"String Theory"

Do you ever wonder
If you're on the right path
Or think of what could change
If you could go back
With every string to everything
That your heart is now attached
If you could cut and run
With only what would stay intact

I'm still holding on
I'm still holding on
I'm still holding on
To that string of hope
That I could rewrite what I've done

Do you ever regret
The things you've done
That things might never be the same
With someone
I wish there was an easy way
To make it all make sense
But it's the moment that I question
That I'm stuck in present tense

I'm still holding on
I'm still holding on
I'm still holding on
To that string of hope
Cut and run

Let it be
Set it free
Let it be
She'll return
If it was meant to be

"Are We Only Shadows"

Awake, alive
Have we ever been before
All this time
I've waited for the day to come
To wake my eyes
Like the waves rush up against the shore
And break the line
Blinding like the morning sun

All this darkness
Was it ever meant to be
All this greatness
Repelled by all the dark in me
Do we see clearly
With these secondhand irises
Or are we only shadows

I watch the ghosts cast by the trees
In repeating lines in front of me
The part that follows after
After the light has hit the rafters

Are we casted just the same
Like the cold outside eternal flame
Just a figment of the source
The unequal, opposing force

All this darkness
Was it ever meant to be
All this greatness
Repelled by all the dark in me
Do we see clearly
With these secondhand irises
Or are we only shadows

Are we only shadows
Are we only shadows

"The Law and the Lawyer"

A license, a degree
To hold integrity
But oh, it's so weighed down
By the humanity

It's twisted, it's diffused
Oh what a great misuse
Who are we told hold the crown
Who are we to know truth

The divine
We define
Contained in a sleek case
And kept confined
We redesign
By drawing lines
Are we students
Or just a bastard child

We see it, we perceive it
Blindly taking all the credit
Prodigal daughters and sons
Squandering justice

We know not what we do
Where the grace is found in truth
Our ignorance made innocence
A greater law shines through

The divine
We define
Contained in a sleek case
And kept confined
We redesign
By drawing lines
Are we the culprits
Who now are reconciled

In my hands
So much more than I can understand
The more I see
The more I realize there's so much more than me
What have I done
What have I done
With all that I've been given
Am I only born to run?

"Everything Matters"

I think about the life I live
Does what I take measure up to what I give
It goes out, goes out
Everything goes out, goes out

I think about the words I've said
Do they still resound in others' heads?
Cause it goes out, goes out
Everything goes out
Comes back to me again

And I feel, the weight of what I've done
And I see, what's made what I've become
And I wonder, if these moments are a sum
If everything matters, matters
Everything matters, matters

I heard that how I live right now
Adds up to eternity somehow
That it goes out, goes out
That everything goes out

So if every choice I've ever made
Every triumph and mistake
Contributes to the world and how it's shaped
Everything, everything

I feel, the weight of what I've done
And I see, what's made what I've become
And I wonder, if these moments are a sum
If everything matters, matters
Everything matters, matters

I heard about the grace you give
That gives the dead another shot to live
And it goes out, goes out
It finds me here again

"This Is The Last"

Wouldn't be surprised if you hated me
Cause I hate myself
For how much is wrong it's funny how
I keep saying it means nothing now

And I'll try to numb the pain
I'll try to feel the same
Force myself to feel different
Just to go on living

This is the last song that I'll write for you
This is the last time, that you'll be on my mind
This is the last chance, for me to get out
With my heart, only half alive

Never thought I'd feel this way
But I guess I do
A blind and hapless anger
Turns people who were never friends to strangers

And I'll try to look your way
To say I tried to face
The fact I don't feel different
That this doesn't feel like living

This is the last song that I'll write for you
This is the last time, that you'll be on my mind
This is the last chance, for me to get out
With my heart, only half alive

And oh, it goes back again
Every single time
Not a thing changes
No I can't even change my mind
So I follow along that dotted line
That the past has predesigned
And I tell myself again
That same familiar lie

That this is the last song that I'll write for you
That this is the last time that you'll be on my mind
And I'll try to look your way
But I still can't seem to face
The fact I don't feel different
That this doesn't feel like living

The fact that I'm no different
And we all need to be forgiven

"I'd Rather Be A Ghost"

The world is slipping away
Just like the sun at the end of day
I don't want to be here anymore
I don't want to be here anyway

I wander aimlessly
Just one more place I'm not supposed to be
So I'll make home in the unknown
And try to live there peacefully

Cause nothing happens, nothing changes
I see no fruits of means and ends
It all yields the same results
Again and again

