"Anger Or Acceptance"

I hear what they say
And it doesn't go away
Do you really have to haunt me
From beyond the grave

I buried the hatchet
That you stuck in my back it's
Been thrown so far away
But on a boomerang's track

[chorus]
I don't know
Whether to throw a fit or let this go
What I do, will it make a difference
Be appalled or be indifferent
I figure that if I ignore this
It'll be no better than ignorance
Should I be mad or just accept this
Side with anger, or acceptance

You never knew me
But you think that you see through me
Can you see that what you did before
Is what you continue doing

Staring at me from the outside
Never looking in my eyes
To see the pain you've caused
That I keep trying to disguise

[chorus]
Cause I don't know
Whether to throw a fit or let this go
What I do, will it make a difference
Be appalled or be indifferent
I figure that if I ignore this
It'll be no better than ignorance
Should I be mad or just accept this
Side with anger, or acceptance

Grace pours down
Out of a fount
That dwells in me
Drown out
All of the doubt
This hell in me
And make things right

I can't do this on my own
That's always been the case
I've reached for pieces of this puzzle
But they push me out of place
Can't you see how bad I want this
A hand to pull me through the race
So I sit here in my solitude
Asking undeserved grace

"Blue"

Sometimes I feel like I'm soaring through the sky
Or that I'm falling from you
Sometimes I feel like I'm staying afloat
Now I'm drowning in you

[chorus]
Blue, blue

Sometimes you catch my eye from afar
Sometimes you're the last I want to see
Give me any other color to choose from
I'll take the yellows, reds or greens

Some days I'm basking in your clarity
Sometimes you're streaming down my face
Give me the clouds to block the sun out
I might not need you, not today

[chorus]
Blue, blue
Blue, blue

You and black
Seem to have each others' backs
And you team up just to prove
That you can stab me in mine
Any time
You've got me feeling blue

Sometimes you've got me feeling so cool
And other times you make me depressed
Seems you're two halves of the same pool
Both my joy and lonliness

[chorus]
Blue, blue
Blue, blue

Blue, blue
Blue

"The Colors In Your Eyes"

Oh, there's a lump in my throat
In the pit of my soul I feel it
Losing all control
Now when I close my eyes
See your face in my mind
I can't deny this lovely sight

Asking the same old questions
Have I learned a thing
Forgetting the hard learned lessons
Remembering

[chorus]
Can it be
I'm leaving it all behind to see
The colors in your eyes
How they've caught mine
You've got mine, ooh

It starts, in the seat of my heart
And it's ripping apart the lines that
Show me where you are
Could you loosen the chains
That you have on my brain, it's something new
But it's the same

Regretting my past transgressions
I don't want to repeat
I'm still holding my confession
Deep inside of me

[chorus]
Can it be
I'm leaving it all behind to see
The colors in your eyes
How they've caught mine
You've got mine, ooh, glued to you
Could you please
Give me a sign it'll be alright
Cause I've fallen a thousand times
In love, I've been pushed and shoved
Aaahhh

[instrumental]

[chorus]
Can it be
I'm leaving it all behind to see
The colors in your eyes
How they've caught mine
You've got mine, ooh
See
I'm leaving it all behind to bleed
Into the colors in your eyes
The colors in your eyes
The colors in your eyes

Kid's Song: "Don't Be Mean To Odd Numbers"

Division is my favorite thing to do
Made easy by my old pal number 2
But there are ones that don't agree
And say that 2 is "not for me!"
And though sometimes it's hard to get along
I forget about our differences and sing this song

[chorus]
Don't be mean to odd numbers
Just because they're different, and they don't divide by two
Don't be mean to odd numbers
'Cause to them you're probably an odd one too

So I shake the hand of 3's and 5's and 9's
Even if it feels uncomfortable sometimes
When people stop to point and laugh
At how they make me look bad at math
Whenever I start feeling victimized
I look at them and I simply reply

[chorus]
Don't be mean to odd numbers
Just because they're different, and they don't divide by two
Don't be mean to odd numbers
'Cause to them you're probably an odd one too

Even though
It's not easy to do
The world would be no fun
If everyone looked just like you
So be a friend
To the odder numbers too
You can count on them to help you out
'Cause they can always count on you

(You're number 1!)
(Three cheers for odd numbers!)
(Give me five!)

[chorus]
Don't be mean to odd numbers
Just because they're different, and they don't divide by two
Don't be mean to odd numbers
'Cause even odds can be a friend to you

Untitled

Do you ever stop and listen
Or do you wait to throw your fists in
Hear me out
This is not a fight of words
But there's a fight, that I'm assured
And it's starting now

Because a war waged silently
Soon topples violently
And your head is full of casualties

[chorus]
Do you kill the things you love
To trade away
Will you keep your push and shove
Until they fade away
What do you hold sacred
Standing naked, all you're holding to is hatred
Is that really what you fame?

You twist and turn away
What am I supposed to say
I've tried my best
To be an open ear
But there's nothing left to hear
When you won't rest

I want to love you like I should
But you won't listen to the good
What's the point in being understood?

[chorus]
Do you kill the things you love
To trade away
Will you keep your push and shove
Until they fade away
What do you hold sacred
Standing naked, all you're holding to is hatred
Is that really what you fame?

A lie can sound much sweeter than the truth
But love won't keep the truth away from you
With honest daggers to the heart, it tears apart
So you can start brand new
Stop hiding away
Won't you let love find you

"Follow"

Your eyes were all aglow
As you watched the sun go down
On the little piece of world you know
And the peace you've found

Now you're finally home
Back where you belong
The fire in your heart
Is still beating strong

So don't give up hope
Don't give up hope

This life's a fragile thing
Our hearts can turn to and fro
The ground is always crumbling
But we shouldn't let go

And you're not alone
Though it probably feels you are
It's not the end of the world
It's just how the healing starts

[chorus]
Follow it inside, and though you've tried to hide your sorrow
Be tested and tried, all the strength you've had to borrow
Just don't give up hope
Don't give up on all you know
The days ahead have been decided
They're well-lighted
If you follow

Now there's a spark of life
It's flooding to your face
As all-consuming love ignites
And fills your eyes with grace

You're seeing through the storm
Onto the other side
This chapter's coming to a close
But you've still got so much life

[chorus]
Follow it inside, and though you've tried to hide your sorrow
Be tested and tried, all the strength you've had to borrow
Just don't give up hope
Don't give up on all you know
The days ahead have been decided
They're well-lighted
If you follow
If you follow

[chorus]
Just don't give up hope
Don't give up on all you know
The days ahead have been decided
They're well-lighted
If you follow

Follow, follow

Your eyes were all aglow
As you watched the sun go down...

"Broken And Poor"

I need to settle down
And work this out
Cause I don't like what
I see in me now

I've never felt this way before
I know I'm getting worse, I'm just not sure
If I can even point
To the right direction anymore

Ever since black became white
In the blurring lines
Where hate is your love
And love feels like a lie

[chorus]
Is there a single heart beat
That can sing above defeat
And sink deep
Into the very heart of me
I want love to find me
Broken and poor
I want love to find me
The way I was before

I remember when
I thought that I could win
By playing my own game
In my eyes, undefeated

Till I saw that there was more
So dessimated, but so sure
I could never go back to the way
It used to be before

Ever since you shone your light
And your love was bright
My heart was alive
Can we go back to that night

[chorus]
Is there a single heartbeat
That can sing above defeat
And sink deep
Into the very heart of me
I need love to find me
Broken and poor
I need love to find me
The way it did before

When your love descended
When I begged for you to send it
To me
Now I'm here again
Won't you bring me to my knees

I need love to find me
I need love to find me
The way it did before
I need love to find me
Cause I can't see it anymore

"I Care About You"

I know you probably figure
That I don't care much at all
I resurrect these see-through walls
Through inconsistent calls

In the span of time between us
There's always so much going on
I catch the highlights of your life
But never as much as I want

[chorus]
And I still don't know
Why it's so hard to figure out
It's so hard to show
Maybe cause I don't know how
Caught in my throat
The words that never leave my mouth
I care about you so
Even though I don't know how
To show it

You probably think
That my mind is somewhere else
But I drift to you every time
I ever get to think, myself

And I haven't figured out
Why it's so hard just to stop
Put the rest on hold to let you know
That I still do care a lot

[chorus]
And I still don't know
Why it's so hard to figure out
It's so hard to show
Maybe cause I don't know how
Caught in my throat
The words that never leave my mouth
I care about you
Even though I don't know how
To show it

I tend to bail, I know I flake
There's no disguising my mistakes
Just to let you know the fault's my own
And what you mean to me has never changed
Though time may paint it wrong
I'm just sorry that it took so long
To say

[chorus]
That I still don't know
Why it's so hard to figure out
It's so hard to show
Maybe cause I don't know how
Caught in my throat
The words that never leave my mouth
I care about you so
Even though I don't know how
To show it
I think I finally figured out
How to show it

"Bitterness"

Bitterness
Sows so deep
You only reap, much more of it
Than you could ever dream
Thought you could dip your feet in
But find yourself downstream

And all the tears you shed
Like fire falling out your burning head
Thought you'd be safe, instead
Your old scars are now the new wounds, freshly bled

