I'll find him on my own
In the wilderness alone

"Jubilee"

The fruits you bear
As plain as the clothes you wear
An emblem for all to see
Just like leaves on a lively tree

As you're reaching to the sky
And I'm left to wonder why
If the roots growing underneath
Were meant to reach anything

Is your fantasy
Grounded in reality?

Jubilee, oh oh, jubilee
Is your joy really intended
For you or for me
Jubilee, oh oh, jubilee
You're smiling at the thought of it
But not at me

Can you hear me from way up there?
As my words hang in the air
Caught up in the sea of clouds
You've made as a kingdom now

With little to no response
You tell me to join along
But if this is the place it leads
Then I don't want anything

Jubilee, oh oh, jubilee
Is your joy really intended
For you or for me
Jubilee, oh oh, jubilee
You're smiling at the thought of it
But not at me

Your eyes
Looking at the stars
Love is so close
But you're oh so far
Your eyes
Looking at the stars
Love can hear
Both the near and far

"The Spider"

O, the webs you weave
As you lie in wait
Patience is a lonely game
That doesn't always pay
You'll set your snare
For the unprepared
The misguided, flying
Going nowhere

O, the paths you make
You wind just like a maze
Spread every direction
To fill a vacant space
You'll survive
Where others' hope subsides
And you'll hold them close
Until they die

And the spider died in her web
And the spider died in her web

O, the walls close in
They break and fall
Every fragile line that you designed
You've lost them all
There's no one left
For you to catch
When you're dealing in poison
There's bound to be collapse

And the spider died in her web
And the spider died in her web

"You Taught Me All I Know"

Tell me what is real
Cause all I know is all I feel
Nothing more concrete
Than the heart of stone inside me

Hard to believe in what you see
When you're just as blind as me
With the path you've left behind
Marked with all the people aching

If truth is black and white
With nothing true on either side
Then I'm a mile ahead of you in your own shoes
With nothing gained, nothing to lose

Meet my line of sight
When your chin is held upright
And I'm a pessimist of intention
Optimistic for ascension

So if the truth is black and white
And we're either wrong or right
Then I'm a mile ahead of you in your own shoes
Singing the blues
For the road you choose

You'll say okay
And stay the same
You'll say it's okay
And never change

If truth is black and white
With nothing true on either side
Then I'm a mile ahead of you in your own shoes
With nothing gained, nothing to prove

"Empathy"

I can't tell you to stop
I can't tell you to start
I can't see through your words
Can't see your heart
I can't tell you to change
I can't live your life

You say, you don't know
If you've been hurting me
As much as I've been hurt
I can't say, that I know
But I know that if you love something
You show what it's worth

So here I sit, in the dark
Waiting for a sign to shine, a lonely spark
Where I quit, fell apart
Clawing up to see the light, a lonely spark

Am I just deluded
Am I just diseased
Because I've lost so much by letting
People do as they please
Now the walls
The defense
You always said that I should have
Became a wired fence

As I sit, in the dark
Waiting for a sign to shine, a lonely spark
Where I quit, fell apart
Clawing up to see the light, a lonely spark

So rewire, the transceiver
Cause both are calling but we're hearing neither
Meet the mark on common ground
Use our hollowed out hearts to hear our echoes sound

"Miracle"

Compose yourself
A melody that you can sing for the weekend
Erode yourself
Down to the bone until there's no more feeling
Impose yourself
On anyone hoping that you'll break even
Know yourself
And know you need a reason

See the signs
Complete with off-key notes, uneven rhythm
See the lines
Dividing what you feel is worth believing
See it's fine
Not having to pinpoint the future's dealings
Breathe this time
You're gonna find the meaning

Open up the heart inside
Bruised and broken, brought to light
A miracle you're still alive
And there's still hope to find

Hold the door
Slight enough for some light to creep in
Open more
No fear of facing the deepend
Close that door
And there may be no way to see it
Feet on the floor
What's a heart if it isn't bleeding

"Dogmatic Charismatic"

It's been a long time
Of the same thing
Seeing, never
Understanding
And these scars
Won't go away
You find the hole in my armor
And that's where I cave