So if I'm invisible either way
It's invisible that I'm gonna stay
I'm better off an island
Than an archipelago
I'd rather be a ghost
I'd rather be a ghost

I'm a specter, I'm a figment
Only fading in and out
Thoughts careening, heavy dreaming
On the weight of love and doubt

In the world of the concrete
The solid ground I'll never meet
The warmth of a heart beating
The thought alone is defeating

So if I'm invisible either way
It's invisible that I'm gonna stay
I'm better off an island
Than an archipelago
I'd rather be a ghost
I'd rather be a ghost

Not the same privalege
As you
The hands that try to reach me
Only pass through
And I've hoped and prayed
And gone and stayed
And not even love
Could make any of it true

Doors won't open
Or close
And this place I'm at
Is the only one I know
I'd rather be a ghost
I'd rather be a ghost
I'd rather be a ghost
Watch me fade away

"Little Drops"

If this is where it ends
In a mess of things unsaid
I regret the time I spent
Building haven in my head

When a storm inside the walls
Always swells before it calms
Waves of grief and hope
Often overturn my cause

And if there was nothing there
Why does it hurt like something real
Little drops escape and make
A sea of the surreal
And I know that it's my fault
Cause I let loose every drop
And watched my heart go free
I watched, I watched

The pain, overtake
Till it's all a bitter game
How do you justify it
Watching love erupt to hate

I fashioned my mistakes
But you could have set me straight
Now a front row seat
To the monster you've helped make

Cause if there was nothing here
Be no reason for the tears
Little drops I let escape
From when I thought I saw it clear
And I know that it's my fault
Cause I let loose every drop
And watched my heart go free
Into, into the sea
From the drops that fell on me

This bitter taste that I've acquired
Just like the memories inspired
Are drowning, drowning
Anything left
It helps me to forget

Cause if there was nothing there
Why does it hurt like something real
Not everything is shared
Not the way I feel
And I know that I'm at fault
So I'll watch it all dissolve
Drop by drop
By drop

.

I stumbled in the streets
Upon hands and knees
There's a fire in my head
But the streams aren't coming yet

There's nothing here I want
There's nothing here I need
A soul's not built of stone
No, nothing concrete

I'm sick of reaching out
Could you reach down
I'm sick of reaching out
Could you reach down

You were given more than I
A life not built on a divide
And I've always sought out home
To mend the distance here inside

But I've been set up for failure
A selfish circumstance
Carried out by a concubine
Down a broken family branch

And scars don't really heal
You just go on, forget they're real
So where's this hope you say I have
Is it just enough to know I can run back

But I'm sick of reaching out
Could you reach down
I'm sick of reaching out
Could you stoop down
To this lowly place
I know you've been much deeper down

No matter where I go
You still won't pull me out

"Between"

I am two-faced, two-sided
Defaced, divided
Unnerved, undecided
Who will I be?

I could live for the day, or stay inside
Wholly embrace, or remain in hiding
A blank space for me to write in
Who will I be?

Cause I could be myself
Or anybody else
Hold to the bitterness in me
Or place my pride up on the shelf
And I could live to be the thing
That you've wanted me to be
Is there any reckoning
Or am I always in between

I am no saint, I'm a liar
Full of complaints and desires
Quenching fiction, feeding fires
Who will I be?

Cause there's so much grace I could deny
The walls I place to keep you outside
Without your change in my stagnant life
Who will I be?

Cause I could be myself
Or anybody else
Hold to the bitterness in me
Or place my pride up on the shelf
And I could live to be the thing
That you've wanted me to be
Is there any reckoning
Or am I always in between

Direction, clear direction
Spit me out, I'm going nowhere now
There's only one way that I know
Where I myself will never go
Can't get there on my own
No, never

"Accused"

I can't speak without you speaking up
I can't move without you keeping track
Where words escape you're quick to follow
Where strength is thin you're sure to borrow

You assume, and it consumes the best of me
Though still a brother for adversity
I wish this truth that you convey was not misused
Before graces speaks, I stand accused

I can't search without you searching out
Ask the questions that you yourself doubt
If faith is forged in fear and trembling
Is it only me who's disassembling?

You assume, and it consumes the best of me
Though still a brother for adversity
I'd rather voice my doubts and remain confused
But before I speak, I stand accused
Before I speak, I stand accused

What could tether us together
What could pull us both apart
When nothing stands between
Conclusions drawn behind the scenes
And where we really are