Your heart can only take so much
Before you finally side and give it up
Couldn't have guessed it'd ever be this tough
But selfishness and lonliness, a mix that makes your heart erupt

So take it all
And give it up

Bitterness
Sows so deep
You only reap, much more of it
Than you could ever dream
Thought you could dip your feet in
But find yourself downstream

All the initial pain
So distant, hidden behind the new wall of shame
What made you ever turn around that day
And made you want to live your life this way

And if it hurt so bad
Why not try making someone understand
That's yesterday, and you can't get it back
But it's the past so you can still move past

And move away from all the
Bitterness
Sows so deep
You only reap, much more of it
Than you could ever dream
Thought you could dip your feet in
But the current's always stronger than it seems

Some traps you can't get out of
Unless you take the route of love
And when push comes to shove
Turn the other cheek, cause there's no need to run
Yeah there's no need to run

"I Need the Truth"

I feel so helpless now
I can't move
I can't speak
I can't say a single thing
I want to say

And all these actions, undecided
I need help, I'm so divided
I live in such a strange place now
While I'm waiting for love to reach out

This is the only way I know
To get this pain out of my head
Please somebody tell me what is wrong
Can somebody tell me who I am
I'm getting so tired of the day to day
Of feeling numb, I can't overcome this

Mountains tower before me
To you they're molehills at your feet
While my failure keeps me stagnant
And I'm so tired of defeat

Every time that I try I get rejected
Makes me wanna give up being directed
At all
Stay in the same place, just a different time
If I can't win this prize, I'll make lonliness mine

I need the truth
It doesn't matter what it takes
Don't assume you know my heart
Or what can make it break
I need the truth

"Love Where Are You"

I know love when I see it
Haven't seen it in a while
I've accepted a replica
Waited patient with a smile

I've built walls all around me
Trying to keep my heart in tact
From the times I left it open
And given parts I can't get back

There's no way to explain it
But I know something's wrong

[chorus]
Love where are you
Where you been
You're what caught my eye
What pulled me in
Feels like I'm running on my own again
Not really ever knowing when
I'll find you
Oh, love where are you

Seems grace is just a dying art
We've all taken judgment's hand
Can't trust my brother not to push me down
Every time I try to make a stand

And can you take me as I am
Or were you better all along
I'm with broken sinners, while you're all winners
And you tell me that I'm wrong

And I still don't understand it
Thought love didn't come back empty-handed

[chorus]
Love where are you
Where you been
You're what caught my eye
What drew me in
Feels like I'm walking all alone again
Not ever really knowing when
I'll find you
Oh, love where are you

I want to stomp my feet
And throw my fists
Call it righteous anger
Or ignorance
All the same to me now
There's no way to live this down

Love where are you
Where you been
You're what changed my life
What saved my skin
And I'm dying to hear your voice again

[chorus]
Love where are you
Where you been
You're what caught my eye
What pulled me in
But I don't see you in a single person
God I need you
Oh, Love where are you

"Just Like You Said"

I feel grace
When I'm in a lonely place
And my heart is scattered all across the floor
It's bittersweet
A weight lifted off my feet
To hear You say "let's give it just one more"

[chorus]
And You lift me up again
You brush me off again
Just like You said You would
Just like You said

I feel lost
When I don't see the way across
I lose my faith to wander in the dark
And it's not till I
Find my way back to Your side
That I get a glimpse of just how right You are

[chorus]
And You lift me up again
And You brush me off again
Just like You said You would
Just like You said

[instrumental]

It's not too late to turn around
Though my mistakes like to convince me otherwise
Broken and stranded, yet I'm not left empty handed
'Cause in Your voice, I know there is no disguise

[chorus]
And You lift me up again
And You brush me off again
And You're digging deep again
To pull out the foolishness within
Just like You said You would
Just like You said

Just like You said You would
Just like You said

"Let the Bullets Fly"

Didn't take much to set you off this time
You've got your gunmen in a line
Ready, aim, not backing down this time
Let the bullets fly
Let the bullets fly

You can't keep your arms out of my life
You've made it clear you want a fight
And I know it's my turn to decide
So let the bullets fly
Let the bullets fly

[chorus]
Walls close on every side
Trying to steal my breath, my life
Let the truth ring out into the sky
If it's a war you want then
Let the bullets fly

The light is searching for a place to shine
Out of the cracks in this heart of mine
Still caught pretending that the world is fine
You open up my eyes
When the bullets fly

Better bet there will be a fight
When the damned hear of the Divine
You can push me with all your might
Go ahead and try
Let the bullets fly

[chorus]
Walls close on every side
Trying to steal my breath, my life
Let the truth ring out into the sky
If it's war you want then
Let the bullets fly

Let the tides wash over
Let the bullets spray
Let your armies build
I will be okay
Let the walls close in
Let the towers fall
Love is my only ally
And Love conquers all

[chorus]

"Separation Anxiety"

I was broken from the start
Had a hole left in my heart
Not a glint of good in me
A dark and hopeless tragedy
Yeah, I was broken from the start

Oooooooh, oooooooh

I hid away and sought the night
With broken bones I tried to fight
Nothing to hold me back
And save me from this heart attack
My life was such a hopeless sight

[chorus]
Until Your light broke through
The day that I found You
With all of Your love displayed
How can I turn away?

They tried to keep me in the dark
Set traps to keep us both apart
Kept me in comatose
So numb I'd never feel You close
And see how beautiful You are

Oooooooh, oooooooh

Each generation reaps the cost
A broken bridge that we can't cross
Our broken hands can't build
A single step toward being filled
Our hearts were mended on a cross

[chorus]
The day Your light broke through
The day that I found You
With all of Your love displayed
How could I turn away

[instrumental]

[breakdown]
This is our inheritance
Our seed of disobedience
That keeps us torn, we were born like this
This is the tension, we live in it

[chorus]
Your light broke through
The day that I found You
With all of Your love displayed
How could I turn away
Your light broke through
The day that I found You
With all of Your love displayed
Why do I still turn away?

"One Man"

Flesh and blood
A child among men
A brother among sons

Hope begun
Like a story beginning
A new tapestry spun

[chorus]
One man, one man
That's all it took
One man, one man
To save a world of crooks

Footsteps
With feet to accomplish
Every breath with a purpose

Undeserved
The weight of our misdeeds
All cast upon your head

[chorus]
One man, one man
That's all it took
One man, one man
To save a world of crooks
One man, one man
To tear the wall apart
One man, one man
To enter in the heart

Why would you die for us?
Why would you die for us?
Have you seen the way, we trade love away
For wickedness
Why would you die for us?
Why would you die for us?
With our filthy hands we don't deserve to stand
In Your presence

"Guarded"

I'm an open book again
And everyone can see the pages
Tried to keep it all contained
But instead it spreads, contagious

I could bite my tongue
I could shut my mouth
But the truth still finds a way
Of getting out

[chorus]
Shut my heart away
Keep these thoughts at bay
Before they're all out on display
Should have stopped before I started
Before I forgot where my heart is
Keep it close, yeah keep it guarded
Next to You

I've let it slip again
As everyone leans in to listen
I never wanted this to leak out
Thought I'd be safe if I didn't speak out

I could bite my tongue
I could shut my mouth
But my heart still finds a way
Of spilling out

[chorus]
Shut my heart away
Keep these thoughts at bay
Before they're all out on display
Should have stoppped before I started
Before I forgot where my heart is
Keep it close, yeah keep it guarded
Next to You

I want to get it right
You know I do
And I've failed so many times before
I just wanna be sure
That the place and time
Are all defined by You

"Now"

Now is the time to make the choice
Now that I can finally hear Your voice
When my thoughts are so caught up in the past
This moment's all I really know I have

[chorus]
Cause I know someday I'll be leaving this life
With everything and nothing at the same time
Sure I'm scared of leaving
But I'm alive and I'm still breathing right
Now

Now, the peace outshines the doubt
Now that I know all I've been without
My questions, I'm letting them all go
Not worried about what the future holds
Cause You let me

[chorus]
Know that someday I'll be leaving this life
With everything and nothing at the same time
Sure I'm scared of leaving
But I'm alive and I'm still breathing right
Now

I'm alive
I'm alive
Right now

"I Can't Escape"

I would never try to run
I'd never try to hide
If there wasn't a war
Going on the inside

I would never try to flee
The goodness of your grace
If I wasn't so consumed
By the weight of my disgrace

[chorus]
And I can hear You calling now
But I'm too scared to turn around
Break my legs, drag me back to You
If that's what it takes to break through

I'm calling in the night
Like I'm waiting for the day
I only seem to need You
When my world begins to sway

I'm a mess without Your love
I'm blind without Your sight
Help to guide my footsteps
So I'm walking in Your light

[chorus]

I can't escape
I can't escape Your love

"I Hate Not Knowing"

Questions keeping me up all night
Thoughts and feelings I can't decide
I don't know what to think anymore
Don't know what to believe anymore

I wish the answer was clear as day
A shining light above my dismay
So I can point it out, there it is
The only question is where it is

[chorus]
My mind is running wild
Where do the answers lie
Caught somewhere between
The breath before I dive
I hate not knowing
I hate not knowing
Can you show me

I lose a part of my heart each day
I never mean it to slip away
Cashing in on short-sighted goals
That dig me into a deeper hole

And from the bottom I'm crying out
Phrased as questions and lonely doubts
When you've removed all of my sin
Can you make me whole again?

