"String Theory"

Do you ever wonder
If you're on the right path
Or think of what could change
If you could go back
With every string to everything
That your heart is now attached
If you could cut and run
With only what would stay intact

I'm still holding on
I'm still holding on
I'm still holding on
To that string of hope
That I could rewrite what I've done

Do you ever regret
The things you've done
That things might never be the same
With someone
I wish there was an easy way
To make it all make sense
But it's the moment that I question
That I'm stuck in present tense

I'm still holding on
I'm still holding on
I'm still holding on
To that string of hope
Cut and run

Let it be
Set it free
Let it be
She'll return
If it was meant to be

"Are We Only Shadows"

Awake, alive
Have we ever been before
All this time
I've waited for the day to come
To wake my eyes
Like the waves rush up against the shore
And break the line
Blinding like the morning sun

All this darkness
Was it ever meant to be
All this greatness
Repelled by all the dark in me
Do we see clearly
With these secondhand irises
Or are we only shadows

I watch the ghosts cast by the trees
In repeating lines in front of me
The part that follows after
After the light has hit the rafters

Are we casted just the same
Like the cold outside eternal flame
Just a figment of the source
The unequal, opposing force

All this darkness
Was it ever meant to be
All this greatness
Repelled by all the dark in me
Do we see clearly
With these secondhand irises
Or are we only shadows

Are we only shadows
Are we only shadows

"The Law and the Lawyer"

A license, a degree
To hold integrity
But oh, it's so weighed down
By the humanity

It's twisted, it's diffused
Oh what a great misuse
Who are we told hold the crown
Who are we to know truth

The divine
We define
Contained in a sleek case
And kept confined
We redesign
By drawing lines
Are we students
Or just a bastard child

We see it, we perceive it
Blindly taking all the credit
Prodigal daughters and sons
Squandering justice

We know not what we do
Where the grace is found in truth
Our ignorance made innocence
A greater law shines through

The divine
We define
Contained in a sleek case
And kept confined
We redesign
By drawing lines
Are we the culprits
Who now are reconciled

In my hands
So much more than I can understand
The more I see
The more I realize there's so much more than me
What have I done
What have I done
With all that I've been given
Am I only born to run?

"Everything Matters"

I think about the life I live
Does what I take measure up to what I give
It goes out, goes out
Everything goes out, goes out

I think about the words I've said
Do they still resound in others' heads?
Cause it goes out, goes out
Everything goes out
Comes back to me again

And I feel, the weight of what I've done
And I see, what's made what I've become
And I wonder, if these moments are a sum
If everything matters, matters
Everything matters, matters

I heard that how I live right now
Adds up to eternity somehow
That it goes out, goes out
That everything goes out

So if every choice I've ever made
Every triumph and mistake
Contributes to the world and how it's shaped
Everything, everything

I feel, the weight of what I've done
And I see, what's made what I've become
And I wonder, if these moments are a sum
If everything matters, matters
Everything matters, matters

I heard about the grace you give
That gives the dead another shot to live
And it goes out, goes out
It finds me here again

"This Is The Last"

Wouldn't be surprised if you hated me
Cause I hate myself
For how much is wrong it's funny how
I keep saying it means nothing now

And I'll try to numb the pain
I'll try to feel the same
Force myself to feel different
Just to go on living

This is the last song that I'll write for you
This is the last time, that you'll be on my mind
This is the last chance, for me to get out
With my heart, only half alive

Never thought I'd feel this way
But I guess I do
A blind and hapless anger
Turns people who were never friends to strangers

And I'll try to look your way
To say I tried to face
The fact I don't feel different
That this doesn't feel like living

This is the last song that I'll write for you
This is the last time, that you'll be on my mind
This is the last chance, for me to get out
With my heart, only half alive

And oh, it goes back again
Every single time
Not a thing changes
No I can't even change my mind
So I follow along that dotted line
That the past has predesigned
And I tell myself again
That same familiar lie

That this is the last song that I'll write for you
That this is the last time that you'll be on my mind
And I'll try to look your way
But I still can't seem to face
The fact I don't feel different
That this doesn't feel like living

The fact that I'm no different
And we all need to be forgiven

"I'd Rather Be A Ghost"

The world is slipping away
Just like the sun at the end of day
I don't want to be here anymore
I don't want to be here anyway

I wander aimlessly
Just one more place I'm not supposed to be
So I'll make home in the unknown
And try to live there peacefully

Cause nothing happens, nothing changes
I see no fruits of means and ends
It all yields the same results
Again and again

So if I'm invisible either way
It's invisible that I'm gonna stay
I'm better off an island
Than an archipelago
I'd rather be a ghost
I'd rather be a ghost

I'm a specter, I'm a figment
Only fading in and out
Thoughts careening, heavy dreaming
On the weight of love and doubt

In the world of the concrete
The solid ground I'll never meet
The warmth of a heart beating
The thought alone is defeating

So if I'm invisible either way
It's invisible that I'm gonna stay
I'm better off an island
Than an archipelago
I'd rather be a ghost
I'd rather be a ghost

Not the same privalege
As you
The hands that try to reach me
Only pass through
And I've hoped and prayed
And gone and stayed
And not even love
Could make any of it true

Doors won't open
Or close
And this place I'm at
Is the only one I know
I'd rather be a ghost
I'd rather be a ghost
I'd rather be a ghost
Watch me fade away

"Little Drops"

If this is where it ends
In a mess of things unsaid
I regret the time I spent
Building haven in my head

When a storm inside the walls
Always swells before it calms
Waves of grief and hope
Often overturn my cause

And if there was nothing there
Why does it hurt like something real
Little drops escape and make
A sea of the surreal
And I know that it's my fault
Cause I let loose every drop
And watched my heart go free
I watched, I watched

The pain, overtake
Till it's all a bitter game
How do you justify it
Watching love erupt to hate

I fashioned my mistakes
But you could have set me straight
Now a front row seat
To the monster you've helped make

Cause if there was nothing here
Be no reason for the tears
Little drops I let escape
From when I thought I saw it clear
And I know that it's my fault
Cause I let loose every drop
And watched my heart go free
Into, into the sea
From the drops that fell on me

This bitter taste that I've acquired
Just like the memories inspired
Are drowning, drowning
Anything left
It helps me to forget

Cause if there was nothing there
Why does it hurt like something real
Not everything is shared
Not the way I feel
And I know that I'm at fault
So I'll watch it all dissolve
Drop by drop
By drop

.

I stumbled in the streets
Upon hands and knees
There's a fire in my head
But the streams aren't coming yet

There's nothing here I want
There's nothing here I need
A soul's not built of stone
No, nothing concrete

I'm sick of reaching out
Could you reach down
I'm sick of reaching out
Could you reach down

You were given more than I
A life not built on a divide
And I've always sought out home
To mend the distance here inside

But I've been set up for failure
A selfish circumstance
Carried out by a concubine
Down a broken family branch

And scars don't really heal
You just go on, forget they're real
So where's this hope you say I have
Is it just enough to know I can run back

But I'm sick of reaching out
Could you reach down
I'm sick of reaching out
Could you stoop down
To this lowly place
I know you've been much deeper down

No matter where I go
You still won't pull me out

"Between"

I am two-faced, two-sided
Defaced, divided
Unnerved, undecided
Who will I be?

I could live for the day, or stay inside
Wholly embrace, or remain in hiding
A blank space for me to write in
Who will I be?

Cause I could be myself
Or anybody else
Hold to the bitterness in me
Or place my pride up on the shelf
And I could live to be the thing
That you've wanted me to be
Is there any reckoning
Or am I always in between

I am no saint, I'm a liar
Full of complaints and desires
Quenching fiction, feeding fires
Who will I be?

Cause there's so much grace I could deny
The walls I place to keep you outside
Without your change in my stagnant life
Who will I be?

Cause I could be myself
Or anybody else
Hold to the bitterness in me
Or place my pride up on the shelf
And I could live to be the thing
That you've wanted me to be
Is there any reckoning
Or am I always in between

Direction, clear direction
Spit me out, I'm going nowhere now
There's only one way that I know
Where I myself will never go
Can't get there on my own
No, never

"Accused"

I can't speak without you speaking up
I can't move without you keeping track
Where words escape you're quick to follow
Where strength is thin you're sure to borrow

You assume, and it consumes the best of me
Though still a brother for adversity
I wish this truth that you convey was not misused
Before graces speaks, I stand accused

I can't search without you searching out
Ask the questions that you yourself doubt
If faith is forged in fear and trembling
Is it only me who's disassembling?