This isn't love
And I won't stay
I'm tired of
Going on this way
The more you push
The more I pull away
Let go, let go of me

What I bring up
It gets put down
No more
No sound
I'll designate
What I display
No one you call a friend
Should make you feel this way

This isn't love
And I won't stay
I'm tired of
Going on this way
The more you push
The more I pull away
Let go, let go of me

Not yours to own, not yours to own
Not yours to own, and throw away

It's all just give and take
What I give you don't reciprocate
And it hurts to fade away
But it's killing me to stay

"Brighter Together"

How long
Have we wandered like sparks
Fluttered out in the night
A single moment's explosion
Not enough to ignite

But it won't last long
No it never does
As we scatter, scatter

How long
Have we traded ourselves
Filtered out by the night
A dark absence of heat
A cold absence of light

But it won't last long
No it never does
As we come together
As we come together

Your hands are so far
I've been reaching
And only receiving the dark
We are a fire
Segmented and severed
When I know we
Could shine brighter together

How strong
Do you have to seem
To get the attention you want
Sacrificing what you need
Just to not become an afterthought

How long
Do you need to be low
For someone to listen
Till guilt takes its tow
And they let you out of their prison

I hope it won't last long
Thank God that it won't
It could be forever
It could be forever

Your hands are so far
I've been reaching
But I'm still behind bars
We are a fire
Segmented and severed
When I know we
Shine brighter together

"You Just Changed My Life"

In all the waves of confusion
I've been looking for a new sun
To rise above the dark horizon

In all the nightmares repeating
In all the sounds of defeating
Reality just keeps impeding

You just changed my life
You just changed my

In all the waves of confusion
I've been seeking a solution
So it seems that nothing's doing

In all the nightmares repeating
Into the daytime they're bleeding
You reminded me my heart's still beating

You just changed my life
You just changed my life

I don't care about God or the devil
I don't care about heaven or hell
If it won't change here and now

You just changed my life
You just changed my life
With a voice of love
In the dead of my night
You reached down and gave me
A glimpse of light
You just saved my life

"Hold On Like It's The Only Thing You Have"

People will hate you for being happy
People will pity you for being sad
But if someone will love you through and through
Hold on like it's the only thing you have

People will tell you that you're crazy
Do all they can to feel they're sane
In a crazy world of mass confusion
Can I find shelter from this rain?

And I could do it, I could do it alone
But tell me where's the fun in that
I don't want my life to scrape by
With hope just spilling through the cracks
Immerse me, submerge me

Friends will shrug off every word
Your parents, shoot down all your dreams
Because they gave up on theirs some time ago
With not much left that they believe

But if everything in this life is a choice
Well I'll choose my own family
Yeah I'll make my own destiny

And I could do it, I could do it alone
But tell me where's the fun in that
I don't want my life to scrape by
With hope just spilling through the cracks
Immerse me, submerge me
Immerse me, emerging

Hope and happiness
Have got to be more than this
Right now they feel so far away
And all my confidence
They shut it down like common sense
No I can't live this way
Give it up, I hear them say

And I could do it, I could do it all alone
But tell me where's the fun in that
In this puzzle we're all pieces
That fit together just like fact
So immerse me, submerge me
Immerse me, emerging

"Mirages"

I'm on an island
And it's sinking
I don't know what
I was thinking
Trying to find home
In the great unknown
Leaving without reason
To be left alone
And I'm tied down
By the riptides
The deception
Of my bloodline
It's a current
Of shame
Take it all upon me
Just to let it out the same

Everyone you know and love
Is miles away from here
So why you chasing shadows
When you know they'll disappear
Mirages, mirages
Mirages, mirages

I'm on my last line
That's the feeling
Like nothing's latching on
And I'm reeling
Like there's no tomorrow
Though it's always in tow
A faint reminder in bold
That time doesn't slow
For the witness
Or the wilting
The rain falls
On the innocent and guilty

So if everyone you know and love
Is miles away from here
Why you shooting arrows
At a target that ain't clear
Mirages, mirages
Mirages, mirages

Mirages, mirages
Mirages, mirages

"Never Too Old"

