"Internalize"

Here I sit
And people pass my way and glance
And by some chance I'm not okay with it
It's a mystery to me
Why I lash out in my own silent way
To say I'm not okay with it

When all I want is to make
People happy, but not in a shallow way
If I could say what I want to say
I'd tell you everything's okay

That it's okay to feel insecure
It's a symptom of our circumstance
Adrift on a rock that lost its chance
But given a second glance
That you're okay the way you are
Even with the sum of scars
I love you and don't want you to feel far
You're broken, but we all are
You're broken, but we all are

Here I sit
Look up and try to meet your eyes
But instead pull back and internalize
Cause if I can't make you feel the way I do
It's easier if I just hold onto

So I think, real deep
Try to make sense of it
Try to make peace with it
The feeling that it won't connect
But it'll never be okay

That it's okay to feel insecure
It's a symptom of our circumstance
Adrift on a rock that lost its chance
But given a second glance
That you're okay the way you are
Even with the sum of scars
I love you and don't want you to feel far
You're broken, and we all are
You're broken, and we all are

So I'm learning
To put it out
And let it go
And hope that maybe it comes back to me
But I'm not holding too intently