"Why Do I Run?"

Do you remember the beginning of the end
My heart turned back into stone again
I didn't listen to a single word you said
So I carried on like I never had

Every breakdown
Is a breakthrough
Oh, I believe it's true

So why do I run
Why do I run
Away from you, am I hiding from the sun?
Why do I run
Why do I run
When I face the light, do I see what I've become?
What I've become

Do you recall the time I heard your voice
The sound resounding behind all of the noise
Cause I can't forget, was presented with a choice
To turn a cry of anguish into one of rejoice

So why do I run
Why do I run
Away from you, am I hiding from the sun?
Why do I run
Why do I run
When I face the light, do I see what I've become?

Should be an easy decision
But lies seep in through my heart's incision
And cloud my vision
Until the love you're giving
Is ridden with half-truths and misconceptions
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
But only because of the sight I've been given
A ribbon of hope, like a rope that I'm gripping
So desperately

And yet I still run
Yeah, I still run
Away from you, am I hiding from the sun?
To settle down in my own shadows
Awake to the depths, yet embrace the shallow
Still so inept in what I deem hallowed
Don't let me be

"My Midnight"

Sometimes I feel like the night's my only friend
The half moon singing in the sky at the day's end
And I can't see the stars in the sky overhead
Cause I haven't arched my neck that direction yet

It's been a long time coming
And it's gone
It's been a long time coming
And it's gone

Sometimes I feel like I'm just afraid
To do what's right and say what I need to say
But I kick my feet in this lazy bed I lay
And say that I'll find the time another day

It's been a long time coming
And it's gone
It's been a long time coming
And it's gone

And all my hope I buried in the ground
So deep that I couldn't hear it make a sound
And it's a winding slope I'm heading down
But oh, your words they still resound

It's been a long time coming
And it's gone
It's been a long time coming
And it's gone
But you're still here

"Unaware"

Playing bloody knuckles with myself
See how long before I cry for help
Push the dirt into the corner
We can worry about it later
Along with everything else

Don't ask me for a reason
I'm just tired, tired of breathing
With a heavy burden on my chest
Embrace the pain or ignore the rest
My own inner-demons

I can't keep making excuses
To get through this, they're all useless
Yeah it only weighs me down
Than to push right through
The stress and friction
Act above it till it's non-fiction
Pretending I don't care
To make myself more unaware

What to do when I don't feel at all
When motivation hits a wall
And I'm left there standing
Looking like I don't understand it
Wait till it dissolves

Then carry on the thought
Of who I am with what I'm not
As I start
To play the arbitrary part
Cause I feel it's all I've got

I can't keep making excuses
To get through this, they're all useless
Yeah it only weighs me down
Than to push right through
The stress and friction
Act above it till it's non-fiction
Pretending I don't care
To make myself more unaware

It's apathy at it's finest
But can it clear my head
Filter out what I don't need
Until I'm something else instead
Will it get it done
Will it get it done
I'm so concerned with nothing
That I'm turning into no one

I can't keep making excuses
To get through this, they're all useless
Yeah it only weighs me down
Than to push right through
The stress and friction
The right and wrong, my heart's division
Pretending I don't care
To make myself more unaware

"Just Cause"

Give me some words I can get behind
Fists in the air like a battle cry
I'm not inclined toward a golden voice
Just some truth bleeding out amongst all the noise

Help me get up out of my chair
To take a stand, could you make me care
Cause I miss the days when I had a cause
Without a direction I end up lost

I'm surrounded
Surrounded by the trees
A lonely place of life and leaves
And I break every branch
In a dead sprint back to a broken city

Cadence and consistency
To fall in line in every breath I breathe
That the path burst forth before my steps
Before my mind wavers again and I forget

I'm surrounded
Surrounded by the trees
A lonely place of life and leaves
And I break every branch
In a dead sprint back to a broken city
To a broken place I've built within me

Just cause it happens
Over and over again
Doesn't mean it doesn't end
Just cause it's happened
Over and over again
Doesn't mean it doesn't end

I'm surrounded
Surrounded by the trees
In a desperate act of defiance, see
I break every branch
In a dead sprint back to a broken city
To a broken place I've built within me
A dead sprint back to the broken city
To the broken place I've built within me

"Curse The Day"

Hurt and pain
And dirt and rain
Feel the weight
Ignore the strain
You're not allowed
To feel this way
You're not alone
So don't complain