Has your love run dry
Or are you just biding time
Waiting for the morning light
But living like it's always night
Has your ship capsized
Cause it's not in sight
As hope steals from greater heights
To help us resist the tides

Getting older, getting smarter
Getting comfortable, getting no farther
Growing more accustomed to
The years we've taken on as truth
And we won't budge

Never too old, to realize
Never too old, to see through a child's eyes
And never too tough, not to show your weakness sometimes
I thought we were more than victimized

Have you given up
Is it good enough
Is this all too tough
Well good, good
Cause we'll never learn
If the fire don't burn
Learning every day
From the process of progress in mistakes

Getting older, getting smarter
Getting comfortable in lukewarm water
Growing more accustomed to
The years we've taken on as truth
And we won't budge

Never too old, to realize
Never too old, to see through a child's eyes
And never too tough, not to show your weakness sometimes
I thought we were more than victimized

Open eyes need to be pried open sometimes
My open eyes need to be pried open sometimes
As the years all snowball into one
I forget where this journey all begun

Never too old, to realize
Never too old, to see, to see, to see
To see for the first time

Never too old, to realize
Never too old, to see through a child's eyes
And never too tough, not to show your weakness sometimes
I thought we were more than hollow lives

"Life In The Tension"

So here is the choice
I could listen to your voice or just back down
Back to where I've been
Back where my wings only settle on the ground

Life in the tension, oh I run (oh I run)
Life in the tension, oh I run
Tell me who will I become

So here is the struggle
Running into trouble everywhere I turn
And I don't want to believe
That I am the diseased causing all this hurt

Perpetuated pain
Is still pain all the same
Got to break from the reigns
Break free from the gravity
Oh, oh, what's holding me

Life in the tension, oh I run (oh I run)
Life in the tension, oh I run
Tell me who you want, you want me to become
Life in this tension, oh I run
Too afraid to see what may come

"Industrial Revolution"

Controlling
In everything you try to hold me
Down
Do you even know me
Do you know how much I need this
Now

To know someone is on my side
To know you hear the same as I
Have listened, time after time

Billowing with smoke
You choke
The life right out of me
You're burning down
The last bit of hope
That I had left in me
From the pride you're manufacturing
Yeah, just like a factory

We're growing
In every seed we're sewing
Now
Still have lessons
To learn from imperfections
Unsettled, unsound

But if you believe in truth
But follow none of love
How can you say it's from above

Billowing with smoke
You choke
The life right out of me
You're burning down
The last bit of hope
That I had left in me
From the pride you're manufacturing
Yeah, just like a factory

And oh god, you're so holy
The whole world's looking at you
But not complete, and not wholly
At the hell you've put me through
I'm caving in, it makes no sense
How pride and hate could be so blessed
You're nowhere in this, nowhere in this
Nowhere in this

"I Am Nothing, Says The Grain Of Sand"

Making maps inside my mind
Trying to find a way out
And to that place
Where maybe I could find
Some kind of alternate design
Outside of past mistakes

Cause out there is a love I'll never have
At least not the one I want or deserve
And I grow tired of giving out
What no one seems care about
I fight so hard just to be heard

So maybe I'll always be this way
And maybe things will always stay like this
But there's a lighthouse in the past
That I can just barely make out among the mist
And don't tell me that there's nothing more for me in this life
Cause sitting in this darkness
I know it's from a lack of light

People are changing
And I've changed so much as well
Seen the best and worst in everything
As I'm standing, just a shell
Cause it's always so empty
Every option that I choose
The little joy I have in life
I'm always being asked to lose

So I'll hide away to a place where only you can find me
Because I can't find hope in anyone
No I won't find you in anyone

Lift these scales from my eyes
Cause all I know has left me blind
Is there no future for me
You say it's for me to decide
But I've nothing left
I've nothing left
That doesn't leave me dead inside

So an outstretched hand
In the naked air
Do you understand just how impaired
It's left me
To know there's no one there
To take ahold
To meet that reach
To match my cause
To love despite a list of flaws
Seems that no one
That no one
Does

"Ears To Hear"

It's easy to be above it
When you push others below
Do you ever stop and think
About the meek you've kept in tow

