"Victimized"

Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
What do I do to hurt you
What do I do to bring you down, down
I'm trying the best I can
But still don't understand

If guilt is your game, I'm not buying in
Because even in love there's no way to win
You're pressing, you're pushing, you're pulling me in
With unsaid expectations

Stop looking for satisfaction
Where you know it can't be found
I'll do my best to be there
But I'm bound to let you down

Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
What do I do to hurt you
What do I do to bring you down
I'm trying the best I can
But still don't understand

If you're looking for peace, not supplying it
In fact I have a tendency of denying it
So we could war right through this or simply quit
I'm not a saint and I'm sure not perfect

[bridge]
What are you looking for in me?
What are you looking for at all?
We've got these problems, let's face them down
And beat them while they're small

Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
Victimized, victimized
Why you always gotta have that look in your eyes
What do I do to hurt you
What do I do to bring you down
I'm trying the best I can
But still don't understand

"Relapse"

Am I deluded now
My life is upside-down
Walking into the depths
Like I was flying to the heavens

My heart is torn to pieces
Feels like I'm breathing in diseases
With every step I take
But I can't seem to turn around

I'd invite you to step into the brokenness
If there was an opening at all
Don't know if I would let you even if there was a door

[chorus]
When you said
You only wanted all of me
I didn't realize the cost
And now I ask
Is there nothing I can do
Any other way to get across

My empty sense of peace
Is catching up with me
I never wanted to question you
Just the things that I believe

[chorus]

[bridge]
My heart is breaking
I'm breaking
I want to understand
But I keep saying
If you can gather me up
And make me whole again
Destroy these insecurities
Only then I'd let you in

TBW: "Coffee Is A Drug"

Alright, last song for throwback week. A little late on this one cause I didn't realize it wasn't Sunday anymore, but I know that none of you mind. So without any delay, here you go!
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Coffee is a drug, my friends
You're all to meet your bitter end
You can sugarcoat it all you want
But you can't hide your habits in a restaurant

Once you're hooked, it just ain't pretty
'Cause there's no half-and-half, there's no fifty-fifty
You're diving in head-first, it's more like a cannonball
When the morning's over you're just gonna hit another wall

[chorus]
You're stuck in a rut
That's as deep as a cup
Is it ever gonna be enough?
I'm begging you right now
Put the creamer and sugar down
Your shaking hands clutched to your mug
It tells me
Coffee is a drug

Skip the needles, skip the pills
All you need is a cup to get your little fill
Your addiction is sickening, it's making me ill
You're spiralling downward in your caffenated thrill

You say "I'll take a latte, make it a grande
I need my coffee, so deliciously frothy
Don't even think about it, not gonna stop me
I've got the coffee, it's not the coffee that's got me!"

[chorus]
You're stuck in a rut
That's as deep as a cup
Is it ever gonna be enough?
I'm begging you right now
Put the creamer and sugar down
Your shaking hands clutched to your mug
It tells me
Coffee is a drug

[bridge]
Is there a cure for tiredness?
A remedy that's wireless?
'Cause wired's the only way you like to be
The only way you function properly

[chorus]
You're stuck in a rut (You've gotta give it up)
That's as deep as a cup (You've gotta give it up)
No, it'll never be enough
I'm begging you right now
Look for a pick-me-up that doesn't get you down
You've got to give it up
Because
Coffee is a drug

TBW: "Here"

I've come a long way in such a short time
Feels like my world just shifted axis tonight
You've taken hold of all the things I hold tight
Change comes like a hurricane sometimes

Ooo-ooh, untie these ropes
They've strangled out my every hope

I'm sorry brother have I failed you again?
I'm sorry sister, don't know where to begin
Father forgive me for this mess that I'm in
My life's a trainwreck but Your goodness will win

Ooo-ooh, these highs and lows
I'm still so scared of letting go

[chorus]
Everything that led me here
The walls that fell and disappeared
I wouldn't take a different route
The future still remains unclear
But I am giving up on fear
And wait to meet You here and now
Right here and now

TBW: "Tunnel Vision"

A narrow mind, a narrow view
You only see what's in front of you
Blinded by all the things you know
But what do you know?