You assume, and it consumes the best of me
Though still a brother for adversity
I'd rather voice my doubts and remain confused
But before I speak, I stand accused
Before I speak, I stand accused

What could tether us together
What could pull us both apart
When nothing stands between
Conclusions drawn behind the scenes
And where we really are

"Light Succumbs The Dark"

When I look at myself
I see a lot of dark
While a little bit of light streams through
A lot of good intentions
By bad means
Never seem to ring true

And I hold myself above all else
Even though deserving hell
If this life is beautiful
Sometimes it's hard to tell

And it's still uncertain
If I'm the same person
At any given moment
So uncertain
Always learning
But never know just where I'm going

It's in my heart
It's in my heart
That's where the motion starts

When I look at the world
I see a lot of pain
With hope slipping through the cracks
Well mannered people
Doing evil
Lodging blades in our brothers' backs

It's in my heart
It's in my heart
That's where the motion starts
It's where the battle starts
When light succumbs the dark

And it's in my soul
A fire I'll never know
That I slipped through
Into heavenly glow

"Forgive Me, I'm A Fool"

Loss is not to be laughed at
No, not even in jest
I know my words linger on
After I've asked for your forgiveness

And no one should have to feel
The way that you did tonight
Opening up those scars
And brought them back into the daylight

I'm sorry, I'm a fool
Forgive me, I'm a fool
My tongue lashes out at the things that I don't understand
While you're left to carry the weight in your hands

Love is all that we have
It hurts when you can't get it back
And no one deserves
To be reminded of that

And I've never known such pain
So I know I can't feel the same
But I won't carry on this way
No, what right do I have?
No, I never even knew her name

I'm sorry, I'm a fool
Forgive me, I'm a fool
I make light of all the things that I don't understand
While you're left to carry the weight in your hands

I'm sorry, there's no excuse
You have every right to feel the way you do
And it's not okay, it's not okay but thank you
I've still got a lot of growing up to do

"For God So Loved"

Hurling stones
On equal ground
Who are you
To make a sound

Throw yourself
At others' sin
Truth would show
That love will win

For God so loved the world
Oh, why can't you?
For God so loved the world
Oh, why can't you?

My brother's a fool
By his own choice
In my own mind
Drown out his voice

When I've no faith
To do myself
Declaring love
Denying help

For God so loved the world
So why don't I?
For God so loved the world
So why don't I?

There is no us and them
There is no us and them
Grace makes fools of righteous men
There is no us and them

For God so loved the world
The world

"22"

I've seen it all come and go
I've reached the highs and hit the lows
I've felt alive, I've felt alone
And still I'm no closer to home

And now I sit with head in hands
I want to quit, I want to stand
Not quite a boy, not quite a man
Between where I've been and where I am

And this tension's killing me
Cause I'm never who I want to be
Nothing satisfies
So I'll search the past and come up short
Believing there was good before
But not a bright spot in my life

And the stars grow dimmer every day
And the stars grow dimmer every day
Wonder when they'll fade away

I make a mess, I make amends
Make enemies trying to make friends
And I've been learning to pretend
That I'm okay, that I'm okay with it

Do I adapt or stay the same
Follow the path or lead the way
The questions follow me all day
A catch 22, they'd say

And this tension's killing me
Cause I'm never who I want to be
And nothing satisfies

And the stars grow dimmer every day
And the stars grow dimmer every day
Yeah my dreams grow distant every day
Wonder when they'll fade away

Cause it's a night sky
That I'm looking at the light
And it's the wrong way
That I learn to do what's right
And it's a struggle
It'll always be a fight
Between
Between
Between

And the stars grow dimmer
The stars grow dimmer

"Churches"

I don't want to go to church
I want to be
Because no structure made by man
Could set me free
And walls
Can't live or move or breathe
Not like the church
The church I want to be

Don't want to walk into a temple
I'm my own
A sacred dwelling made of
Flesh and bone
And no ritual or service
Could atone
For this heart than who is seated
On the throne

We are alive
We are a fire
And I want to burn
I want to be the choir
Let the seats in churches
Be filled in my own life
I need my family
I need you by my side

Our wicked tongues
Spin tales so grand
When these decisions
Are all we have
Love is the movement
Of feet and hands
Actions required
By what love demands

So let's not be seated
Let's gladly stand

We are alive
We are a fire
And I want to burn
I want to be the choir
Let the seats in churches
Be filled in my own life
I need my family
I need you by my side

And nothing's greater
Than this sweet love
It's a covenant that flows from blood
Like the blood in our veins
Moving through us the same
Let us not be a stationary place, let's run

We are alive
We are a fire
And I want to burn
I want to be the choir
Let the seats in churches
Be filled in my own life
I need my family
I need you by my side

"But How"

I don't know what's going on
Did I do something wrong
Something left unsaid
I thought had never left my head
That's slowly seeping

I wish I knew what was on your mind
To give me clarity in mine
Cause something isn't right
And I've let it plague me day and night
It's suffocating
Wish there was a way to say it

But how
But how

I've been reaching for a hand
Hoping they could understand
But now I'm all alone
A hollow shell, an empty home
Is it so wrong to
Want someone to belong to
I've let it go now
I want to make this right

But how
But how
When all these words get in the way
Of what I'm really trying to say
See my frustrations filter out
I'll put it all on the table now

I've been a poor, misguided fool
What I needed, tried to see it in you
And these words made seem heavy handed, but they're true
That I built a place in my heart and
Wanted you to make a home in
And it all amounted to nothing
An unwanted expectation
Wish that I never had made one

"Bodies Of Water"

We are the calm before the storm
The safety of a distant shore
The land we're longing, we were torn
In the turmoil we were born

When waves descend upon our heads
Fight the tides and sink again
We can't lose sight until it ends
The push and pull of living

When it all blows over
We're still bodies of water
And when it all goes under
We're still bodies of water

I'm holding on like a lily to the ground
Clinging with the roots I buried down
Unexpected gales try to rip me out
From the foundation that I found

But hope like petals to the wind
I'll try to find my place again
A fragile game of pick up sticks
And you'll be there to piece it

All, back together
Like the rain we fall, back together

When it all blows over
We're still bodies of water
And when it all goes under
We're still bodies of water
We rise and fall

When it all blows over
We're still just bodies of water
And when it all goes under
I won't have to wonder
We're all tied to this together
An ocean of surrender
We're still bodies of water
We'll rise and fall

"Where Bitterness Is Born"

You would trade anything for her
She would trade you for anything
You try to work it out, she shuts you down
And you're still standing, standing

By her side through thick and thin
It's another war you didn't start
And she'll push you outside, behind enemy lines
Where you're fighting for her heart

And it's a testament to who you are
You care so much you couldn't leave
But I can't help but think
Just how much more you are deserving

You treat her like a princess
She carries on just like a queen
Commanding that and this, but you're a pacifist
You would never say a single thing

Could it be that you've invested
So much of yourself in this
To break it off right now, would tear your own heart out
The fallout consequence

And it's a testament to who you are
You care so much you couldn't leave
But I can't help but think
It might be the very thing you need

Yeah, cause where you place your heart
Reflects just who you are
Tangled up in a patch of thorns
That's where the bitterness is born

It's where the bitterness is born
You built your haven in a storm
That only gives to take
Leaving only destruction in its wake
When you're worth so much more

"Inherited"

I'm still trying to find identity
I'm still searching just to find me
I look back to when the world made sense
Was it true or only ignorance

Cause all the lines are blurring now
And I can't seem to find a way somehow
I won't take the roads made by my fellow man
Brick by brick I'll build with my own hands

Cause everybody wants to fit
Seems like some were simply born into it
Never questioning, a life that's void of mental wrestling
But I can't look back, no I won't buy it

I'm still gripping with reality
Seeing everyone's mentality
I try to give and take to bridge the gap
Without falling in between the cracks

Cause love is king and I'm a student
Trying my best not to precede it
I'll let it shine so it can light my way
Not get pulled under by the world's dismay

Cause everybody wants to fit
Seems like some were simply born into it
Never questioning, a life that's void of mental wrestling
But I won't buy it
Cause love's a labor, I'll accept the chore
To push forward even though I'm still unsure
I'm still questioning, it's a life worth all the wrestling
To find my way to the bottom of it

I can't look, can't look like you
No I can't go on that naive
Can't pretend that the world's just fine
That there's nothing that I need
Cause I need, clarity
Yeah I need, clarity

Cause everybody wants to fit
But I've no time to concern myself with it

"Listless"

Reach deep inside of yourself
Do you see your heart?
Is it filled with restlessness,
Is it breaking apart?
Look deep inside of yourself
Is it what you want?
Is this really the place
You've always dreamed of all along

Cause I see it, bleeding
Through the cracks in your armor
You used to be so much stronger

[chorus]
Stay awake
You're still in this, you still exist
Don't fade away
Like all of the listless
Stay awake
Your broken heart, can still be fixed
But only
If you let it

Feeding all of the lies
Like you don't belong
Finding your place ain't easy
Sometimes it's lifelong
But I believe
With everything inside of me
That we were meant to rise above
All of the walls that we can't see

Cause I see it, bleeding
Through the cracks in your armor
Don't stay here any longer

[chorus]
Stay awake
You're still in this, you still exist
Don't fade away
Like all of the listless
Stay awake
Your broken heart, can still be fixed
Don't fade away
You'll make your way through this

"Never Know"