[chorus]
My mind is running wild
Where do the answers lie
Caught somewhere between
The breath before I dive
I hate not knowing
I hate not knowing
I hate not knowing
Can you show me

[instrumental]

[chorus]

"Keep Me"

Let not my eyes decieve me
And let not my memories grieve me
Now
It's coming down

And give me the strength to see through
All that I never would do
Now
It's all around

[chorus]
Would You keep me
Would You keep me
Close to You
Cause I am breaking
I am breaking
In two

Waking up from a bad dream
And I'm too afraid of sleeping
Now
Don't wanna drown

Keep calling to the heavens
My ears too deaf to listen
Now
Through all the sound

[chorus]
Would You keep me
Would You keep me
Close to You
Cause I'm breaking
Yeah I'm breaking
In two

Your arms, a haven from the things that harm me
Your love, it stretches so much further than I see
And Your heart, is reaching out
You're reaching out for me

[chorus]
Would You keep me
Would You keep me
Close to You
Cause I'm breaking
I'm breaking in two

"Amnesia"

I don't know who I am anymore
Can't remember who I was before
Or if I was any better then
What did I do wrong along the way
That made it so I couldn't stay
Aware in the present

[chorus]
Who am I
Who am I
I can't seem to let questions in me die
Where am I
Where am I
I don't know how I got into this place I lie
Or how I'm getting out alive

I washed up on a distant place
Saw my reflection, didn't recognize my face
Or the person underneath
Overcome by a gnawing fear
What if I never get out of here?
What if I never find my missing piece?

[chorus]
Who am I
Who am I
I can't seem to let these questions in me die
Where am I
Where am I
Don't know how I got into this place I lie
Or how I'm getting out alive

I hear a voice
And it's whispering
This isn't who you are, just what you're capable of
This isn't who you are, just what you're capable of
This isn't who you are, just what you're capable of
When you forget love

"Empty World"

We live in a world
Where people chase their feelings
Believing it'll make them free
We live in a world
With captives still in bondage
With people still in slavery

[chorus]
When you reach the high
And hit the low
And wonder how far down it goes
Is there anything that makes you feel whole?
When you're breaking down
With your eyes shut close
When you know that hell is real
Cause it feels so close
Stop believing this empty world

We live in a world
Where women sell their bodies
Where the value of your fellow man is gone
We live in world
Where people are commodities
And people only aim at what they want

[chorus]
When you reach the high
And hit the low
And wonder how far down it goes
Is there anything that makes you feel whole?
When you're breaking down
With your eyes shut close
When you know that hell is real
Cause it feels so close
Stop believing this empty world

What are they selling you?
What are they selling you to?

There is a hope I know
Dying to bring depth to the shallow
Reaching out
That transcends the broken ends of the hollow
A love that won't abandon you

Shallow, hollow
Shallow, hollow
Don't believe in this empty world!

"Broken Home"

Standing on the edge of the earth
Absorbed in the vastness of the sky
Silhouetted shapes in the setting sun
Just passing me by

The water paves a path between me
Sand melts between my even toes
Feels like my heart could wash away from me
As easy as the tide arrives and goes

When broken homes
Are all I've known
I'm sure I wasn't
Made to be alone

[chorus]
What am I doing wrong
Why do I feel like I don't belong
Where do I fit in this reality
I can picture it inside my head
But the peices all around are dead
And this lonliness will be the death of me

Step back to see the sun above me
Hiding behind the army clouds
They keep the light contained for only so long
Before the gold comes out

When broken homes
Are all I've known
I know that if it's love
It doesn't leave you alone

[chorus]
What am I doing wrong
Why do I feel like I don't belong
Where do I fit into this family
I can picture it inside my head
But the people all around are dead
And the lonliness will be the death of me

So I don't fit
I can understand
But when you fill the spaces so tight
No one can
Overlooked, still approachable
Is there hope left for the invisible?

"30 Shades Of Red"

Wake up it's a brand new day
Light shines on a tired face
As my feet feel the carpet floor
I wonder what's in store

People drive and people bike
Some people walk and others hike
The footsteps never look alike
But they always end up here

[chorus]
We beat the gray
Even though we're not the same
We all see the world in a different way
But we do what we can
To hit the mark
We're right on target
And now you've started
To paint this picture in my head
In thirty shades of red

Step into a crowded place
Out of the comfort I create
It's a busy world outside
Of the walls in my mind

Every person, a different piece
A different shade in a masterpiece
All connected where our hearts beat
In red

[chorus]
We beat the gray
Even though we're not the same
We all see the world in a different way
But we do what we can
To hit the mark
We right on target
And now you've started
To paint this picture in my head
In thirty shades of red

And I know inside
We lose the lines
That we have drawn
When we look beyond the face
Even with the same color on
We all wear our own shade

"To Love And To Lose"

I can keep
The shutters down
Close the blinds and pretend
That I live in a ghost town

I can hide
In my own mind
Ignore all the world and say
How can I see when I'm blind?

[chorus]
You open my eyes
To see deep in the wound
The distance between the two shores
I'm starting to see
That to be alive at all
Is for my heart to hurt like Yours
Like Yours

It's a risk
Putting your heart on the floor
When you give your love out
And know that it might be ignored

So I can see
How it must feel to be like You
Just a grocery-list God
We half-heartedly come to
When You've given it all

[chorus]
You open my eyes
To see deep in the wound
The distance between the two shores
I'm starting to see
That to be alive at all
Is for my heart to hurt like Yours
For my heart to break like Yours

We can't hide away
Afraid to be scarred
To love and to lose
Is to be who You are
To be who You are

[chorus]

"The Battleground"

Help me see the truth in this
As the things I know begin to change
Through the highs and lows, my weakness shows
My comfort's seen its end of days

The empty thrills and dull attractions
The candy-coated sugar rush
Rebuilding a heart with missing parts
Is already hard enough

To say you suffered so I wouldn't have to
Well, that's only a half truth

[chorus]
I'm a part of this now
There's no backing out
Signed up for the war you're waging
Against the broken world around me
I'm not backing down
Though the fire is all around
I'll listen for your voice
To guide me through the battleground

My eyes grow heavy in the garden
The night is just as heavy too
When men with swords come to make their war
Will I be awake to fight for you?

To say you died so I wouldn't have to
Well, that's only a half truth

[chorus]
I'm a part of this now
There's no backing out
Signed up for the war you're waging
Against the broken world around me
I'm not backing down
Though the fire is all around
I'll listen for your voice
To guide me through the battleground

This life, this life
This life's a battlefield
Strip down, these walls
Awake the dead and make me real

Equip me with the things I need
Through patience and long suffering
Clinging to your side
I know that hope will never disappoint me

"Invisible"

Blurring all the lines inside my head
I can't decide if this is really happening
Falling down just like before I was so sure
That this was different now

Yeah, time can pass
But feelings never do
Clinging on to a fiction
When I'm begging for the truth

[chorus]
How long can I stay invisible
Before I disappear
How long can I hold it inside
Till it's all made clear
I wanna turn this inside out
Show the world what it's about
But they don't hear

A crippled man can stand for only so long
Before his scars remind him that the past exists
It's hard enough to run, even harder to remain
Going face to face with chances that he missed

Guard my heart
Keep it safe inside this cage
Before it breaks apart
And bleeds itself onto the page

[chorus]
How long can I stay invisible
Before I disappear
How long can I hold it inside
Till it's all made clear
I want to turn this inside out
Show the world what it's about
But they don't hear

I wish that they could see
That all these words get in the way
Of what I'm really trying to say
Will the truth ever escape
Before I finally fade away

"Today"

Today is a day for building
For lifting my cup and refilling
My life with Your blessings
That I keep forgetting
Today is a day for building

My heart is a bluebird in flight
The sun bursting out of the night
A fiery explosion
Of joyful emotion
My heart is a bluebird in flight

Your eyes reveal an endless world of song
That's carried me these seventeen years strong
I'm captive in these battles
When my sins leave me shackled
Been battling the numbness for so long

My Lord is a triumphant savior
A loving and magnificent creator
Dismantling my sin
So He can build me up again
My Lord, I thank You for Your loving labors

Today is a day to destroy
To give up all my plots, my plans, my ploys
And finally begin
To let You lift me up again
For You alone to be my hope and joy

"The Only Good In Me"

Phrases laced with my intentions
That only seem to spark dissension
Convince myself the words are true
I'm tired of these masked manipulations
Worn for control over situations
What is it I'm trying to do?

