"Unaware"

Playing bloody knuckles with myself
See how long before I cry for help
Push the dirt into the corner
We can worry about it later
Along with everything else

Don't ask me for a reason
I'm just tired, tired of breathing
With a heavy burden on my chest
Embrace the pain or ignore the rest
My own inner-demons

I can't keep making excuses
To get through this, they're all useless
Yeah it only weighs me down
Than to push right through
The stress and friction
Act above it till it's non-fiction
Pretending I don't care
To make myself more unaware

What to do when I don't feel at all
When motivation hits a wall
And I'm left there standing
Looking like I don't understand it
Wait till it dissolves

Then carry on the thought
Of who I am with what I'm not
As I start
To play the arbitrary part
Cause I feel it's all I've got

I can't keep making excuses
To get through this, they're all useless
Yeah it only weighs me down
Than to push right through
The stress and friction
Act above it till it's non-fiction
Pretending I don't care
To make myself more unaware

It's apathy at it's finest
But can it clear my head
Filter out what I don't need
Until I'm something else instead
Will it get it done
Will it get it done
I'm so concerned with nothing
That I'm turning into no one

I can't keep making excuses
To get through this, they're all useless
Yeah it only weighs me down
Than to push right through
The stress and friction
The right and wrong, my heart's division
Pretending I don't care
To make myself more unaware