Fall to the ground
And feel for the first time
That maybe there was nothing underneath
Sound the alarms
Raising up arms, like falling from the sky
When you never even reached the peak

[chorus]
Calling your name
But still in the same rut
Riding the highs and lows
Yeah, and I can't quite explain
Why I'd ever doubt your name
I'm hiding but it shows
I guess I'll never know

Fight that foolish feeling
If it's getting easier
Then you're doing something wrong
Cause in trying to find my own way
Relying on my own strength
Find I'm really not that strong

[chorus]
Calling your name
But still in the same rut
Riding the highs and lows
Yeah, and I can't quite explain
Why I'd ever doubt your name
I'm hiding but it shows
I guess I'll never know

Calling your name
But still in the same rut
Riding the highs and lows
Yeah, and I can't quite explain
Why I'd ever doubt your name
I'm hiding all the same
In a maze I built of shame
Still wondering where it goes
I guess I'll never know

"Already"

Why don't hear me
Like you used to
Speaking so clearly
But never attentive to

I'll wait
Till you say
That you're alright
That you're okay
I'll wait
Till you say
That you will love me
Like I do already

Why don't you come down
To the water
We all need a cleansing
You know you've got to

I'll wait
Till you say
Say that you need me
That you're not okay
I'll wait
Till the end of the day
When you're running back home
I'm there already

"Time Traveler's Plight"

Wasted
To lose it all
When you're so close you can
Taste it
Almost in your reach

Face it
Can't go back and
Change the past
So embrace it
You'll only lose sleep

Is it really worth the joy ride
For a life of pain
Living for the moment

[chorus]
I can't feel like
Everything was meant to be
But I can't rewind
And make it out how it should be
So take these shackles
Wrapped around my mind
Moving forward
Is my only way out this time
Out this time

Every road
Ends somewhere
Though we only know the name
Not where it goes
Or when we need to turn

Aglow
Some signs will light
The way and maybe
Show
Just what needs to be learned

Not every obstacle
Is gonna leave you blinded by miracles

[chorus]
I can't feel like
Everything was meant to be
But I can't rewind
And make it out how it should be
So take these shackles
Wrapped around my mind
Moving forward
Is my only way out this time
Out this time

repeat

"Unstuck"

How do you repair
What was never a clean break
While fractures thin as hair
Spread behind the face

So where do we begin
With what we can't retrace
I can feel us wearing thin
From what we never say

And we run right through like there's nothing wrong
With a dark cloud hanging above us all along
Can we go back, can we go back
Everything deserves a second chance

I love you now
I've loved you all along
But the words somehow
Never come so strong

I know you feel the same
I can see it on your face
So who is it to blame
That we're so stuck in our ways

As we run right through like there's nothing wrong
With a dark cloud hanging above us all along
Can we go back, can we go back
Everything deserves a second chance

I need you now
I can't do this on my own
What built these walls
That leave us all alone

Where we run right through like there's nothing wrong
With these dark clouds above us all along
Can we go back, can we go back
Can we go back, can we go back

"Different"

For some, a burning flame
For others, steady and slow
I see right and wrong in both

But you, you stay the same
And you, designed the road
And we all travel to and fro

Why do you treat your kids so different?
Or is it me with clouded vision?
'Cause everybody seeks in their own way
But nobody's path quite looks the same
And in you, there is no division

For me, I started out real bright
And I came, to a bend in the road
That no one else was asked to go

I waited, in the dead of night
I traded, away my comfort zone
With fear of really letting go

I was weak, I asked for strength
And when I asked it didn't come
And from that day you've looked so different
A different person I've become
I only run, I

Why do you treat your kids so different?
Or is it me with clouded vision?
'Cause everybody seeks in their own way
But nobody's path quite looks the same
And in you, there is no division

So why, am I only chasing shadows
When I am looking for a light
That never comes, it never comes, no

"Planting Seeds, Pulling Weeds"

The grass is greener where you fertilize
Not waiting out the stormy weather for the blue skies
Cause rain or shine you're gonna feel the ties
To what's beneath the surface of your life

Planting seeds, pulling weeds
Planting seeds, pulling weeds

What's buried at the heart of it
The seed of which is either building or stunting
And keep an eye of what it's buried beside
Cause death finds its way inside to choke out life

Reaping and sowing
It's life that you're growing
Don't compromise

Planting seeds, pulling weeds
Planting deeds, pull out what I don't need
What I don't need
What I don't need

Cause out in the sun you could scorch away
Don't let the sky decide just who you're gonna be

Planting seeds, pulling weeds
Planting seeds, pulling up those weeds
Planting seeds, pulling weeds
Planting deeds, pull out what you don't need

"Fitting In Missing Out"

Love, think I know love
Think I know love from the push and shove
But what, if I don't know love
Is the way that I love maybe not enough

Cause it's tough
When love tells you what you don't want to hear
When you know you need to hear

Are we so busy fitting in we're missing out
Not what I heard eternity's about
Cause love is an action I'll bet
But I don't remember sticking out my neck
To love

Truth, think I know truth
Think I know how to bring it up to you
Uncouth, with limited proof
But I'll sidestep the issue if it discomforts you

Cause it's true
Not everything we know we can prove
And not all of it will ring true

Are we so busy fitting in we're missing out
Not what I heard eternity's about
Cause truth requires action I'll bet
But I don't remember sticking out my neck
For truth

Divided, divided
Are we comfortable in this skin
We're short-sighted
Enlightened, enlightened
What will we do with this light
Besides hide it

Are we so busy fitting we're missing out
Not what I heard eternity's about
Cause love is an action I'll bet
And truth still causes friction yet
But I don't remember sticking out my neck
For it

Is the message convoluted
Has the truth become polluted
By my safety

"Inside Your Head"

You've got a fantasy
A new reality
Inside your head
Inside your head

You know I wanna see
The kind of world you see
Inside your head
Inside your head

Are there overarching trees up to the sky
Are there towers to the stars, reaching so high
I wanna see it
I wanna see it
Inside your head

You've got a child's sense
Traces of innocence
Inside your head
Inside your head

An overflowing heart
That breaks monotony apart
Inside your head
Inside

Are there overarching trees up to the sky
Are there towers to the stars, reaching so high
Billowing into the night, dew soaked fields reflecting light
Crystal oceans break like glass, upon the gleaming cliffs they crash
Inside your head

I wanna be there
I want a glimpse beyond this world of dead
For just a moment
Just a moment

"Results"

Pressing in
Did I push too hard again?
Like overzealous men
In their own strength before me did

And oh, I don't understand it
I thought you said love didn't come back empty-handed
And oh, if I could see it
The ripple from the stone I threw, I'd believe it
Ooh

Wearing thin
Like I'm two steps away from caving in
This yoke isn't always light
Even with or without you by my side

And oh, I don't understand it
I thought you said love didn't come back empty handed
And oh, I just don't feel it
But my perception doesn't determine what real is
Ooh

Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh (ooh), ooh (ooh)
Ooh (ooh), ooh (ooh)

And oh, I don't understand it
But deep inside I trust and know I can't quit
And oh, I'm trying to see it
But I know that it is faith, just to believe it
Trying to believe it
What I can't see in

"Some Things You Can't Take Back"

I could be on cloud nine
I could be six feet under
Even while running blind, I see
That my heart is a monster

I watch it separate
My needs and desires
All that I love and hate, and then
Run straight to the fire

The selfish part of me
Yeah, it's the heart in me
Consuming anything and everything it can
When some things you can't take back

Once I let it loose
The words from off my tongue
All I've tried to mute, become
The new song I've sung

And every choice I make
Every triumph and every mistake
Bricks that build or stones that break
Set in place, and I feel the weight

Deep inside of me
Yeah, it's the heart in me
Consuming anything and everything it can
When some things you can't take back

Oh, and every thought
Watch it manifest
Not a single one
That will go unchecked
Cause the heart
Overflows like this
Watch it flood right out
A deluge from my lips

"Lovestruck"

I want to protect your heart
I don't even want to start
Down that road
I've seen just where it goes

It starts with a talk like this
Ignoring the consequence
We both know
Yet offer up our souls

For the moment
Oh, it feels like love
You feel wanted
For the moment
And it feels so close
And you want it

I don't know how to love you
I don't know how to love you
Like I should
I don't know
No, I'm no good

Once the emotion leaves
And you're left to question things
It all floods back
Like a heart attack

No hidden agendas here
Make our intentions clear
Off the bat
And just like that

In the moment
You're living so fast
That you miss it
In the moment
Not till it's the past
You regret it

I don't know how to love you
I don't know how to love you
Like I should
I don't know how
No, I'm no good
I don't know how to love you
But I'm trying so hard to figure
It all out
Without any doubt

Cause attraction's a distraction
Not what I need
When all the beauty in you,
I make it all about me
And all these blurring lines
Could be made clearly defined
You may feel you don't mind
But your heart's on the line

I don't know how
I don't know how it's come to this
Trading love for loneliness
And it's a bitter exchange
On the surface it'll flourish
But beneath it won't sustain