Every word that comes out
Is another lie I shout
Trying to show myself
In a better light to someone else

[chorus]
The only thing I know is true
Is that the only good in me is You
There's nothing more I have to prove
Because the good in me is all from You

Painted walls of pure deception
Looking for outside reception
While I am trapped within it all
Intentional or not, I see
All the desperate selfishness I weave
My victories preceed the fall

And even the words I say right now
Are scraping for some good within the bowels
Of the darkened depths of who I am
A speck of dust that You made man
I strive so hard to show my best
When it's all but nothingness
Take the dirt in me and make it shine for You

[chorus]
The only thing I know is true
Is that only good in me is You
I've got nothing left for me to lose
Because the good in me is all from You

So dark in me, so bright from You
The only light that's shining through

"Brighten the World"

Sitting alone on this hilltop
Waiting for the world to disappear
I confess that I'm a mess without you near
Still wondering when the lonely tears stop
Wondering why I'm so consumed by fear
That the world won't look the same without her here

So many walls I've built between
The one I love and me
I've grown cold being here on my own
I need the light so I can see

[chorus]
Set free
All the brokenness inside of me
I've been so far away
Break through
Like the morning light, I'll wait for you
To brighten my world

Sinking beneath all my sorrows
All the things I've tried to hold on to
I'm so desperate just to feel one thing that's true
Searching for hope in tomorrow
When I know I can find it here and now
In the arms of Grace that cover me somehow

I won't let this place so filled with hate
Dictate what I can do
You have the power to change my world if I let you
Will I let you

[chorus]
Set free
All this brokenness inside of me
I've been so far away
Break through
Like the morning light, I'll wait for you
To brighten my world

Peel away the layers till you get to the core
Push against the current till you reach the shore (x3)

[chorus]
Set free
All this brokenness inside of me
I've been so far away
Break through
Like the morning light, I'll shine for you
To brighten the world
To brighten my world

"Arms Around You"

Where is there hopelessness
Where is there lonliness
In God?
Where is there anxiety
Where is there worry
In God?

Perfectly powerful
Perfectly true
Keeps his word
To always keep you

[chorus]
Arms around you
He's got His arms around you
Carrying you through this storm we call this life
So hold on tight, and know He'll never leave your side
He's got His arms around you

Where is there fearfulness
Where is there any unrest
In God?
Before your enemies, prepares a feast
A house of everlasting peace
In God, have peace in God

So why do you worry, oh child?
For God is in you

[chorus]
Arms around you
He's got His arms around you
Carrying you through the storm we call this life
So hold on tight, and know he'll never leave your side
He's got His arms around you

So lift your hands
And fall apart
Release the fear
That's in your heart
For love dispells
Even the darkest parts
Rest in His

[chorus]
Arms around you
He's got his arms around you
Carrying you through the storm we call this life
So hold on tight, and know He'll never leave your side
He's got His arms around you

"Dethrone Me"

This world is growing dimmer
Strength is wearing thinner
Can you feel it
Integrity is a dying art
Nobody cares about who they are
Just how they appear

Let's get back to the heart
Back to where it all starts

Our chances are getting slimmer
A world engulfed by hopeless sinners
Do you see it
When we make this about us
Who else is there left to trust
We've seen the worst already in ourselves

[chorus]
I don't wanna be my own god anymore
The needs I try to satisfy
Always end up running dry
And leave me empty, crying out for more
No more self-serving, truth perverting
Hollowness of this idolatry
Dethrone me

My heart is growing weary
I cry out, but no one hears me
Don't know who I'm pleading to
When the strength I've had has been my own
And I feed it from a hand-made throne
The flame will smolder inside me

Let's get back to the heart
Get back to where it all starts

[chorus]
I don't wanna be my own god anymore
The needs I try to satisfy
Always end up running dry
And leave me empty, crying out for more
No more self-serving, truth perverting
Hollowness of this idolatry
Dethrone me

[bridge]
Cast down
Cast down
Falling
On my knees
Will you break me

[chorus]

"With You"

If I were in that crowd
I would have mocked you just as loud
As all the wicked and the proud
'Cause that was me

If I were in that place
I would have shunned your broken face
Without a morsel of disgrace
'Cause that was me

[chorus]
Before I knew your mercy
That you did it all for me
To live eternally with you
Before I knew your love
And all the pain you'd overcome
To come and lift me up with you

I'm no more worthy here today
Than the day that I was saved
Yeah, I still need your grace
'Cause I'm still me

[chorus]
And now I know your mercy
That you did it all for me
To live eternally with you
And now I know your love
All the pain you had to overcome
To come and lift me up with you

And all of our hands are bloodstained
We all hung you there as one, yet you love us all the same
Yeah you love us all the same

[chorus]
Now I know your mercy
That you did it all for me
To spend eternity with you
Now I know your love
All the pain you'd overcome
To come and lift me up
To come and lift me up with you

"Blindness"

Distant shapes
I can barely feel
Trying to touch
Whatever's real
Reaching out
Across our planes
To see the things
I can't explain

I want to live
Without these eyes to guide me
Dispense these senses
At a place where you can find me
Alone in the dark
Disabled from the things that blind me
To know what does exist
From the faith that is inside me

All the things
That I can see
Stumbling blocks
For eternity
What will last
And what remains
Are veiled behind
This picture frame

I want to live
Without these eyes to guide me
Dispense these senses
At a place where you can find me
Alone in the dark
Disabled from the things that blind me
And know what does exist
From the faith that is inside me

Dispense these senses
Come and find me
With truth and revelations blinding
In darkness you will be
The only light I see

I want to live
Without these eyes to guide me
Dispense these senses
Come and find me
Alone in the dark
Disabled from the things that blind me
To know the world exists
Not because of my own understanding

"Victimized"

Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
What do I do to hurt you
What do I do to bring you down, down
I'm trying the best I can
But still don't understand

If guilt is your game, I'm not buying in
Because even in love there's no way to win
You're pressing, you're pushing, you're pulling me in
With unsaid expectations

Stop looking for satisfaction
Where you know it can't be found
I'll do my best to be there
But I'm bound to let you down

Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
What do I do to hurt you
What do I do to bring you down
I'm trying the best I can
But still don't understand

If you're looking for peace, not supplying it
In fact I have a tendency of denying it
So we could war right through this or simply quit
I'm not a saint and I'm sure not perfect

[bridge]
What are you looking for in me?
What are you looking for at all?
We've got these problems, let's face them down
And beat them while they're small

Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
What do I do to hurt you
What do I do to bring you down
I'm trying the best I can
But still don't understand

"Relapse"

Am I deluded now
My life is upside-down
Walking into the depths
Like I was flying to the heavens

My heart is torn to pieces
Feels like I'm breathing in diseases
With every step I take
But I can't seem to turn around

I'd invite you to step into the brokenness
If there was an opening at all
Don't know if I would let you even if there was a door

[chorus]
When you said
You only wanted all of me
I didn't realize the cost
And now I ask
Is there nothing I can do
Any other way to get across

My empty sense of peace
Is catching up with me
I never wanted to question you
Just the things that I believe

[chorus]

[bridge]
My heart is breaking
I'm breaking
I want to understand
But I keep saying
If you can gather me up
And make me whole again
Destroy these insecurities
Only then I'd let you in

TBW: "Coffee Is A Drug"

Alright, last song for throwback week. A little late on this one cause I didn't realize it wasn't Sunday anymore, but I know that none of you mind. So without any delay, here you go!
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Coffee is a drug, my friends
You're all to meet your bitter end
You can sugarcoat it all you want
But you can't hide your habits in a restaurant

Once you're hooked, it just ain't pretty
'Cause there's no half-and-half, there's no fifty-fifty
You're diving in head-first, it's more like a cannonball
When the morning's over you're just gonna hit another wall

[chorus]
You're stuck in a rut
That's as deep as a cup
Is it ever gonna be enough?
I'm begging you right now
Put the creamer and sugar down
Your shaking hands clutched to your mug
It tells me
Coffee is a drug

Skip the needles, skip the pills
All you need is a cup to get your little fill
Your addiction is sickening, it's making me ill
You're spiralling downward in your caffenated thrill

You say "I'll take a latte, make it a grande
I need my coffee, so deliciously frothy
Don't even think about it, not gonna stop me
I've got the coffee, it's not the coffee that's got me!"

[chorus]
You're stuck in a rut
That's as deep as a cup
Is it ever gonna be enough?
I'm begging you right now
Put the creamer and sugar down
Your shaking hands clutched to your mug
It tells me
Coffee is a drug

[bridge]
Is there a cure for tiredness?
A remedy that's wireless?
'Cause wired's the only way you like to be
The only way you function properly

[chorus]
You're stuck in a rut (You've gotta give it up)
That's as deep as a cup (You've gotta give it up)
No, it'll never be enough
I'm begging you right now
Look for a pick-me-up that doesn't get you down
You've got to give it up
Because
Coffee is a drug

TBW: "Here"

I've come a long way in such a short time
Feels like my world just shifted axis tonight
You've taken hold of all the things I hold tight
Change comes like a hurricane sometimes

Ooo-ooh, untie these ropes
They've strangled out my every hope

I'm sorry brother have I failed you again?
I'm sorry sister, don't know where to begin
Father forgive me for this mess that I'm in
My life's a trainwreck but Your goodness will win

Ooo-ooh, these highs and lows
I'm still so scared of letting go

[chorus]
Everything that led me here
The walls that fell and disappeared
I wouldn't take a different route
The future still remains unclear
But I am giving up on fear
And wait to meet You here and now
Right here and now

TBW: "Tunnel Vision"

A narrow mind, a narrow view
You only see what's in front of you
Blinded by all the things you know
But what do you know?