Misguided words
That people say
The heavy hands
That guide my way
Don't be alarmed
Just be afraid
Discard your hope
Be on your way

And I don't know the answers
No I don't know the way
And I don't know the reason
Why every good thing fades
But I'll watch the sun go down
In its innocent display
And curse the hours till morning
And curse the day

Faults and shame
And loss and gain
My pride is broken
I'm left the same
The moment left
Like the moment came
Emotions drift
Over the heart's plain

And the white and black
Don't define the gray
It's a copycat
Trying to steal the stage
When it can't compare
No it never stays
As it gives itself
To the ivories

And I don't know the answers
No I don't know the way
And I don't know the reason
Why every good thing fades
But I'll watch the sun go down
In its innocent display
And curse the hours till morning
And curse the day

And I've heard your symphonies
I've heard your lies
You try to strike a chord
So you don't have to wonder why
And I've searched the depths of me
Reached deep inside
To find I don't know anything
It's where I'll start my climb

Cause I don't know the answers
No I don't know the way
And I don't know why we live or die
Or where we're gonna go someday
But I'll watch the sun go down
In its innocent display
And curse the hours till morning
And curse the day
I curse the hours till morning
And I, I curse the day

"Independence"

Put the pieces back
Back to a life on track
I need stability
Sometimes it's outside my ability

A week of rest, so tired
Yeah, cause freedom gets me wired
I need consistency
To pursue it persistently

And who do I become
Always on the run, but still stuck in place
And who do I become
I'm not glad I'm here, but so glad for grace
And who do I become
When no one's watching me, is this liberty
Or a prison

I wash the dirt from me
What I collect and what I still don't see
But I can't get it all
Not what's invisible

Not so indivisible, I'm cut in two
The things I want are just what I never do
But in everything I know there is a choice
You give me a voice

And who do I become
Always on the run, but still stuck in place
And who do I become
I'm not glad I'm here, but so glad for grace
And who do I become
When no one's watching me, is this liberty
Or a prison
Cause it feels like division

And I can't run, and I can't hide
From the war in myself and the war outside
What am I doing as I'm using all this misplaced pride
On me, when I've been given something

"The Best Of You"

Carry yourself like a secret
Heart so close that you keep it
Deep inside
Where only your thoughts can hide

Wade through your eyes to the deep end
Bright and mysterious, there's no end
In sight
But I'm aching to see that light

And now I'm waiting for that glimpse of truth
Yeah, I'd give anything to see the best of you

Lost for a time, I'm still learning
While all of the questions are burning
Who are you
And how can I find you

Your dagger stare can impale me
And every time you smile you derail me
But I'm dying to see it, baby
The best of you
In the rest of you

And now I'm waiting for that glimpse of truth
Yeah, that stream of light to burst right through
Yeah, I'd give anything to see the best of you

And now I'm waiting for that glimpse of truth
Yeah, that stream of light to burst right through
Now I'm waiting for that glimpse of truth
Yeah, I'd give anything to see the best of you

"Not Around"

Not around, she's not around
To feel the hurt or pain
Not around, she's not around
To tell you it's okay

Not around, she's not around
To brighten up your day
But there's still sun in the sky above
Until you see her light someday

And don't forget the world she left
That won't ever be the same
And spend your days trying to make a change
Good as half the one she made

Not today, you won't be okay
Not with all this rain
Though it wasn't here just yesterday
It'll fall over again

Not today, no please not today
Remembering her face
Not today, but again someday
When you stand before those gates

And don't forget the world she left
That won't ever be the same
And spend your days trying to make a change
Good as half the one she made

And so we walk along this dusty trail
And we wonder why we're here
When all of this will end someday
And the rest is still unclear
Yeah, the rest is still unclear
But we don't just disappear

Still around, she's still around
In the steady stream of tears
Still around, when they fall to the ground
And you're left with all your fears

So don't forget the world she left
That won't ever be the same
But spend your days trying to make a mark
Good as half the one she made

"Dead Tired"

Dead tired
Still I sit up for the night
I say I'll sleep when I die
Dead tired
As I dream through the day
Sleep with eyes open wide

Dead tired
The only time I feel alive

Dead tired
Never enough in me
As what is ever required
Dead tired
And I drag through the motions
No motion inside

Dead tired
The only time I feel alive

Dead tired
Riding on flat tires through this life
Dead tired
And I never benefit from doing right

Dead tired
Between the always blurring lines
Dead tired
Dead tired