"So Far, So Close"

After midnight driving home and
Wondering where you are this moment
Where you've been and where you're going
While the city lights are glowing

I ache see you when you're sleeping
The steady rise and fall of breathing
A look of peace upon your face when
The world outside can't stop your dreaming

And oh, I'm so in love with love it shows
How it's always been, it always goes
And oh, it shows

Looking at the stars and thinking
Of all the things that we could be when
They align, the timing's perfect
A fading fairytale in my head

And when you wake I'll still be dreaming
Even when that light comes streaming
You'll go about your day like nothing
But I'll be holding onto something

And oh, I'm so in love with love it shows
It feels so far off, it feels so close
And oh, you feel

So far, so close
You feel so far, so close

And oh, I'm so in love with love it shows
You're so far off, but you feel so close
And all these thoughts aloft
In the headspace of the stars
Could fall down, to solid ground
And find us where we are

"Fire And Brimstone"

You're so afraid of the way things appear
That you've been run over by your fear
And forgotten the heart beneath the flesh
That's been beaten down by hypocrites

Is it a monster mask
That's got you so enlightened
The questions you never ask
Behind your own devices, hiding

Wake up and see the reality
Vinegar doesn't quite match the honey
Of a love, so pure, so sweet
That doesn't sing of my own defeat
So sing of love, so pure, so sweet
The same kind of love that found me

Fire and brimstone only yield smoke
Doesn't clear the air, only makes us choke
And yeah, I know of a place called hell
A road paved from casted stones that fell

Is it a monster mask
That's got you so enlightened
The questions you never ask
Behind your own devices, hiding

Hide, hide
I won't let my darkness hide
From the sunlight
You seem to forget
That evil flaunts itself in light

Wake up and see the reality
Vinegar doesn't quite match the honey
Of a love, so pure, so sweet
That doesn't sing of my own defeat
Sing of love, so pure, so sweet
The same kind of love that found me

"Do What You Know Is Right"

Face to face
Toe to toe
With your own mistakes
Every traveled road
Past the past
But still feel the sting
The present's here too fast
And you're wondering

If you could make a change
You could make a change

Outcomes, falling down like raindrops
A deluge of decisions runs you dry
When out comes the battle cry of daylight
When your conscience and emotions don't align
Do what you know is right

Feelings fade
Like a washed out scene
Like the falling rain
Wipe the pallet clean
And start again
With eyes open wide
Don't stop listening
Drowning out your pride

If you could make a change
Would you endure the moment's pain
It hurts to break away

Outcomes, falling down like raindrops
A deluge of decisions runs you dry
When out comes the battle cry of daylight
When your feelings and your actions can't decide
Do what you know is right
Do what you know is right

You're holding on
Don't be afraid to let go
If you stay here any longer
You may drown
What you want
Isn't always gonna lead home
You're breaking slowly
The deeper in you go

Outcomes, falling down like raindrops
A million different reasons not to try
When out comes the battle cry of daylight
When your conscience and emotions don't align
When your heart's hidden agendas leave you blind
Do what you know is right

"You Could Ruin Your Life"

Melissa here I am
And you were right
You could ruin your
You could ruin your life

Every choice I made
Of left and right
Yeah I ended up
On a different side

The impact of
A path of love
When all I've left behind
Is a trail of blood
Unfinished deeds
And giving up
Unfinished faith
And giving up

I did all that I can
Tested and tried
Used my own strength
Made a divide

Every choice I made
Of left and right
My heart remains
Where I decide

The impact of
A path of love
When all I've left behind
Is a trail of blood
Unfinished deeds
And giving up
Unfinished faith
And giving up

Half of the way
You won't find yourself
Half of the way
And you're still lost
Half of the way
And you feel the fire around you
From the burning bridge
That you've yet to cross

The impact of
A life of love
A legacy
Of all the wrong I've done
Unfinished deeds
And giving up
Unfinished faith
And giving up
Unrepented sin
And giving up

"Between The Sea And Sky"

He writes about the stars in the sky
I write about the depths of the sea
He writes about the infinite void
I write about the space beneath

And we meet in sound, on common ground
We meet on the dividing line
Between the sea and sky

Old man never understands him
Yeah, I can relate
When all that we know is destruction
We just want to create

And all we want is direction
Walking flat, bending low or high
Between the sea and sky

Can't fight this
Can't fight this, fight this motion
Can't fight this
The waves of an alien ocean

And we meet in sound, on common ground
We meet on the dividing line
Between the sea and sky

"Someone For Me"

Someday, I don't know when
I don't know how it will happen
I'll find, or maybe just be blind

But I hope, in my disarray
That you'll be there to set me straight
Or that I, would be the one to open your eyes

I could try
To be everything, everything
But it's a lie
And I won't live my life pretending
Cause I know
Somewhere out there
There's someone for me

Each day, as I'm in the world
I pass, my fair share of girls
Pretty faces, oh, but in different places

And I keep, walking on
Keep a beat, to my favorite song
And sing a tune, hoping I'll find you soon

No I'm not looking for the perfect one
Just the one who compliments my imperfections

I could try
To be everything, everything
But it's a lie
And I won't live my life pretending
Cause I know
Somewhere out there
There's someone for me

To see all of me
And I can see them
We won't have to pretend
Just be who we want to be
And no, I won't get lost
Down the path of the star-crossed
It's easy
When you believe

I could try
To be everything, everything
But it's a lie
I can only be me
Cause I know
Somewhere out there
There's someone with
This same tune I share
Someone, someone for me

"No Better"

It's okay to be unsure
It's okay to feel insecure
Don't try to mask it, nobody's perfect
Everyone's scarred but nobody's worthless

I've lived my life so afraid of pain
So full of worry that it'll stay the same
But I'm pushing in, and I won't turn back
Though I'm broken now, I will end intact

So why, why do you put it on yourself
I know it's not easy to ask for help
But why, why do you put it on yourself
We can't carry this weight all by ourselves

Yeah it's easy to pretend
It's easy to hide away
Than to face what's behind the face
Let the dark see the light of day

Cause I've put up a front
That I need no one by my side
That I don't feel alone sometimes
What a foolish sense of pride

So why, why do you put it on yourself
I know it's not easy to ask for help
By why, oh why

So we could keep on behaving
Like there's nothing, there's nothing wrong
Build up these walls for nothing
Feel just like we have all along
And we're getting no better, no better
Till we see that we're no better

"I Don't Know How To Let Go"

I've been in a lot of pain
Though the scars don't show
I've still got a lot to say
The words hang in my throat

I'm still going on my way
I'm still in that same old boat
Fighting against tides and waves
Saying I need your help, I don't

I don't know
How to let go
I don't know
How to let go

I'm digging deeper holes
Losing all control
I can't even dictate my own
Feelings as I go

I'm still running down that road
I still keep on digging coal
I've still got a lot to learn
From all the bridges that I've burned

I don't know
How to let go
I don't know
How to let go
Could you teach me

Hold my heart for the last time, the last time
Hold my heart for the last time
I'm going away from here

I don't know
How to let go
I don't know
How to let go
How to let go

"Black And Blue"

I'm trying to connect
But these walls you resurrect, they shut me down
And the feeling they reflect
Is starting to infect and filter out
I want to be direct
No message to dissect, I'll let it sound
A mutual respect
For the road that each of us walk down

I'm trying to share my heart
But no one seems to want it, want it
I'm trying to share my heart
But no one seems to want it, want it

So this is called the surface
Conversation without purpose, substance-less
Setting where the curve is
Concerned with our own burdens, nothing less
This isn't what your worth is
You are still a person, heart and breath

I'm trying to share my heart
But no one seems to want it, want it
I'm trying to share my heart
But no one seems to want it, want it
And it's breaking me apart
Cause no one seems to want it, want it
Why is it so hard
Why is it so hard

[instrumental]

Will I ever find the truth
Is there a soul that really aims for You
Cause no one really seems to understand
And the ones I share a mind don't have me in their plans
So I offer my heart
Black and blue

I'm trying to share my heart
But you don't seem to want it
I want to see yours too
Fully bloomed and unguarded
Not an easy thing to do
Yeah, I've been hurt too
So let's hold each other
Black and blue

"We All Carry The Weight"

I'm sorry but it's hard to feel sorry
When everyone has a direct feed
To all your pain and all your misery
I question if you really bleed

I'm sorry I'm conflicted so
When I see you bended on your knees
The cries from those you're standing on
Are drowning out your woeful pleas

And if compassion has a place
Then I pray, then I pray
That I could find that bit of grace
To display, to display
But if your well being means
So many others' dismay
Maybe there's another way

I'm sorry, could you please forgive me
Have I forgotten how to love
How to turn the other cheek
To endure this push and shove

And I'm sorry, but I feel so empty
Like it never is enough
To let the wicked walk all over
And lift their selfishness right up

And if compassion has a place
Then I pray, then I pray
That I could find that bit of grace
To display, to display
But if your well being means
So many others' dismay
Maybe there's another way