You only focus on the things
That you're positive that you can see
But you don't see much when
You're looking through a hole, ooh

[chorus]
You still can't see
All the beauty there can be
Once you open your eyes
I can't explain
This motion set in place
That made me realize

A world of black surrounding you
Unaware of this thing that's containing you
Is this really the place you call your home
Or is there more you want to know?

There's a light in the distance you can see
That you've always said you couldn't reach
But every step that takes you there
Brings you closer to understanding

[chorus]
And you still can't see
All the beauty there can be
Once you open your eyes
I can't explain
This motion set in place
That made me realize

[bridge]
You were meant to know
There's still time to be set free
Hope is at your side
You can't feel it yet but soon you'll see

You'll see
You'll see
And all will see

[chorus]
But you still can't see
All the beauty there can be
Till you stop drawing lines
Like the wind in the trees
Or the air sculpting the seas
Some things you can't define

And you still can't see
All the beauty there can be
Until you open your eyes
In tunnel vision
You can't see what you're missing
The brighter part of life

TBW: "Jump"

If you really believe in me, believe me now
If you really depend on me, let your defenses down
If you really have faith in me, then why are you still running around?
Take rest in me, take rest in me

If you really are changed in me, be formed anew
If my love is really strong then let it rule over you
When you feel like you don't belong, forget what you once knew
You belong to me, you belong to me

[chorus]
My child, there are still wars to be won
But right now all I need is your obedience
You know just who I Am, but now you need to trust
'Cause every leap of faith
Requires that you jump

If you really confide in me, give me your heart
I want the whole thing, not just any given part
The sooner you let go, the sooner the healing starts
Give it all to me, give it all to me

[chorus]
My child, there are still wars to be won
But right now all I need is your obedience
You know just who I Am, but now you need to trust
'Cause every leap of faith
Requires that you jump

Jump
Come on and jump

If you're really on fire for me, be set aflame
Be ignited by the power of my name
If you feel like you're burning out, remember why I came
To die for you, to pay the price for you

Ooo-oooh
Ooo-oooh

TBW: "Drifting"

I hold on
Far too long
To these words that you say
You were right
By my side
But now you're drifting away

[chorus]
So was this really all
Just a means to an end
When in the creases of your face
I see the places that you been
I know I'll never see you
In the same way again
But why can't you see the same you
That I saw then

Watching you
Slowly move
Far from where you began
I can't speak
You're out of reach
Don't want to see my outstretched hand

[chorus]
So how do I move on
And how can I pretend
When in the creases of your face
I see the places that you've been
I know I'll never see you
In the same way again
Why can't you see the same you
That I saw
Why can't you see the same you
That I saw then

[breakdown/bridge]
Forgive and forget
I'm not sure if I'm ready yet
When I'm lost in regret
And stuck with all these things
Stuck with all these things I never said

There are no
Things to show
To say I've truly moved on
I could run
From all I've done
But this heartbreak will never be gone

TBW: "Lighthouse"

I'm looking 'round and
This joy's resounding
Your light shining
And You're finding me
Just like the beacon
That I've been seeking
To come and save me
From this crashing sea

Your luminescence
Off at a distance
I need You closer
Cause I want to feel
Your warming presence
In my existence
Since You're the only thing
I know is real

I'm clinging on to You
So I won't drift away
But these overbearing tides
Are begging me to stay

My heart is broken
These words You've spoken
Leave me defenseless
I'm surrendering
And now I realize
These tears in my eyes
Are just a mark
Of Your own suffering

Cause You are the light
That guides me home
When all is dead as night
I know I'm not alone

I hear You call out
And see the fallout
Of all the things
That blinded me before
Your love is healing
And now revealing
Every obstacle that
Kept me from the shore

[chorus]
And You guide me to the shore
So I can feel Your love restore
When all I've known is darkness in this storm
Above the waves and ocean's roar
I hear You calling, calling

I'm looking 'round and
This joy's resounding
Your light is shining
And You're finding me

TBW: "Give Me A Reason"

My world is a broken place
Like shards of a shattered window
Disillusioned from my mistakes
But now I'm thinking for my own

My compass has been defective
My maps are torn in two
Lost at sea with no direction
I need a hand to hold on to

But I'm breathing, isn't that enough?
Yeah I'm breathing, but it's not enough

[chorus]
So give me a reason
For why I'm breathing
Give me a purpose
So I know I'm not worthless
Give me the answers
To free me from this curse
Cause I don't want to feel this way forever

It's easier to pretend you're happy
When you've got an aching heart
On the surface you're always laughing but
Underneath the water's dark

So where are you gonna go when
You realize that you're not dreaming
This is your life, start living like you're alive

[chorus]
Give me a reason
For why I'm breathing
Give me a purpose
So I know I'm not worthless
Give me the answers
To free me from this curse
Cause I don't want to feel this way forever

[bridge]
You've been alone
So where you gonna call your home
Been astray for far too long
There's a peace of mind
You gain when you truly find
Where you belong

[chorus] x2

Throwback Week

For the next week I'm going to post old songs of mine on here that have already been written for quite a while. All of them already have music to them and whatnot. Hope you guys enjoy!

"Beautiful Wasteland"

Looking 'round it's hard to think
That every single thing we see
Was born out of a tragedy
The fault of all humanity

Rolling hills and golden plains
The sunny skies and pouring rain
Inherited along with pain
But we've never known another way

[chorus]
This is our reality
Plan B of what was never meant to be
We live in a beautiful wasteland
Far from what was ever planned
Waiting for the day that we're free

Engulfed by the roar of the waves
We get lost in a sunset
All the beauty that we can't explain
We haven't seen a thing yet

And sometimes it's easy to forget

[chorus]
That this is our reality
Plan B of what was never meant to be
We live in a beautiful wasteland
Far from what was ever planned
Waiting for the day that we will finally see

The world as it was meant to be
With our eyes open wide
Captivated by a glimpse
Of the other side
This is a fallback
This is a snapshot
This is grace unleashed
On a fallen world

[chorus]
This is our reality
Plan B of what was never meant to be
We live in a beautiful wasteland
Far from what was ever planned
Waiting for the day that we're set free

"Glass Love"

There's fragments of the love you've recieved
All over the pavement
This time was real, or so you believed
And now you're wondering what it all meant

You've given everything you have
To try to grab ahold of it
To pick it up, but you can't get it back
From the start it wasn't made to fit

We take the fake
We take the bittersweet
But we won't ever take the remedy

[chorus]
This is a glass love
Watch it shatter
Leaves you broken
Questioning what's the matter
What happened
Why does it feel like
You're empty all over again
With shards left in your heart
From where you left it open

You let them in, you get let down
It feels like love is fiction
When the one you think you've finally found
Feels more like a division

But there's a love that doesn't fall
Won't leave your heart in fragments
And the greatest part about it all
It's free for you to have it

Don't be afraid to let it in
When all you've ever known is

[chorus]
A glass love
Watch it shatter
Leaves you broken
Questioning what's the matter
What happened
Why does it feel like
You're empty all over again
With shards left in your heart
From where you left it open

[bridge]
But let it fall apart
Let it fall down like the rain
This lie we build won't last
And all that will remain
Is a love as white as snow
That covers all our stains
Don't be afraid to let it in
And give your heart away

"Celebrities"

Celebrities
Are people I know that have never heard of me
I know who they're with and what they're doing
All because I saw them in a movie

Celebrities
Are people we hold to a high degree
Because they're beautiful and good at acting
We see them crying, we see them laughing

So I'll put them on a pedestal
Anticipating when they'll fall
Again and again
And again

[chorus]
Human
Human beings
Voyeuristic politics
Of the television screen
With souls
And hearts still beating
Not until we see the blood
Do we think that they're bleeding too

Celebrities
Are people I've seen that have never seen me
Yet I see their whole lives on a tv screen
Change the channel when I'm through with watching

Lives on display
So that I might be entertained
For only a moment
Until that moment fades away

[chorus]
Human
Human beings
Voyeuristic politics
Of the television screen
With souls
And hearts still beating
Not until we see the blood
Do we believe that they're bleeding too
Then is it too late to undo?