You only focus on the things
That you're positive that you can see
But you don't see much when
You're looking through a hole, ooh

[chorus]
You still can't see
All the beauty there can be
Once you open your eyes
I can't explain
This motion set in place
That made me realize

A world of black surrounding you
Unaware of this thing that's containing you
Is this really the place you call your home
Or is there more you want to know?

There's a light in the distance you can see
That you've always said you couldn't reach
But every step that takes you there
Brings you closer to understanding

[chorus]
And you still can't see
All the beauty there can be
Once you open your eyes
I can't explain
This motion set in place
That made me realize

[bridge]
You were meant to know
There's still time to be set free
Hope is at your side
You can't feel it yet but soon you'll see

You'll see
You'll see
And all will see

[chorus]
But you still can't see
All the beauty there can be
Till you stop drawing lines
Like the wind in the trees
Or the air sculpting the seas
Some things you can't define

And you still can't see
All the beauty there can be
Until you open your eyes
In tunnel vision
You can't see what you're missing
The brighter part of life

TBW: "Jump"

If you really believe in me, believe me now
If you really depend on me, let your defenses down
If you really have faith in me, then why are you still running around?
Take rest in me, take rest in me

If you really are changed in me, be formed anew
If my love is really strong then let it rule over you
When you feel like you don't belong, forget what you once knew
You belong to me, you belong to me

[chorus]
My child, there are still wars to be won
But right now all I need is your obedience
You know just who I Am, but now you need to trust
'Cause every leap of faith
Requires that you jump

If you really confide in me, give me your heart
I want the whole thing, not just any given part
The sooner you let go, the sooner the healing starts
Give it all to me, give it all to me

[chorus]
My child, there are still wars to be won
But right now all I need is your obedience
You know just who I Am, but now you need to trust
'Cause every leap of faith
Requires that you jump

Jump
Come on and jump

If you're really on fire for me, be set aflame
Be ignited by the power of my name
If you feel like you're burning out, remember why I came
To die for you, to pay the price for you

Ooo-oooh
Ooo-oooh

TBW: "Drifting"

I hold on
Far too long
To these words that you say
You were right
By my side
But now you're drifting away

[chorus]
So was this really all
Just a means to an end
When in the creases of your face
I see the places that you been
I know I'll never see you
In the same way again
But why can't you see the same you
That I saw then

Watching you
Slowly move
Far from where you began
I can't speak
You're out of reach
Don't want to see my outstretched hand

[chorus]
So how do I move on
And how can I pretend
When in the creases of your face
I see the places that you've been
I know I'll never see you
In the same way again
Why can't you see the same you
That I saw
Why can't you see the same you
That I saw then

[breakdown/bridge]
Forgive and forget
I'm not sure if I'm ready yet
When I'm lost in regret
And stuck with all these things
Stuck with all these things I never said

There are no
Things to show
To say I've truly moved on
I could run
From all I've done
But this heartbreak will never be gone

TBW: "Lighthouse"

I'm looking 'round and
This joy's resounding
Your light shining
And You're finding me
Just like the beacon
That I've been seeking
To come and save me
From this crashing sea

Your luminescence
Off at a distance
I need You closer
Cause I want to feel
Your warming presence
In my existence
Since You're the only thing
I know is real

I'm clinging on to You
So I won't drift away
But these overbearing tides
Are begging me to stay

My heart is broken
These words You've spoken
Leave me defenseless
I'm surrendering
And now I realize
These tears in my eyes
Are just a mark
Of Your own suffering

Cause You are the light
That guides me home
When all is dead as night
I know I'm not alone

I hear You call out
And see the fallout
Of all the things
That blinded me before
Your love is healing
And now revealing
Every obstacle that
Kept me from the shore

[chorus]
And You guide me to the shore
So I can feel Your love restore
When all I've known is darkness in this storm
Above the waves and ocean's roar
I hear You calling, calling

I'm looking 'round and
This joy's resounding
Your light is shining
And You're finding me

TBW: "Give Me A Reason"

My world is a broken place
Like shards of a shattered window
Disillusioned from my mistakes
But now I'm thinking for my own

My compass has been defective
My maps are torn in two
Lost at sea with no direction
I need a hand to hold on to