You never wanted any help
Besides to help yourself
It doesn't matter where you get it
Just the destination
And if you're only running clean
Through everyone, not listening
Maybe you could carry your own cross
Maybe you could learn something

And if compassion has a place
Could I find that bit of grace
A fine line between
Those who need and who manipulate
Help me find my own way
If there is another way

"All Us Mistakes"

We didn't have to happen
We didn't have to happen
But we did
The fallout of broken families
Broken kids

We didn't have to happen
We didn't have to happen
But here we are
Left with forlorn figments,
Broken hearts

All us mistakes
All us mistakes

We didn't have to happen
We didn't have to happen
But we're alive
More than ticking time bombs
Killing time

We didn't have to happen
No, we didn't have to happen
This isn't chance
Here for a reason, though just for a season
Not happenstance

All us mistakes
All us mistakes
We are miracles
A desert full of marigolds
All us mistakes
Every one of us
Beautiful mistakes

"Help Me Out"

Everybody wants a piece of me
And everybody wants it free
So they take a scalpel and dissect
The parts they wanna keep

Is every gift just give and take
So you can have and eat your cake
Is all the goodness in your heart
Just selflessness for your own sake

Help me out
Help me out
I never asked for this
You've got to help me out
You help me out
Help me out
I never asked for this
What are you expecting

Has there ever been untainted love
Or is it always unrequited love
Someone pulling harder for the other
A game of tug of war and love

And I don't need another favor now
If it's gonna trail right back to me somehow
My lamentations from expectations
Don't expect me to settle down

Help me out
Help me out
I never asked for this
You've got to help me out
You help me out
Help me out
I never asked for this
What are you expecting now
What are you expecting now

My life under a magnifying glass
It's not fair to treat someone like this

Help me out
Help me out
I never asked for this
You've got to help me out
You help me out
Help me out
I never asked for this
What are you expecting now

"Roses And Thorns"

When all I feel is broken
How can I pick up
Back to where I started
So far away
When everything I know is
Roses and thorns
All that's beautiful
Just leaves me torn

A bottomless hole
Bottled up in my soul
Am I feeding the void
Am I feeding the void

Losing control
By holding on, not letting go
Am I feeding the void
This was always my choice

To walk this road

When all I feel is broken
How can I pick up
Back to where I started
So far away
When everything I know is
Roses and thorns
All that's beautiful
Just leaves me torn

Heartbeat starts bleeding me dry
With every measure of time
Just counting down the seconds till I die

I can't keep feeding my eyes
Misleading lustrous lies
While leprous limbs sever ties
And leave me

Broken
So how can I pick up
Back to where I started
So far away
When everything I know is
Roses, just roses and thorns
All that's beautiful
Just leaves me torn

"Your Reality"

You might not make it
You might not make it
She says to me
There's a hundred other voices
In this crowded scene

And while some are grounded
Others don't seem to see
The expiration of this occupation
And they keep on running

Believe in your dreams
But believe in your reality

Count your blessings
But don't forget to count your losses too
Cut and run when the timing comes
To move on to option two

But if you don't have one
What'll you fall back on?
If you built no steps
For your dreams to stand upon

Head up in the clouds
That shroud your vision
A goal could be
A head-on collision

Believe in your dreams
But believe in your reality

And it's not giving up
If and when it's enough
To resort to a solid plan B
Believe in your dreams
But believe in your reality

Invest in what you have
And what you someday hope to be
The tangible here and now
And the future possibilities
Believe in your dreams
And believe your reality

"Be A Light"

All my little fireflies
Blinking out into the night
Try so hard to fit the part
You're fading out of sight

All the waves and all the tides
Toss and turn your heart aside
Don't get caught up in the motions
Remember to keep burning bright

Be a light, be a light
Be a light, be a light
Be a light, be a light
Be a light, be a light

Braving falls and fear of heights
Things that give your heart a fright
You've got it so much harder than the rest
But don't give up the fight

There's a world of souls
Unplugged and shattered bulbs
You're a torch of redemption
Don't turn back to the cold

Be a light, be a light
Be a light, be a light
Be a light, be a light
Be a light, be a light
(x2)

"Heart Of Fool's Gold"

Honest people
Go to hell
Charitable
Them as well
Yeah, we're all equal
As I can tell
A sinful people
Unaware of self

Good intentions
Don't go far
Sometimes lead
Where bad ones are
Misguided missions
From our own hearts
These emotions
Could tear apart

No, I'm not heaven sent
Not unpolluted innocence
I can act the part but it's all wrong
Humility is my saving song

Loving people
Go to hell
Honorable
Them as well
Yeah, we're all evil
What can quell
A sinful people
Bent on self

No, I'm not heaven sent
Not unpolluted innocence
I can act the part but it's all wrong
Humility is my saving song

We hide, a quiet kind of pride
That eats away on the inside
Eats away from the inside
Live our lives, masquerading for mirrors
See the light above, see my own heart clearer

My shadows, my shadows prove...
My shadows, my shadows prove...

"Why Do I Run?"

Do you remember the beginning of the end
My heart turned back into stone again
I didn't listen to a single word you said
So I carried on like I never had

Every breakdown
Is a breakthrough
Oh, I believe it's true

So why do I run
Why do I run
Away from you, am I hiding from the sun?
Why do I run
Why do I run
When I face the light, do I see what I've become?
What I've become

Do you recall the time I heard your voice
The sound resounding behind all of the noise
Cause I can't forget, was presented with a choice
To turn a cry of anguish into one of rejoice

So why do I run
Why do I run
Away from you, am I hiding from the sun?
Why do I run
Why do I run
When I face the light, do I see what I've become?

Should be an easy decision
But lies seep in through my heart's incision
And cloud my vision
Until the love you're giving
Is ridden with half-truths and misconceptions
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
But only because of the sight I've been given
A ribbon of hope, like a rope that I'm gripping
So desperately

And yet I still run
Yeah, I still run
Away from you, am I hiding from the sun?
To settle down in my own shadows
Awake to the depths, yet embrace the shallow
Still so inept in what I deem hallowed
Don't let me be

"My Midnight"

Sometimes I feel like the night's my only friend
The half moon singing in the sky at the day's end
And I can't see the stars in the sky overhead
Cause I haven't arched my neck that direction yet

It's been a long time coming
And it's gone
It's been a long time coming
And it's gone

Sometimes I feel like I'm just afraid
To do what's right and say what I need to say
But I kick my feet in this lazy bed I lay
And say that I'll find the time another day

It's been a long time coming
And it's gone
It's been a long time coming
And it's gone

And all my hope I buried in the ground
So deep that I couldn't hear it make a sound
And it's a winding slope I'm heading down
But oh, your words they still resound

It's been a long time coming
And it's gone
It's been a long time coming
And it's gone
But you're still here

"Unaware"

Playing bloody knuckles with myself
See how long before I cry for help
Push the dirt into the corner
We can worry about it later
Along with everything else

Don't ask me for a reason
I'm just tired, tired of breathing
With a heavy burden on my chest
Embrace the pain or ignore the rest
My own inner-demons

I can't keep making excuses
To get through this, they're all useless
Yeah it only weighs me down
Than to push right through
The stress and friction
Act above it till it's non-fiction
Pretending I don't care
To make myself more unaware

What to do when I don't feel at all
When motivation hits a wall
And I'm left there standing
Looking like I don't understand it
Wait till it dissolves

Then carry on the thought
Of who I am with what I'm not
As I start
To play the arbitrary part
Cause I feel it's all I've got

I can't keep making excuses
To get through this, they're all useless
Yeah it only weighs me down
Than to push right through
The stress and friction
Act above it till it's non-fiction
Pretending I don't care
To make myself more unaware

It's apathy at it's finest
But can it clear my head
Filter out what I don't need
Until I'm something else instead
Will it get it done
Will it get it done
I'm so concerned with nothing
That I'm turning into no one

I can't keep making excuses
To get through this, they're all useless
Yeah it only weighs me down
Than to push right through
The stress and friction
The right and wrong, my heart's division
Pretending I don't care
To make myself more unaware

"Just Cause"

Give me some words I can get behind
Fists in the air like a battle cry
I'm not inclined toward a golden voice
Just some truth bleeding out amongst all the noise

Help me get up out of my chair
To take a stand, could you make me care
Cause I miss the days when I had a cause
Without a direction I end up lost

I'm surrounded
Surrounded by the trees
A lonely place of life and leaves
And I break every branch
In a dead sprint back to a broken city

Cadence and consistency
To fall in line in every breath I breathe
That the path burst forth before my steps
Before my mind wavers again and I forget

I'm surrounded
Surrounded by the trees
A lonely place of life and leaves
And I break every branch
In a dead sprint back to a broken city
To a broken place I've built within me

Just cause it happens
Over and over again
Doesn't mean it doesn't end
Just cause it's happened
Over and over again
Doesn't mean it doesn't end

I'm surrounded
Surrounded by the trees
In a desperate act of defiance, see
I break every branch
In a dead sprint back to a broken city
To a broken place I've built within me
A dead sprint back to the broken city
To the broken place I've built within me