Our lives
Are not commodities
Not a show that you watch
Not a dumb romantic comedy
This is it, this is life
You're really here, you are alive
And there's nothing more beautiful
Than every second that you're breathing

Human
Human beings
We are human
We are human beings

"Love To Life"

When I close my eyes
Beneath my eyelids I see starry skies
The image burns in my mind
And I know inside the dead in me must die

I've been so lost
Built and burnt these bridges in attempts to get across
But my works are dead
And these action leave me empty, so I will follow You instead

[chorus]
I've found a home here
I'm not alone here
You've shown the way here, I'm going to stay here
Beneath Your loving arms

The wars begin
Finding that the battle starts at the place I let You in
But now I see
The struggle for my consciousness was there behind the scenes

[chorus]
But I'm not alone here
'Cause I've found a home here
You've shown the way here, I'm going to stay here
Take me up in arms

[bridge]
Swallowed up by mercy
Streams of tears as it consumes me
Here tonight
This fire burning through me
I've never felt this way
In my whole life

I am loved
I am loved
You've brought love to life

"Not Mine"

Taken by this beauty
I want to shout her name into the sky
She's honest, true and lovely
And not afraid to speak her mind
But my heart
Is tearing at the seams
Beating after broken dreams
Out of place and out of time

[chorus]
I want to throw my arms around her
Hold her tight
But she's Yours
And not mine
To tell her that she's lovely
In my eyes
But she is Yours
And not mine

She has a way about her
Exuding innocence and light
Every time that she's around me
I can't help smiling, cause she shines so bright
And all I know
Is that I want her in my life

[chorus]
I want to throw my arms around her
Hold her tight
But she's Yours
Not mine
I want to tell her that she's lovely
In my eyes
But she's much more beautiful in Yours
Than mine

[bridge]
And oh,
These duties are not mine
They belong to You alone
I want to hold her heart
But I don't even have my own

[chorus]
I want to give her all I have
My whole life
But she's Yours
And not mine
You love her more
Than I ever could, with all my might
She needs to know Your love
Not mine

"Love Was Never Easy"

It feels like everything is suppressing me
And truth be told it's depressing me
There's so much more I want to be
But there's always a wall in front of me

I know that no one's perfect
And my trust shouldn't fall on them
But when the people I love the most
Weigh me down, it get's me wondering

[chorus]
If people care to know
Or if they even know to care
Show me any recognition
That you know I'm standing there
I know it's hard to love someone
Harder still once you're aware
That the moments when your eyes are closed
Make it that much more to bear

This world is slowly crumbling
And my heart, the same inside of me
Love is such a simple remedy
We all lose our ground to apathy

[chorus]
Do people care to know
Or do they even know to care
I don't want to feel this way
But either way, the feeling's there
I know it's hard to love someone
Harder still once you're aware
That the moments when your eyes are closed
Make it that much more to bear

And it makes me feel like giving up
Can you hear me, is this loud enough?
I don't want your sentiments
When I am dead and in the ground
While I'm still breathing, could you love me now?

Love was never easy
And I'm still slowly learning
That it's all uphill from here
But it's something to press into
And I know once you begin to
You will learn to perservere

Yeah, love was never easy
But I need to now

"Why Not Love The Broken?"

It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
The people who deserve it
It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
The ones who you can choose
It's easy to love
The charming and admired
But is it really love?

It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
The kind and gentle-hearted
It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
The ones who make it easy to
It's easy to love
All the people that love you
But is that really love?

[chorus]
Why not love the broken
Why not love the lost
Or have you all forgotten
You were purchased at a cost
When you were still an outcast
And hopeless just like them
So love the broken-hearted
In the same way you have been

It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
The ones who you relate to
It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
People who act just like you do
It's easy to love
People with less baggage
But is it really love?

[chorus]
Why not love the broken
Why not love the lost
Or have you all forgotten
You were purchased at a cost
When you were still an outcast
And hopeless just like them
So love the lonely people
In the same way you have been

You're so good at loving the loveable
The popular and the likeable
Did you forget
That it's the sick
Who are desperately in need of it

[chorus]
Go and love the broken
Go and love the lost
Love is not exclusive
We all gain from a single loss
We were once in darkness
And hopeless just like them
Wayward sons and daughters
Who by His grace were taken in

If our hearts aren't breaking for them
How can we say we are for Him?

"Make Me Real"

I want to be poetic
I want something simple
To sound complex
So I can go in and dissect
And make it easy
So I can wrap my mind around it
Then box it up and call it mystery

But the truth isn't simplistic
And I can keep beating my head
Trying to see it there
I could search for it in prayer
But will you find me?
And if you do, what happens then?
Will I go through all this again?
Divide me

Make me real
Make me feel
If I exist inside your universe
Then show me how I fit there first
Make me real
Make me feel
I'm tired of all the things I've tried
And I need to know that I'm alive

It all starts with a sin
And then follows with a question
Proceeded with doubt
How does it work out
That I feel safer here
Than when I'm trying to follow you
When my vision isn't clear

I'm looking back on everything I've known
Trying to see ahead but at the same time not let go
But when I look to you I just feel so alone
Is that why this place feels like it's my home?

I want to be real
I want to be sincere
I want this to be an honest effort
And not instinctive out of fear
I want to know the truth
And let it be real
Not just a somber reawakening
That my heart can barely feel
Just make me real

What you're offering sounds good to me
But still isn't taking shape
Should I stop trying so hard to see
And let your hands mold the clay

But what will be made of me then?
I don't want to embrace the emptiness
But I can't sit here and pretend
That I believe whole-heartedly
When there's a missing part of me
That still feels insecure
I just need to be made sure

I'm tired of hypocrisy
So I'm giving up my righteousness
And letting you define me

This is not rebellion
This is the question why
So my ears are open wide
Waiting for your reply

"Jesus"

Jesus is my wealth
Essential to my health
He helps me come alive
By slowly dying to myself

Jesus is my breath
My first and final steps
The aching of my heart
In every beat that I have left

[chorus]
Jesus is my life
Because without him I would surely die
Jesus is my thirst
Because this world will always leave me dry
Jesus is my hope
Because I'm lost without him by my side
Even though I'm stumbling in circles in the night
Jesus is my light

Jesus is my friend
Something I still don't comprehend
To be looked upon in favor
When I've been to the deep end

And Jesus is my prize
When these challenges arise
I will look past every obstacle
Unto the finish line

[chorus]
Jesus is my life
Because without him I would surely die
Jesus is my thirst
Because this world will always leave me dry
Jesus is my hope
Because I'm lost without him by my side
Even though I'm stumbling in circles in the night
Jesus is my light

Your light is blinding, but it's guiding me home
And Your hope has swallowed up all of my doubts
And Your love is reaching, it's reaching out
I give you my heart

"More Than Just Bodies"

The lights are out
But there's somebody home
And from the floor to the ceiling
There's a dark and empty feeling
Of being alone

The heart and mind
Are disconnected at times
But they both will fade away

[chorus]
We are more than just bodies
We've got a soul to hold us down
We all want to soar beyond
The break of dawn
But it's still tied to this ground

The fire's out
Was it ever aflame?
Or did the pain that you're facing
Weigh you down by encasing
The embers in your veins

There's a burning inside
Look, the world is open wide
So what good is it to stay?

[chorus]
We are more than just bodies
We've got a soul to hold us down
We all want to soar beyond
The break of dawn
But it's still tied to this ground

We are trapped in fragile cases, crumbling
The time, it eats away
Our every effort toward
Something bigger than this place

[chorus]

"Feels Like Home"

I wish I could be the things you want
All of the things I've never been
And rise above this cluttered mess
Of the world I'm living in

There has to be a bigger problem
That I've glanced over again
I know in time you'll show me
But I'm dying to know when

Your love is reaching down
Ignites my heart when it hits the ground
And I come alive

These decisions leave me wasted
My bones are crying out for more
Feels like I've used all second chances
And I'm still no closer than before

Your love is reaching down
Ignites my heart when it hits the ground
And I come alive
Open my eyes

[chorus]
These hands are reaching out
For anything at all
To fill a space that I once called my own
I'd like to think I'm satisfied
But can't deny this thirst inside
A longing for a place that feels like home

Your love, Your love
It feels like home
Wraps around me like a hug
Assures me that I'm not alone
Your love, Your love
It quenches something deep in me
Makes me feel like it's enough
To set the old desires free

"Where"

The only hope I have
Feels so far away from me
My doubts have doubled size
And now they're all-consuming

I'm troubled with these thoughts
Of the past and what I see
And I'm wondering why in my darkest times
You never appeared to me

Where are you
Where did you go
I'm being tossed to and fro
I rise and fall like an ocean wall
Being led where the wind blows

You've already done more
Than I could ever think to ask
But right now I need to see a spark
To get me through this darkness

And I've told myself before
That things are on the up and up
But I'm getting to a point where
Better isn't good enough

I want more than this
I want to know where it all fits
Am I alive,
Am I asleep?
Am I getting out
Or in too deep?
Help me

I'm fighting to hold my ground
But it feels like shifting sand
All I thought I knew before
I just don't understand
I don't understand

So where do I start
Where do I go
When will I reap all the things that I have sown?
I sit in fear waiting just to hear
When I'm finally left alone

"Should I"

You've seen the flaw in the armor
And now I'm hoping you won't rip it open
This new vulnerability
Feels like a single word could leave me broken

Does a broken heart ever fully mend
Can it ever love the same way again
Should I just pick up the pieces
And get out with what I have left

I'm trying to give you all I can
But you don't seem to understand

I am dying to be heard
Should I run, should I run away
There's nobody beside me
Is there anyone behind me
At all

And I don't know if it's too much I'm asking
But I can't deny this pain I'm masking

Brothers and sisters of the light
Could you bear with my plea tonight

I feel so alone
And I hope
The feeling doesn't grow
Because I know
That I can't stand here on my own

Should I run, should I run away
When it feels like there's no reason to stay

"Hunger Pains"

I want every song to sound like this one
One that fits in to your rhythm
I want every day to end like this
With breath inside these lungs and fists
Escaping through the cracks of joy
That you built in this little boy
Long ago, from time to time
Every day he's ever been alive

There's a soul inside this jar of mud
Sometimes it feels you've given up
But even with my faulty sight
Fire still burns in the dead of night
The brightest of all hope shines out
Even in the midst of my darkest doubts
And I can't change a single line
That's been drawn in all of space and time