But I'm breathing, isn't that enough?
Yeah I'm breathing, but it's not enough

[chorus]
So give me a reason
For why I'm breathing
Give me a purpose
So I know I'm not worthless
Give me the answers
To free me from this curse
Cause I don't want to feel this way forever

It's easier to pretend you're happy
When you've got an aching heart
On the surface you're always laughing but
Underneath the water's dark

So where are you gonna go when
You realize that you're not dreaming
This is your life, start living like you're alive

[chorus]
Give me a reason
For why I'm breathing
Give me a purpose
So I know I'm not worthless
Give me the answers
To free me from this curse
Cause I don't want to feel this way forever

[bridge]
You've been alone
So where you gonna call your home
Been astray for far too long
There's a peace of mind
You gain when you truly find
Where you belong

[chorus] x2

Throwback Week

For the next week I'm going to post old songs of mine on here that have already been written for quite a while. All of them already have music to them and whatnot. Hope you guys enjoy!

"Beautiful Wasteland"

Looking 'round it's hard to think
That every single thing we see
Was born out of a tragedy
The fault of all humanity

Rolling hills and golden plains
The sunny skies and pouring rain
Inherited along with pain
But we've never known another way

[chorus]
This is our reality
Plan B of what was never meant to be
We live in a beautiful wasteland
Far from what was ever planned
Waiting for the day that we're free

Engulfed by the roar of the waves
We get lost in a sunset
All the beauty that we can't explain
We haven't seen a thing yet

And sometimes it's easy to forget

[chorus]
That this is our reality
Plan B of what was never meant to be
We live in a beautiful wasteland
Far from what was ever planned
Waiting for the day that we will finally see

The world as it was meant to be
With our eyes open wide
Captivated by a glimpse
Of the other side
This is a fallback
This is a snapshot
This is grace unleashed
On a fallen world

[chorus]
This is our reality
Plan B of what was never meant to be
We live in a beautiful wasteland
Far from what was ever planned
Waiting for the day that we're set free

"Glass Love"

There's fragments of the love you've recieved
All over the pavement
This time was real, or so you believed
And now you're wondering what it all meant

You've given everything you have
To try to grab ahold of it
To pick it up, but you can't get it back
From the start it wasn't made to fit

We take the fake
We take the bittersweet
But we won't ever take the remedy

[chorus]
This is a glass love
Watch it shatter
Leaves you broken
Questioning what's the matter
What happened
Why does it feel like
You're empty all over again
With shards left in your heart
From where you left it open

You let them in, you get let down
It feels like love is fiction
When the one you think you've finally found
Feels more like a division

But there's a love that doesn't fall
Won't leave your heart in fragments
And the greatest part about it all
It's free for you to have it

Don't be afraid to let it in
When all you've ever known is

[chorus]
A glass love
Watch it shatter
Leaves you broken
Questioning what's the matter
What happened
Why does it feel like
You're empty all over again
With shards left in your heart
From where you left it open

[bridge]
But let it fall apart
Let it fall down like the rain
This lie we build won't last
And all that will remain
Is a love as white as snow
That covers all our stains
Don't be afraid to let it in
And give your heart away

"Celebrities"

Celebrities
Are people I know that have never heard of me
I know who they're with and what they're doing
All because I saw them in a movie

Celebrities
Are people we hold to a high degree
Because they're beautiful and good at acting
We see them crying, we see them laughing

So I'll put them on a pedestal
Anticipating when they'll fall
Again and again
And again

[chorus]
Human
Human beings
Voyeuristic politics
Of the television screen
With souls
And hearts still beating
Not until we see the blood
Do we think that they're bleeding too

Celebrities
Are people I've seen that have never seen me
Yet I see their whole lives on a tv screen
Change the channel when I'm through with watching

Lives on display
So that I might be entertained
For only a moment
Until that moment fades away

[chorus]
Human
Human beings
Voyeuristic politics
Of the television screen
With souls
And hearts still beating
Not until we see the blood
Do we believe that they're bleeding too
Then is it too late to undo?