"Curse The Day"

Hurt and pain
And dirt and rain
Feel the weight
Ignore the strain
You're not allowed
To feel this way
You're not alone
So don't complain

Misguided words
That people say
The heavy hands
That guide my way
Don't be alarmed
Just be afraid
Discard your hope
Be on your way

And I don't know the answers
No I don't know the way
And I don't know the reason
Why every good thing fades
But I'll watch the sun go down
In its innocent display
And curse the hours till morning
And curse the day

Faults and shame
And loss and gain
My pride is broken
I'm left the same
The moment left
Like the moment came
Emotions drift
Over the heart's plain

And the white and black
Don't define the gray
It's a copycat
Trying to steal the stage
When it can't compare
No it never stays
As it gives itself
To the ivories

And I don't know the answers
No I don't know the way
And I don't know the reason
Why every good thing fades
But I'll watch the sun go down
In its innocent display
And curse the hours till morning
And curse the day

And I've heard your symphonies
I've heard your lies
You try to strike a chord
So you don't have to wonder why
And I've searched the depths of me
Reached deep inside
To find I don't know anything
It's where I'll start my climb

Cause I don't know the answers
No I don't know the way
And I don't know why we live or die
Or where we're gonna go someday
But I'll watch the sun go down
In its innocent display
And curse the hours till morning
And curse the day
I curse the hours till morning
And I, I curse the day

"Independence"

Put the pieces back
Back to a life on track
I need stability
Sometimes it's outside my ability

A week of rest, so tired
Yeah, cause freedom gets me wired
I need consistency
To pursue it persistently

And who do I become
Always on the run, but still stuck in place
And who do I become
I'm not glad I'm here, but so glad for grace
And who do I become
When no one's watching me, is this liberty
Or a prison

I wash the dirt from me
What I collect and what I still don't see
But I can't get it all
Not what's invisible

Not so indivisible, I'm cut in two
The things I want are just what I never do
But in everything I know there is a choice
You give me a voice

And who do I become
Always on the run, but still stuck in place
And who do I become
I'm not glad I'm here, but so glad for grace
And who do I become
When no one's watching me, is this liberty
Or a prison
Cause it feels like division

And I can't run, and I can't hide
From the war in myself and the war outside
What am I doing as I'm using all this misplaced pride
On me, when I've been given something

"The Best Of You"

Carry yourself like a secret
Heart so close that you keep it
Deep inside
Where only your thoughts can hide

Wade through your eyes to the deep end
Bright and mysterious, there's no end
In sight
But I'm aching to see that light

And now I'm waiting for that glimpse of truth
Yeah, I'd give anything to see the best of you

Lost for a time, I'm still learning
While all of the questions are burning
Who are you
And how can I find you

Your dagger stare can impale me
And every time you smile you derail me
But I'm dying to see it, baby
The best of you
In the rest of you

And now I'm waiting for that glimpse of truth
Yeah, that stream of light to burst right through
Yeah, I'd give anything to see the best of you

And now I'm waiting for that glimpse of truth
Yeah, that stream of light to burst right through
Now I'm waiting for that glimpse of truth
Yeah, I'd give anything to see the best of you

"Not Around"

Not around, she's not around
To feel the hurt or pain
Not around, she's not around
To tell you it's okay

Not around, she's not around
To brighten up your day
But there's still sun in the sky above
Until you see her light someday

And don't forget the world she left
That won't ever be the same
And spend your days trying to make a change
Good as half the one she made

Not today, you won't be okay
Not with all this rain
Though it wasn't here just yesterday
It'll fall over again

Not today, no please not today
Remembering her face
Not today, but again someday
When you stand before those gates

And don't forget the world she left
That won't ever be the same
And spend your days trying to make a change
Good as half the one she made

And so we walk along this dusty trail
And we wonder why we're here
When all of this will end someday
And the rest is still unclear
Yeah, the rest is still unclear
But we don't just disappear

Still around, she's still around
In the steady stream of tears
Still around, when they fall to the ground
And you're left with all your fears

So don't forget the world she left
That won't ever be the same
But spend your days trying to make a mark
Good as half the one she made

"Dead Tired"

Dead tired
Still I sit up for the night
I say I'll sleep when I die
Dead tired
As I dream through the day
Sleep with eyes open wide

Dead tired
The only time I feel alive

Dead tired
Never enough in me
As what is ever required
Dead tired
And I drag through the motions
No motion inside

Dead tired
The only time I feel alive

Dead tired
Riding on flat tires through this life
Dead tired
And I never benefit from doing right

Dead tired
Between the always blurring lines
Dead tired
Dead tired

"Unconditional"

We set our limitations
A list of rules for our relations
When we're crying out for love
But we won't give it free of charge
We see the need

But we've been set up a stance
That love depends on the circumstance
And I won't if they won't love me
But that never seems to be
So we keep waiting

So what does it mean
To love unconditionally
Undeserved, selfless serving
Yeah, could it be
To set the rules aside
To let our routines die
To meet each other's eyes
In all our insecurities

Am I going through the motions
Come on, give me some devotion
To something more than me
Cause I've been drowning in my sleep

From all the self-directed questions
Overthinking, second guessing
I just want to be a fire
That consumes like you consume me

So what does it mean
To love unconditionally
Undeserved, selfless serving
Yeah, could it be
To set the rules aside
To let our routines die
To meet each other's eyes
In all our insecurities

I heard it said that love doesn't count
If you give it to the ones who give it out
That the ones who hate are the ones who need
The ones who betray your trust and deceive
Who knock you down just to see you fall
With a desperate heart beating at the heart of it all
Don't be blinded by the fury
Coming from their side
Ignore the mask of hate
And love the person that's behind

So what does it mean
To love unconditionally
Undeserved, selfless serving
Yeah, could it be
To set the rules aside
To let our routines die
To meet each other's eyes
In all our insecurities
Yeah, in all our imperfections
We're sharing the disease

"The Disconnect"

How long will I sit with apathy
Before I up and run
How long till I sit with apathy
Till it's all that I become

Cause I won't move and I won't budge
I say, get me on my feet
No I won't move and I won't budge
Until somebody, till somebody

Moves me
I'm always losing
Little parts of me
As I wait out the storm
That is this life
While I stay inside
And lose the best of me
That I could never be

How long will I stick with hypocrisy
Before it always stays
Low long till I stick with hypocrisy
Until I never want to change

Cause I won't move and I won't budge
I say, get me on my feet
No I won't move and I won't budge
Until somebody, till somebody

Moves me
I'm always losing
Little parts of me
As I wait out the storm
That is this life
While I stay behind
And lose the best of me
That I could never be
Because I won't let me

Let it connect, let it connect
The hopes and dreams I've left unchecked
The disconnect, the disconnect
Between what I did and what I said
It never ends, it never ends
Every day it's a war over again
To keep moving

Moving
I'm always losing
Little parts of me
And what I could be here
In this life
While I sit and hide
And lose the best of me
I know that I could be
I don't want to miss out
On that opportunity

"Autumn Leaves"

Break me, don't break me
See I'm so fragile, so stubborn, so strong
Quaking, or am I just shaking
Fighting to be on the top for so long

When I am just a leaf on the wind
I ascend, and descend
I am caught in the current
I can't even see
When I am withered and cracked
Broken off from the stem
Being stepped on again
I just struggle to be

Save me, don't save me
I'll push you away, though I say that I don't
While the world's caving, still behaving
Unafraid even though I've lost hope
It makes no sense

I'm just a leaf on the wind
I ascend, and descend
I am caught in the current
I can't even see
When I am withered and cracked
Broken off from the stem
Being stepped on again
I just struggle to be

I struggle to be
Above it all, standing tall
On my own two crippled feet
I stumble and fall
While I walk in my own defeat
But I'll still stay cemented
Not grounded, but welded
To the concrete that is my pride
Oh, who am I?
Oh, who am I?

I'm just a leaf on the wind
I ascend, and descend
As I'm caught in the current
I can't even see
But I'll fight you again and again
Till I bleed
As I cry out for mercy

"Seeing My Own"

What the hell is faith
I ask myself
Is it a beeline straight to a wall
Without any second guesses at all

Cause my divine appointments
And brief enjoyments
Always felt so compromised
Everything I follow always leaves me blind

So I lie here like a stone
In a cold and empty field
I always felt I was alone
I always felt there's nothing real
Give me something to hold onto
Give me anything at all
Cause I'm tired of being rejected
The cornerstone of a broken wall

I feel so insecure
Am I the only one
I try to put on a face but it fades
And all my confidence gives way

The second that I question
The second that I think
The moment that I stop to breath
It all comes rushing back to me

And I can't live like I know
When I don't, no I just don't
Not gonna put on a show
No I won't, no I won't

So I lie here like a stone
In a cold and empty field
I always felt I was alone
I always felt there's nothing real
Give me something to hold onto
Give me anything at all
Cause I'm tired of being misdirected
Every time I hear a call

And all their hypocrisy
And all this dead in me
Yeah, nothing can sustain
No it all just makes me bleed
And all I see that's right
Always shrouded in deceit
Yeah, nothing can sustain
Tell me, what'll sustain me?