[chorus]
You give me just a taste of hope
Enough to make me want the rest
I can't hold all you can give
But I can do my best
You leave me with a hunger still
One that never disappears
I can try to ignore the hunger pains
But they always find me here

Keep erasing all I know
Fill the gaps within my soul
Reinvent the things I feel
Until your heartbeat's true and real
Pulsing over sounds and waves
And all the things this body craves
It's only when my heart's a mess
That I feel I truly know what love is

And I can hear you
[chorus]
You give me just a taste of hope
Enough to make me want the rest
I can't hold all you can give
But I can do my best
You leave me with a hunger still
One that never disappears
I can try to ignore the hunger pains
But they always find me here

On the brink of all I am
It's when I find that maybe I'm just a simple man
With one essential need
To be loved and to love somebody
Yeah, to love somebody

"Hold Me"

I'm trying hard
To see life through Your eyes
But when I catch a glimpse
It hurts sometimes

I've got no sense on my own
I need You here
I'm so afraid of the truth
And it's all I need to hear

I've got nowhere to run to
This is it

[chorus]
Hold me
I can't feel the world around me
I've gone numb
From all I've done
Hold me

Lose myself for the cost
Of all I'm meant to be
But I still carry this weight
Alongside me

I'm looking for a sign
To help me move
When all you want
Is my trust to be in you

[chorus]
Hold me
I can't feel the world around me
I've gone numb
From all I've done
Hold me
I can't win this race I'm running
And I'm so scared, what I'm becoming
Just hold me

[bridge]
You make me free
You make me free
You make me clean
When You hold me

Look into the mirror
What do you see?
Is it just a broken picture
Of a lovely thing?

I've seen you run all over
Trying to find peace
I know that you would find it
If' you'd just hold me

"Learn From It"

What is it that we don't understand?
What is it that we've failed to grasp?
We can't go back and change the past
But we can learn from it

Let's not and just pretend we did
Turn our cheeks away and say we did something
We can't justify why we act stupid
But we can learn from it

[chorus]
So we try to paint the past
In our own light
We try to win the war
With the same fight
We try to claw our way
Up to new heights
Let's stop and see
Just what we have done

How can we get up again
After all the failures settle in
We can't run from consequence of sin
But we can learn from it

We ridicule the lost each day
But we don't have to go our brothers' way
We ridicule them for their mistakes
When we can learn from them

[chorus]
So we try to paint the past
In our own light
We try to win the war
With the same fight
We try to claw our way
Up to new heights
When we need to stay down
For now

Stay down, for now
Stay down, just for now
The future's open wide
You'll have to set it aside
Just for now

We can make it through this race
We can make it through this race
With just a little bit of grace, I know
We can make it through this race

"You're Always Mine"

Let's just
Stop and remember
All we've
Been through together
You took my
Hand and pulled me out of the dark

Let's stop
Think of forever
A heart that
Longs for surrender
To give it all
I want to follow after Your heart

But where do I start
Where do I start?

I'm still
Calling the shots now
When You want
For me to lay it down
I'm still
So afraid of letting it go

But where will I go
Where will I go?

[chorus]
Father be here
And Father be kind
Make my heart clean
Renew my whole mind
'Cause all that You want
At this present time
Is for me to be still
And know You're always mine

Let's put
It all on the table
In Your hands
My whole world is stable
So why do I
Feel so unable to move

Please keep
Pushing me forward
I know I
Won't be rewarded
Until I
Finally meet the face of Truth

[chorus]

[instrumental]

[chorus]
Father be here
And Father be kind
Make my heart clean
Renew my whole mind
'Cause all that You want
From me in this life
Is for me to be still
And know You're always mine
For me to be still

"Time To Move"

I'm not buying it anymore
You can't hold me down
(Can't hold me down)
I'm not lying on the floor
You can't hold me down
(Can't hold me down)

Now I can see
All the lies from between your teeth
The subtle manipulating
And I'm not buying it

I'm not dying anymore
You can't hold me down
(Can't hold me down)
I'm not prying for the shore
You can't make me drown
(Can't hold me down)

Now I can see
All the lies from between your teeth
The subtle manipulating
And I'm not buying it

[chorus]
You can let it flow
From your lips, but it drips
With pure lonliness
You can let it flow
Out, from your mouth
A fountain of bitterness
Or you can let it go
Start to heal, do you feel
The weight now as it lifts
Off you
It's time to move on
It's time to move

I always thought of myself as a thinker
But before I took your bait, hook, line and sinker
And now I'm moving away from the pain
Of the scar that still remains
It isn't easy
But letting go is all it takes

[chorus]
So you can let it flow
From your lips, but it drips
With pure lonliness
You can let it flow
Out, from your mouth
A fountain of bitterness
Or you can let it go
Start to heal, then you'll feel
The weight now as it lifts
Off you
When you choose to move on
When you choose to move

"Permanent Divide"

Oh, it feels like endless night
There's a burning deep inside
It's consuming all of me
Oh, my tongue it feels so dry
Can you hear my constant cries
For my soul to be set free

Help me reach across
I'd die for just one drop
Of Your living water

[chorus]
I'm drowning in the emptiness
I've never known such lonliness
And I'll never see a glint of hope again
Where am I within this sea
Of chaos and desparity
I'm crying out as all is caving in

Oh, I met Love face to face
Before I found this place
Now it feels like just a dream
My nightmares have all grown eyes
And they're eating me alive
There's nothing here to comfort me

[chorus]
I'm drowning in the emptiness
I've never known such lonliness
And I'll never see a glint of hope again
Where am I within this sea
Of chaos and desparity
I'm crying out as all is caving in

[bridge]
And when I stop to think
About Your hands and feet
I wonder why it felt like
They were never reaching out to me
Was it all because of pride
Or were they too preoccupied
With more important things
Than to save a life like me?

I remember the land that I lived in
It felt like hell, but it was closer to heaven
Than I'll ever know

[chorus]

"You've Got It All"

Where are You taking me this time
I should be scared out of my mind
But something deep within me
Is telling me that it'll be all right

What is it You've got up Your sleeve
It's still so hard to just believe
That You can see it all right now
Even when it's all behind the scenes

[chorus]
You, You've got it all
All figured out
You, You've got it all
All plotted out
You, You've got it all
And You're shouting out
For us to follow

What is the meaning of this life
What do I do with this ounce of time
That You've entrusted to me
To help You make things right

To make the world what it should've been
Instead of the mess that we're living in
I've got to hold on tight
Or I might start sinking

[chorus]
You, You've got it all
All figured out
And You, You've got it all
All plotted out
You, You've got it all
And You're shouting out
For us to follow

[bridge]
There's so much more
To be percieved
And I don't want to doubt You
I just want to believe
But I've got faulty eyes
They can not see, ooh
The things You're trying to move
Around me

I've got to trust that
[chorus]
You, You've got it all
All figured out
Yeah, You, You've got it all
All plotted out
And You, You've got it all
And You're shouting out
For us to follow
{repeat}

"Now And Not Forever"

This feeling grips me
And I know it isn't guilt
The sting of conviction
My self-made affliction
That's making my heart wilt

I keep on running
Don't know where I'll finally fall
But right now I just wish
That the consequence
Was something I could pre-recall

[chorus]
And I know
That there is something better
But all I see
Is now, and not forever
Would You help me
Give me eyes to see
So I can start to live
Like I believe

I want to change here
But it comes back to the heart
Where my comfort lies
What directs my life
That's where the problem starts

But I get so forgetful
Of the things You've done for me
And this foolish pride
Takes the driver's side
Saying there's still more that I need

[chorus]
And I know
That there is something better
But all I see
Is now, and not forever
Will I outgrow
All these selfish endeavors
Or will I bleed
From what the truth will sever
Would You help me
Give me eyes to see
So I can start to live
Like I believe

[bridge]
I want to live like I believe
What's holding me back?
Holding me back
I want to open my eyes to see
With no turning back
No turning back

Let faith be my sight
I don't need to know
What the future holds
Let Your love be my light
All I need to know
Is You're in control

[chorus]
And I know
That there is something better
But all I see
Is now, and not forever
Would You help me
Give me eyes to see
Give me faith as small
As a mustard seed
So I can start to live
Like I believe

Right now
And into forever

"I Don't Want Your Kind Of Love"

Ooh, you can be so inviting
On the surface you're flawless, but something is hiding
Ooh, though your looks are contagious
I can see past your cover and see the torn pages

You've been hurt before
I can see it clear
You were made beautiful
How did you end up here?

[chorus]
I don't need you
Or whatever it is you're thinking of
I don't want you
I don't want your kind of love
Because it's just a cheap mockery
Of the real thing
But His won't let you down
I wish you could see
All you were meant to be
You were never made to drown

Ooh, you can be so enticing
But I see in your eyes all the things you're devising
Ooh, you can grasp for attention
Believing it yours, but it's the devils' invention

You were made beautiful
How did you end up here?