Our lives
Are not commodities
Not a show that you watch
Not a dumb romantic comedy
This is it, this is life
You're really here, you are alive
And there's nothing more beautiful
Than every second that you're breathing

Human
Human beings
We are human
We are human beings

"Love To Life"

When I close my eyes
Beneath my eyelids I see starry skies
The image burns in my mind
And I know inside the dead in me must die

I've been so lost
Built and burnt these bridges in attempts to get across
But my works are dead
And these action leave me empty, so I will follow You instead

[chorus]
I've found a home here
I'm not alone here
You've shown the way here, I'm going to stay here
Beneath Your loving arms

The wars begin
Finding that the battle starts at the place I let You in
But now I see
The struggle for my consciousness was there behind the scenes

[chorus]
But I'm not alone here
'Cause I've found a home here
You've shown the way here, I'm going to stay here
Take me up in arms

[bridge]
Swallowed up by mercy
Streams of tears as it consumes me
Here tonight
This fire burning through me
I've never felt this way
In my whole life

I am loved
I am loved
You've brought love to life

"Not Mine"

Taken by this beauty
I want to shout her name into the sky
She's honest, true and lovely
And not afraid to speak her mind
But my heart
Is tearing at the seams
Beating after broken dreams
Out of place and out of time

[chorus]
I want to throw my arms around her
Hold her tight
But she's Yours
And not mine
To tell her that she's lovely
In my eyes
But she is Yours
And not mine

She has a way about her
Exuding innocence and light
Every time that she's around me
I can't help smiling, cause she shines so bright
And all I know
Is that I want her in my life

[chorus]
I want to throw my arms around her
Hold her tight
But she's Yours
Not mine
I want to tell her that she's lovely
In my eyes
But she's much more beautiful in Yours
Than mine

[bridge]
And oh,
These duties are not mine
They belong to You alone
I want to hold her heart
But I don't even have my own

[chorus]
I want to give her all I have
My whole life
But she's Yours
And not mine
You love her more
Than I ever could, with all my might
She needs to know Your love
Not mine

"Love Was Never Easy"

It feels like everything is suppressing me
And truth be told it's depressing me
There's so much more I want to be
But there's always a wall in front of me

I know that no one's perfect
And my trust shouldn't fall on them
But when the people I love the most
Weigh me down, it get's me wondering

[chorus]
If people care to know
Or if they even know to care
Show me any recognition
That you know I'm standing there
I know it's hard to love someone
Harder still once you're aware
That the moments when your eyes are closed
Make it that much more to bear

This world is slowly crumbling
And my heart, the same inside of me
Love is such a simple remedy
We all lose our ground to apathy

[chorus]
Do people care to know
Or do they even know to care
I don't want to feel this way
But either way, the feeling's there
I know it's hard to love someone
Harder still once you're aware
That the moments when your eyes are closed
Make it that much more to bear

And it makes me feel like giving up
Can you hear me, is this loud enough?
I don't want your sentiments
When I am dead and in the ground
While I'm still breathing, could you love me now?

Love was never easy
And I'm still slowly learning
That it's all uphill from here
But it's something to press into
And I know once you begin to
You will learn to perservere

Yeah, love was never easy
But I need to now

"Why Not Love The Broken?"

It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
The people who deserve it
It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
The ones who you can choose
It's easy to love
The charming and admired
But is it really love?

It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
The kind and gentle-hearted
It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
The ones who make it easy to
It's easy to love
All the people that love you
But is that really love?

[chorus]
Why not love the broken
Why not love the lost
Or have you all forgotten
You were purchased at a cost
When you were still an outcast
And hopeless just like them
So love the broken-hearted
In the same way you have been

It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
The ones who you relate to
It's easy to love, yeah it's easy to love
People who act just like you do
It's easy to love
People with less baggage
But is it really love?

[chorus]
Why not love the broken
Why not love the lost
Or have you all forgotten
You were purchased at a cost
When you were still an outcast
And hopeless just like them
So love the lonely people
In the same way you have been

You're so good at loving the loveable
The popular and the likeable
Did you forget
That it's the sick
Who are desperately in need of it

[chorus]
Go and love the broken
Go and love the lost
Love is not exclusive
We all gain from a single loss
We were once in darkness
And hopeless just like them
Wayward sons and daughters
Who by His grace were taken in

If our hearts aren't breaking for them
How can we say we are for Him?