So I lie here all alone
Clutching fists and letting go
Grasping for the air, but I know
I know, I know
So I pick myself back up
And continue down the road
Oh tell me, just how long it goes
Tell me how long will this go?

"Binary"

My generation was raised in the dark
Behind a backlit screen
Our eyes were glued to the pictures we saw
But little did we know

The recreation would become dependence
The very air we breath
Would be clouded with signals and satellite sounds
Till we're speaking 1's and 0's too

[chorus]
How did they live
How did they live
How did they live before us
We're singing
How did they live
How did they live without this

Convenience claimed the last of our lives
To save an hour or two
We're wasting more time with all of this free time
Than we ever could have used

[chorus]
How did they live
How did they live
How did they live before us
We're singing
How did they live
How did they live without this

Can't change the past
So let's change the course
Make a dead sprint through
These open doors
We can't change the past
So let's change our course
Make a dead sprint through
These open doors

[chorus]
How did they live
How did they live
How did they live before us
How did they live
How did they live
How did they live before us

"Above And Abyss"

My heart is for my weakness
My darkness and my light
And always reaching for it
Just hoping I do right

It breaks me and it builds me
It sets my world on fire
Burning away to clean the slate
As I'm burning with desire

Above
Would you take me higher
Below
Could you quench this fire
Hold on
To that perfect center
As you put it back together

My love is my forgiveness
The kind that I've been shown
I imagine what I might be
If I had never known

And failure is my victory
Just like it was back then
So you could come and lift me
From the pit I've dug again

Above
Would you take me higher
Below
Could you quench this fire
Hold on
To that perfect center
As you put me back together
As you put me back together

The right path
Might not be this very road
Though the signs all look the same
Sometimes, the journey
Is traveling back from where you came

Pull back the line, pull back the line
I'll be just fine
Pull back the line, pull back the line

"Let Me Down"

I'm sorry
That I'm not up to par
No I'm not a superstar just yet
And yeah
It takes a little time
For me to fall in line, I forget
That today
Is a baby step away
From a place called yesterday, and I bet
That you were here before
Overwhelmed and unsure
Overworked, and underscored

And I didn't mean to make your life any harder
I'm just treading through uncharted water
Not as easy as it seems when you're not there now
But if you'd take a step back and just settle down

I'm aching
I'm feeling so stuck
Like I wanna give up right here
But no
I won't just back away
Though the pain makes everything unclear
It's a test
That I have yet to pass
And I won't give up and mask my fear
Though I crawl
Through the thick of it all
It's not a flight but a fall, my dear

And I didn't mean to make your life any harder
I'm just treading through uncharted water
Not as easy as it seems when you're not there now
But if you'd take a step back and just let me down

Let me down
The pain, I'm not afraid to embrace it now
Down, down
Would you let me down

"Pocket Smile"

I think my heart just broke
Ooooh, so slightly
When I heard those words you said
All the chains you've taken on
Are likely
Why inside you feel so dead

When you could be free

Oh, when you smile you make the night
Shine brightly
Like the stars above your head
Shame to think you might spend your
Life fighting
To keep a frown instead

When you could be free
From all the negativity
I know you've got it inside
So why do you cling so dearly
When you've got such beauty

There's a part of me inside
That wants to
Look you in the eyes
To tell you what I see
And maybe see if it's something
You recognize

But I'm afraid just like
I've always been
No, I can't spit out the truth
Maybe this new transition
Could spark the conditions
To somehow tell you

That you could be free
From all the negativity
I know you've got it inside
So why do you cling so dearly
To what you don't need, clearly
When you've got such beauty

I think my heart just broke
Oooh, so slightly
When I heard the words you said

When you've got such beauty

"Nothing More"

Love
Just like the brightest beam
It comes
Sheds light on the unseen
It stuns
Us in our crooked tracks

Love
Just like a steady stream
It runs
The very breath that fills
These lungs
And I don't want to look back

So we hide away
So we shy away
And act like we don't need a single thing
We build a cage of pride
That eats away inside
To nothing

But I need more
I need more
Than a passing glance
That feels just like a chore
We need more
Don't wanna be ignored
We fight cause we're used to nothing more

Numb
Just one of the things
I've become
Trying so hard to please
Everyone
And the way they want to be

So dumb
The days I've wasted just
For fun
To sit inside and wait out
The sun
Still further away from me

But I need more
I need more
Than a passing glance
That feels just like a chore
We need more
Don't wanna be ignored
We fight cause we're used to nothing more

Than what we've been shown
We take it even though it's fake it's
Better than being all alone

But I need more
I need more
Than a passing glance
That feels just like a chore
We need more
Don't wanna be ignored
We fight cause we're used to nothing more
I fight because I'm used to nothing more
I hide because I'm used to nothing more

"Where You Are"

Looking for a light, looking for a light
When it's shining just as bright as the dead of night
Seek and you will find, heard it all your life
Feels just like the time to give up the fight
When it's only uphill

I hope that they'd know you
Not a sheet of stained glass
I hope that they'd see through
All of the countenance
I hope that they'd find you
That they'd find you where you are
Where you are

Confusion settles in, where do we begin
When a home as thick as skin is all we've ever been
Growing paper-thin from the fight within
We won't win until we question the questions

We've been told before, like a final score
But we just want to be sure

I hope that they'd know you
Not a sheet of stained glass
I hope that they'd see through
All of the countenance
I hope that they'd find you
That they'd find you where you are
Where you are

Would you show me where you are
Ahhhh

We want to know you
Not a sheet of stained glass
Help us to see through
All of the countenance
We're aiming to find you
We just want to find you where you are
Where you are

"Mother's Day"

You talk in hymns
And psalms you've heard
But do you ever try
To find your own words
Cause you've used a script
For your whole life
Without looking up
To meet my eyes

And from afar, you exclaim
But you never really cared to know my name
And from the stage, you explain
But you never really cared to know my pain

You've hurled advice
And explanations
You've stifled out
My lamentations
Trying to solve
The things I face
By using truth
But lacking grace

And from afar, you exclaim
But you never really cared to know my name
And from the stage, you explain
But you never really cared to know my pain

The distance kept
I took the steps
Away from you
In self-defense
And I can't help
But run away
From a megaphone
That won't hear my say

So I walk alone
Without your love
Feel I'm better off
From the lack thereof
Not a preacher nor a parent
But you act the parts the same
With a distant shout, you drown me out
Till there's nothing left to say

And from afar, you exclaim
But you never really cared to know my name
And from the stage, you explain
But you never really cared to know my pain

No you never really cared to know my name
No you never really cared to know my name
No you never really cared to know his name

"Who Do I Believe"

Everyone's got some truth
Swimming amongst the lies
And I hate to wade through
But it's hard not to sometimes

With trust, just like a gift
I use to give away so free
To have everybody turn
And never give it back to me

All my walls
I've let fall
I've lost parts
In disbelief
As I stand
With empty hands
Oh, who
Do I believe

Everyone's got some story
An angle, a different light
You can paint the past in glory
Just to believe you did it right

So then where is kept the sacred
All the things the world can't touch
Where no one can spill your secrets
Or taint with moth and rust

All my walls
I've let fall
I've lost parts
In disbelief
As I stand
With empty hands
Oh, who
Do I believe

Life desensitizes
Trading truth when the need arises
Truth and love capsizes
Long before we realize it's
All we really need

"PokèRock: Pokèface"

Muh muh Munna, Muh muh Munna
Muh muh Munna, Muh muh Munna

I wanna breed 'em like they do on 34
Counting down steps while riding my bike back and forth
I'll keep on trying till I get the one I need
Release 'em if they have the wrong ability

Ho-Ho-oh, Ho-Ho-oh
The nature's Rash, I needed it Lax
Ho-Ho-oh, Ho-Ho-oh
An everstone could make this go by so fast

[chorus]
Can't beat my, can't beat my
No you can't beat my Pokèmon
(Metagross has got Clear Body)
Can't beat my, can't beat my
No you can't beat my Pokèmon
(Won't get beaten by nobody)
P-P-P-Pokèrus, P-p-p-Pokèrus
P-P-P-Pokèrus, P-p-p-Pokèrus

I'll use a setter for some entry hazards first
Layers of Spikes will make your chances all the worse
I think I've got the perfect strategy to win
And pray that no one that you use has Rapid Spin

Ho-Ho-oh, Ho-Ho-oh
Oh I forgot, that Glalie knows Block
Ho-Ho-oh, Ho-Ho-oh
It's Pigeot, I'll set up Stealth Rock

[chorus]
Can't beat my, can't beat my
No you can't beat my Pokèmon
(Volcarona has Flame Body)
Can't beat my, can't beat my
No you can't beat my Pokèmon
(Won't get beaten by nobody)
P-P-P-Pokèrus, P-p-p-Pokèrus
P-P-P-Pokèrus, P-p-p-Pokèrus