[chorus]
I don't need you
Or whatever it is you're thinking of
I don't want you
I don't want your kind of love
Because it's just a cheap mockery
Of the real thing
But His won't let you down
I wish you could see
All you were meant to be
You were never made to drown

Ooh, you can cast your spell
You can imitate love but you can't do it well (x4)

[chorus]

"Heart Issues"

You couldn't love me more
And You couldn't love me less
You love me now and You loved me then
Regardless

It's not the things I've done
But the things I've yet to change
That keep me running back into
This place

[chorus]
It keeps coming back
To these heart issues
The things I've yet to let go of once and for all
My heart gets steered off track
When I misuse
The grace You've given me and just return to it all

It's immaturity
I don't want to leave behind
All the things that consoled me back when I was
Blind

But You are now my strength
And I feel the weight inside
When I build on Your foundation with a
Lie

[chorus]
It keeps coming back
To these heart issues
The things I've yet to let go of once and for all
My heart gets steered off track
When I misuse
The grace You've given me to just return to it all

[bridge]
Let the things that hold me down, now be lifted
Come find my heart wherever it has drifted
I know You've sought me out, through sands You've sifted
The desert is the dead inside of me

[chorus]
So I will give you all
These heart issues
Until the race is finished once and for all
I know I'm bound to fall
But I won't misuse
The grace You've given me until we've finished it all

"Supplication"

Please
Would You show me what it means
Why I ache for all these dreams
That seem to be just out of reach

Please
Would You only let me see
If all these things I want to be
Are fiction or a reality

[chorus]
I'm begging and praying
But my feet are staying still
I can't see forever
And it feels like I never will
I'm wanting and needing
But still just not seeing how
The plan that You're making
Is a chance that's worth taking now

Please
I'm on my hands and knees
Trying to embrace humility
But still I cling on desperately

Please
I only want a life of ease
That's the heart behind these pleas
To sink right back into apathy

[chorus]
I'm begging and praying
But my feet are staying still
I can't see forever
And it feels like I never will
I'm asking and seeking
But Your voice is speaking clear
I'm lost in the words
That You're making heard here

Will I ever be there
Will I ever be there
Or do these dreams
Simply end with my prayers
Whatever the case
I will chase
The desires inside
Until I reach the end of me

"Heaven's Light"

Do you see the dark clouds
Hanging over our house
Blocking the sun from
Letting the light down

Do you feel the fear rise
Coming on with the dark skies
Don't let it derail you
And lead you into compromise

Greater power is in us
Greater power is in us
To tear this down

[chorus]
Let us fight the good fight
Till the end of the night
We won't lose the battle
If we don't lose sight
Let us cling to Hope
Our heart's delight
Like we already live
Under heaven's light

Do you feel it rising
The night's darklit horizon
Waves are building up
To throw this ship into capsizing

But greater power is in us
Greater power is in us
To tear it down

[chorus]
Let us fight the good fight
Till the end of the night
We won't lose the battle
If we don't lose sight
Let us cling to Hope
Our heart's delight
Like we already live
Under heaven's light
'Cause we already live
Under heaven's light

[bridge]
And it won't go away
Until we lie down
But don't be afraid
Please don't give up now
Because a greater power is in us
Greater Power lives in us

To finish this race

Let us fight the good fight
Let us fight the good fight
Let us fight the good fight
We're living in the light

"Song Of This World"

We are told
That we are alone here
That we're always running with nowhere to go here
We're told
That we have no place here
Just a face in a crowd that is bound to disappear

I won't believe it
No, I won't believe it

[chorus]
Open our eyes to see
The truth of who we're meant to be
Lies fed straight to me
From the hands of animosity
The voice of the suppressing
Calling out in perfect harmony
With the song of this world
That is buried deep in me

We are told
That we shouldn't serve You
We bowed down to idols convinced that they were You
We're told
That we know the right way
That we are the drivers, so we take our own reins

From my hands
Take them from my hands

[chorus]
Open our eyes to see
The truth of who we're meant to be
Lies fed straight to me
From the hands of animosity
The voice of the suppressing
Calling out in perfect harmony
With the song of this world
Deafen my ears to what it sings

[bridge]
We know
Just how the story goes
We know
Who gets the final blow
We know
We don't have to listen anymore
We know
We're not alone to fight this war

Your voice is all I want to hear

"Be Remembered"

I didn't ever know you
I'd never even heard your name
I don't know your family
But somehow I can feel their pain

I don't know your friends
But I can see the sorrow in their eyes
Trying to form the words to say
To fill the hole you left behind

And it hurts my heart to think about it
It hurts my heart to think about it
It hurts my heart to think about it now

I don't know the man who did it
But I've seen his picture on the news
I know forgetting won't be easy
And forgiving is the hardest part to do

And it hurts my heart to think about it
It hurts my heart to think about it
It hurts my heart to think about it now

Broken-hearted people, just the look in their eyes
Crying tears of disbelief that cannot be disguised
The inspiration you proclaimed with your life
Is written in the faces of the ones you left behind
You will be remembered
Be remembered, dearly

No words can quite express
The deep impression left inside
When you see a life that's stripped away
How do you look at your own life?
We still have life
We still have life

"I'm Hoping"

What do I do with this feeling kept inside
What do I do to bring it to the light

How do I know if this is right
How will I know when the time comes to decide

[chorus]
I'm hoping that it goes away
I'm hoping I won't have to deal with it
I'm hoping, I'm hoping
That time will tell the end of it
I'm hoping that I find the truth
That I don't lose a part of my heart
Along with you
I'm hoping
I'm hoping

I'm tethered to you and I don't know why
Is it something genuine or just another heartfelt lie

Cause even with best intentions still in tact
I just can't seem to argue with the plain and honest facts

[chorus]
I'm hoping that it goes away
I'm hoping I won't have to deal with it
I'm hoping, I'm hoping
That time will tell the end of it
I'm hoping I find clarity
That I don't lose a part of my heart
Along with me
I'm hoping
I'm hoping

[bridge]
I want to die to myself in this desire
Lift it up to You, so consuming fire
Can test my heart for what it's really worth
See what You want for me, so I can chase it first

So I can chase You first

I'm hoping for Hope itself to come
And let my heart become undone
I want to chase You as far as these feet can run
To run to whom I really love

"Beneath Your Light"

I feel so out of touch
With the world around me
I feel like there's so much
Emptiness surrounding

And I know You're trying to show me
Trying to speak between the sound
But now I face the task of knowing
How to single Your voice out

[chorus]
I am so lost
So lost without my Guide
Going on
Without You by my side
I want to be out there
And feel like I'm alive
But it's only when I'm here
That I feel like You are near
Beneath Your light

God, please take this
Heart of shallow dreams
Reaching for my goal, it's
Never as it seems

You've got a future planned for me
All that I lack is the faith to see

[chorus]
I am so lost
So lost without my Guide
Going on
Without You by my side
I want to be out there
And feel like I'm alive
But it's only when I'm here
That I can see the picture clear
Beneath Your light

[bridge]
So shine
It into, it into my life
So shine
It into, it into my eyes
Remove
The darkness that's clouded my sights
Make me new
Set my heart right

"Signals"

I see the moon shine
Up in the void of dark
Smoky white shadows
Where it leaves its mark

I see the stars bright
In their endless archipelegos
In this still night
With far-off fire that always glows

[chorus]
And You're leaving
Signals everywhere
Shining brightly
All the while unaware
Of the beauty
Looking down from there
Why can't I once
Simply stop and stare

At my windowpane
The light is pouring through
Just like a waterfall
Crashing into my room

When the rain is fresh
On the streets at night
Reflections dance across
Black rivers bathed in light

You are beautiful
So beautiful

[chorus]
And You're leaving
Signals everywhere
Shining brightly
All the while unaware
Of the beauty
Looking down from there
Why can't I once
Simply stop and stare

[bridge]
At Your majesty displayed
In all the things that You've created
I'm so lost in Your mysteries
You have me captivated

And You're leaving
Signals everywhere
While we're searching
Through a pit of despair
While You're reaching out
To breathe into us there
So unaware
So unaware
We're so unaware

"Fighting Gravity"

There's a part of me
That reaches for integrity
So fleeting, it seems
Before I'm weighed down by humanity

There's a light I see
It feels so far away at times
But it's all that keeps me
From jumping clear out of line

[chorus]
We're heading downhill
Going faster, moving headlong all the time
In the direction
Of disaster, ever steeper the incline
We've let our wings down
On the cold ground, letting gravity decide
We have to fight
We have to fight

There's a Love I know
Or at least that's what I claim
But fail to wear it on my chest
Oh my God, I'm so ashamed

There's a kingdom near
Breathing in the here and now
That we all say we belong to
But our sin's still singing out
It's singing out!

[chorus]
We're heading downhill
Going faster, moving headlong all the time
In the direction
Of disaster, ever steeper the incline
We've let our wings down
On the cold ground, letting gravity decide
We have to fight
We have to fight
We have to fight

[bridge]
I'm not saying we can't be
Pulled out of this in time
I'm not doubting any power
In the hand of the Divine
But if our hearts aren't listening
Will we go when the time arrives?

[chorus]
We're heading downhill
Going faster, moving headlong all the time
In the direction
Of disaster, ever steeper the incline
We've let our wings down
On the cold ground, letting gravity decide
We have to fight
We have to fight

[outro]
We've given way to insecurity
But we'll burst through with golden purity
Don't let it hold you down
No, don't let it hold you down
We've given into our depravity
Making compromise with gravity
Don't let it hold you down
Grace lifts your feet right off the ground