And I know we all are different
And that grace will fall the same
But when you claim you're separated
And yet still put me down the same

I'm getting tired
Of the same old state of mind
But in a different frame of time
The last should be the first to know
That a heart is found both far and close
And yet you still won't hear mine

It hurts so bad to trust no one
When they've given you no reason
I feel I was meant to connect somehow
But they're too preoccupied to listen

Do you ever consider, consider me
Do you ever consider, the things that aren't made easy

I'm getting tired
Of the same old state of mind
But in a different frame of time
The last should be the first to know
That a heart is found both far and close
And yet you still won't hear mine

Can you love a loser like me
Can you see that it's just what I need
No I'm no celebrity
I'm not the A type personality
But I still bleed, I still need

I'm getting tired
Of the same old state of mind
But in a different frame of time
The last should be the first to know
That a heart is found both far and close
And yet you still won't hear mine
When will you take the time
Take the time to hear mine

"Fourth Among the Flames"

Walking through the valley
Feel the rain fall on my face
As I'm waiting for you
Oh I only need a taste

I won't run away
I won't run away
Just like the fourth among the flames
You're standing with me again, through this

Walking through the valley
Feeling far removed from grace
As I'm waiting for you
Oh just a glimpse of your face

When that's not what it takes

I won't run away
I won't run away
Just like the fourth among the flames
You're standing with me again, through this

No we don't stand alone
No we don't stand alone through this

"For The Birds"

Feeling so sorry for myself
Feeling like nothing really helps
Sometimes it seems I'm only looking for perfection
And my only way out hurts
So I avoid it at all costs
Cause I'm searching for solace in absolution

But maybe the two aren't the same

So I could lose it all
Or lose it all
I can never be quite what I want
Cause it's always just a part of the picture
But never a complete fixture
Seems like I'm broken either way
Is this how it's going to stay

Can't kill this dead on my own
But either way I feel alone
Stranded or misguided
When I know there is a way
There's people passing everyday
Who seem to see where the light is

Just waiting for that open door
So I can find it

So I could lose it all
Or lose it all
I can never be quite what I want
Cause it's always just a part of the picture
But never a complete fixture
Seems like I'm broken either way

Nothing good enough
For me
Nothing good enough
From me
I can't be who I am
Can't be who I want to be
So help me
Help me, be

Cause I could lose it all
Or lose it all
One way or another
I offer up myself
It's all that I can give
So I can understand
So I can live

"Swept Into The Storm"

I've seen things the same way as you before
And now that I'm here it's easy to ignore
The optimistic, idealistic point of view
Because nothing has rung true

And you say in the face of doubt there's hope
But it's the very moment I don't know
I try to press on but get pushed away
And you say that that's faith

So where is my strength
Where is my resolve
I feel so weak
In every regard
Both in the truth and on my own
Doesn't matter who is on the throne
I'm still swept, into the storm

I've seen faith die and addictions rise
Seen streams of light from the other side
Pinholes through the cracks
From under the rubble I'm losing track

So help me

Where is my strength
Where is my resolve
I feel so dead
In every regard
Both to the truth and on my own
Doesn't seem to matter who is on the throne
I'm still swept, into the storm

My heart is becoming apart of the waves
As they're rising and falling and pulling away
Ripping and swaying, and coming alive
As it's tearing me down I see the former die

"Barnabas"

Didn't know I could be this hated
There's always someone on the other side
A different perspective
And still I wonder why

So if we can't see, eye to eye
And if we're both bent, on do or die
I'd like to think, that maybe I
Could learn to live
Could learn to live

Pick it up and move along now
Everything is just baggage in the end
It could be a burden, yeah
Depending how you carry it

So if we can't see, eye to eye
And if we're both bent, on do or die
I'd like to think, that maybe I
Could learn to live
Could learn to live
Like taking a breath for the first time

And I'd say this is the first time
I could ever say, that I'm okay
That nothing is okay
And I'd say this is the first time
I could ever say, that I'm okay
That nothing is okay
We all have to go our own way

So if we can't see, eye to eye
And if we're both bent, on do or die
I'd like to think, that maybe I
Could learn to live
Could learn to live
Like taking a breath for the first time