Put the Drought on with your Groudon
Weather teams are so easy
I'll predict 'em and then switch 'em
Take the lead without blinking

You can Choice Scarf all you want
And keep your Focus Bands too
'Cause I've got strategy, strategy
Turn your luck into tragedy

[chorus]
Can't beat my, can't beat my
No you can't beat my Pokèmon
(Metagross has got Clear Body)
Can't beat my, can't beat my
No you can't beat my Pokèmon
(Volcarona has Flame Body)
P-P-P-Pokèrus, P-p-p-Pokèrus
P-P-P-Pokèrus, P-p-p-Pokèrus

P-P-P-Pokèmon, P-p-p-Pokèmon
Muh muh Munna, Muh muh Munna

P-P-P-Pokèmon, P-p-p-Pokèmon
Muh muh Munna, Muh muh Munna

"The Sky And My Skin"

You're playing to my weakness
I know that you don't see this
The same way
Vying for attention
But missing the connection
That it plays

And it goes on and on again
You've got to fight yourself to win

[chorus]
Don't you believe
Don't you believe
That there's beauty beside
What we can see
You could be
So, so free
To remove the photo lens
By embracing what's within
You've got it within

You're swimming in the deep end
What you're sowing, we're all reaping
All the same
And we're in this together
With a focus on forever
We could change

And it goes on and on again
The battle starts where I begin

[chorus]
Don't you believe
Don't you believe
That there's beauty beside
What we can see
You could be
So, so free
To remove the photo lens
By embracing what's within
You've got it within

I look outside myself to find
All the things I fight within
There's not a war that I don't face
Between the sky and my skin
Above the insecurities
The fears that we all face
There's a world we build together
We could make a better place

Don't you believe
Don't you believe

"Visually Impaired"

Perfection in front of me
And I'm falling to my knees
A beauty I've never seen
Like out of a dream

And it's falling all around me
The stars in the sky as they watch through the trees
And it's falling off of me
The burden of a lifelong disease

[chorus]
Watch me, move the whole world
Till it's me, that you see
Watch me, catching on fire
In the back of your mind
I've been here all this time

Perfection in front of me
And I'm calling conspiracy
Is it just too much to believe
Or am I tired of seeing

Have I fallen too deep?
The light through the cracks is what keeps me breathing
I'm just trying to keep
Myself from going too far beneath

[chorus]
Watch me, move the whole world
Till it's me, that you see
Watch me, catching on fire
In the back of your mind
I've been here all this time
Trying to break the pieces free

It's never enough
It's never enough for me
You can blind my eyes with disbelief
But I'm never going to see
What's in front of me
What's in front of me

Wait now, listen to the sound
Of a steady pulse beating
There, in the background
It's calming, and I'm content to know
I could never visualize it
No, not ever on my own

"Ghost Keeps Coming Back"

It's been a while
The distance, more than miles
But they certainly don't help
You're not in my plans anymore
Lord knows I'm not in yours
But I can't picture someone else

[chorus]
Love, true love
Doesn't go away
Even when the feeling's gone
It always stays

I've seen that smile
Once thought I'd meet it down the aisle
How can I see somebody else
Cause now the scene is always blurred
Like a dream that got obscured
How can it be somebody else

[chorus]
Love, true love
Doesn't go away
Even when the feeling's gone
It always stays
When we, give up
The path's already paved
Can't unwrite the love we made

You were so hurt
By all the things I did
When all the while
Thought it was you I was helping
And I don't always do
The smartest things
I may hold too tight
To what I'm scared of losing

[chorus]
Love, true love
Doesn't go away
Even when the feeling's gone
It always stays
And I'm stuck
In constant disarray
Cause it never goes away
No, it never goes away
It haunts me every day

"Undeveloped Film"

So busy trying to change people
You've forgotten who they are
All a part of your picture
Your perfect point of view

I know you're wanting more
Your eyes behind the glass
Are pleading for a notice
That you're worth a little more

Lost sight of the vision
When you could barely stand
A time when you were younger
And the words came easily

Before this was a thought
Before this was all plotted out
You can map out any moment
But it'll never be yours
It can never be yours

The push and pull of heartstrings
We've grown up much too fast
If love was a decision
We can over-complicate it too

Before this was a thought
Before this was all plotted out
You can map out any moment
But it'll never be yours
It'll never be yours
Open your eyes, but wider

Don't want revenge
For what we've lost
Just what is just
No push or shove
Can enemies be friends
After what is lost
We just want what is just
Just what is just

Innocence is lost
But you can still choose who you are
Don't fall into the plans
They've made to mute what's in your heart

"Nothing In The End"

I can't escape this feeling
I thought I would be alright
But time doesn't always heal it
And neither does running blind

Ooh
The world is upside down
Ooh
I've got to face myself right now

[chorus]
It's never going to change
You can't turn around
Or turn back the page
This time, some things you can't rewrite
But I'm still alive
And in retrospect
It's gonna mean nothing in the end
Nothing in the end

Finding a friend in no one
No, nothing is good enough
Contentment is not the problem
It's always in giving up

But when they're selling all my secrets
Who can you really trust?
Resurfacing these regrets
The distance is deliberate

[chorus]
It's never going to change
You can't turn around
Or turn back the page
This time, some things you can't rewrite
But I'm still alive
And in retrospect
I'll be fine
It's gonna mean nothing in the end

I need a change of scenery
For too long I've been confined to the mind's machinery
The cogs are always turning
But the fuel that keeps on burning
Leads to no where in the end

Losing so much of my time
Rehashing the same old lie
Repeating what I've repeated
Time after time after time
That still means nothing in the end
Still means nothing in the end
Means nothing
Still means nothing in the end

"Sanctify"

Would you lose your mind to gain your soul?
Find comfort in the lost control?
To give up all that makes sense
To embrace all that could never make sense

The vanity of sanity
To be seen by a world of sleepers
Than be a living martyr, dead to self
Or am I my brother's keeper?

[chorus]
Lead me to the truth, sift through
My heart
With a double-edge, divide what's inside
Into parts
All of the unseen, that you can see
My self-defined reality, and the one that you see

Is everything I do just a show for attention?
Another dishonorable mention?
Am I looking for love where it can't be found?
In the eyes of the walkers of corrupted ground?

[chorus]
Lead me to the truth, sift through
My heart
With a double-edge, divide what's inside
Into parts
All of the unseen, that you can see
My self-defined reality, and the one that you see

Complete in me
The work that you have for me
Not by my formalities
Not by my ability
Cause the walls I've built to filter out
Have boxed you in and shut me out
I'm begging you to break them down

"Crooked Fence"

Somewhere along the line
Somewhere, some point in time
Someone told you to grow up
They never told you how
Oh, but look at you now
Was their direction even good enough?

Cause they can tell you to change
Yeah they can tell you to act your age
They say it's only a phase
Before the world finally has its way

[chorus]
I don't want to lose my innocence
So much was already stolen from me
I don't want to flirt with that crooked fence
That I've stood on, wondering
Just what's on the other side

Somebody told you this
And oh, the way it sticks
It doesn't matter if you want to know
And we're all in such a hurry
To pile on the worries
With baby steps to still forego

[chorus]
I don't want to lose my innocence
So much was already stolen from me
I don't want to flirt with that crooked fence
That I've stood on, wondering
Just what's on the other side

Don't wanna close my eyes
But oh, I try
Don't wanna close my eyes
I fight
All the things that keep me up at night

[chorus]
I don't want to lose my innocence
So much was already stolen from me
I don't want to flirt with that crooked fence
That I've stood on, wondering
Just who am I gonna be
Some things I'll just wait and see
Instead of trying to figure out right now
All of the things I've got to learn about

"I Couldn't Give You More"

When the lights came on
And you were gone
I knew it was the end
I found myself
A little brighter
I lost myself a friend

And I don't know
Just how to feel
But I know the words will come
And go
With everything I've lost
Until the colors run

[chorus]
I gave you what I had
And I couldn't give you more
I gave you what I had
Now it's lying on the floor
And I can't get it back
But I don't want it anymore
So walk away from me
With all the things you saw worth taking

Do you really care
That it wasn't fair
To keep me hanging on
There's just so much
That I can take
Before the feeling's gone

And I could share a thousand times
What's in my heart and on my mind
But if you never trust a word of it
Then I guess it's still just mine
Maybe I'll walk away in tact this time

[chorus]
I gave you what I had
And I couldn't give you more
I gave you what I had
Now it's lying on the floor
And I can't get it back
But I don't want it anymore
So walk away from me
With all the things you saw worth taking

It's wearing down on me
The resistance in everything
And even if I tried
I couldn't pry your hands open
To accept what I was giving
No, I couldn't give you more

I gave you what I had
I gave you what I had
I gave you what I had
I couldn't give you more
I gave you what I had
I gave you what I had
I gave you all I had
And I couldn't give you more